Skin
Gaby and the Thurstones Lyrics

I've been watching shadows alone
I've been alone and feeling isolated, thinking about the shadows on my walls

On the walls inside my home
The shadows are only visible because I'm in my home

For once it's too silent
The silence is too much for me

I feel the confinement
I feel trapped

The walls are looking too thick
I feel like the walls are closing in on me

Loneliness is now throwing rocks
My loneliness is starting to affect me negatively

Restless, invading my thoughts
I can't stop thinking and feeling restless

My patience is breaking
I'm getting fed up with feeling this way

A body need waking
I need to do something to snap out of this feeling

Screw it I gotta get out
I need to break out of this rut

Now I'm downtown, part of the crowd
I'm now out and about in a busy area with people

Warm with whiskey, that I just downed
I just had a drink of whiskey and it's warming me up

You say 'let's get away'
You suggest we leave and do something else

I'm so lonely and tempted to play
I feel lonely but also tempted to do something exciting

I know I could choose to go drown in more booze
I know I could drink more alcohol, but it wouldn't really solve anything

Have a cheap thrill and ignite
I could do something thrilling, but it wouldn't be genuine

On fire with no heat
I could have that thrill, but it wouldn't really make me feel any better

I settle for skin deep, skin deep, skin deep
I choose to settle for something shallow and superficial instead

I wake up with some heavy regret
I wake up the next day feeling regretful

It feels like the rare cigarette
The feeling is temporary and fleeting, like the satisfaction of a rare cigarette

I'm not addicted, it's nice for a little bit
I don't have a real addiction, but the temporary relief is nice

But stale smoke gets me sick
But I know that indulging in these shallow things will ultimately make me feel worse

Back to building up my safe wall
I retreat back to my safe, isolated space

Don't give me your desperate call
I don't want to hear pleas or desperation from anyone else

Then the voices in my brain
Then my own thoughts and doubts start creeping in again

Can no longer entertain
I can't ignore them anymore

Maybe tonight, maybe tonight
Maybe tonight things will be different

Maybe tonight this will feel right
Maybe tonight I'll find what I'm looking for

I settle for skin deep, skin, skin deep
But for now, I settle for superficial things that won't really satisfy me