Heart of Darkness
Grim Salvo & Sect Unit Lyrics

Sunken walls
I am trapped and struggling.

Only have myself to blame
I am responsible for my current state of despair.

Ay, it's been a while now
The situation has been ongoing and I'm tired.

Smoke a demon on sight
I am constantly fighting inner demons and seeking relief.

Yeah, I think I need to lie down
I am exhausted and need to rest.

Something falls
I am constantly losing something or someone important to me.

Something else is put in place
New problems and challenges arise to take the place of what I have lost.

Ay, gimme catharsis
I need emotional release and healing.

Got my armor cinched tight in the heart of darkness
I am hardened and prepared for the worst, even in the depths of despair.

After all
Despite my efforts and sacrifices, it all seems futile.

Pouring doses down the drain
I am wasting time and resources trying to fix something that can't be fixed.

Tried to crawl
I attempted to make progress, but failed.

Wound up running back to base
I am back to where I started, with no progress made.

Wanna- Wanna die every time that I think about
My thoughts are consumed by despair and suicidal ideation.

All the thoughts in my mind
My thoughts are overwhelming and consuming.

So much pain
I am in significant emotional pain.

But I don't got the aim to hit my heart or my brain
I am struggling with suicidal ideation but lack the ability to act on it.

Refrain from takin' so many drugs
I am trying to avoid self-destructive behavior.

But stayin' sober just not enough to fuckin' provide a buzz
I am searching for substances or experiences to provide temporary relief from my pain.

And I'm in love with starin' at what's up above
I am seeking escapism and distraction in staring at the sky or imagining a different reality.

Hopin' that one day I can float and fly like a dove
I desire freedom and release from my current situation.

I'm sitting' at the top of a map
I am in a position of control, but unsure of where to go or what to do.

But I don't even know where I'm at
I am lost and directionless despite my power.

I keep on hurtin' myself everyday
I continue to engage in harmful behavior despite knowing the consequences.

But I don't know if I can deal with the pain
I am unsure if I can continue to bear my emotional pain.

And I can't change
I feel powerless to change my situation.

So I just wither away
I am slowly losing hope and giving up on life.

That we call life
I am disillusioned with the idea of life and what it entails.

You came all this way
Despite my attempts to escape or change my situation, I am still stuck here.

But you still won't let go
I am holding onto something or someone that is causing me pain and preventing growth.

The horror...
The reality of my situation is terrifying.

Shrouded herons abhorrent
The darkness surrounding me is ominous and unsettling.

Lifeblood of the god plumes just like dust when they slapped its skull
Even things that were once powerful or sacred can be destroyed or reduced to nothing.

Please God, no...
I am desperate for divine intervention or guidance.

Bitch I caught that demon!
I am taking control of my situation and conquering my inner demons.

Tried to kill me when I was sleeping
My inner demons are constantly trying to harm me, even in my restful state.

Leapt up and I fucking crushed his neck
I am fiercely fighting back against my inner demons and defeating them.

Blotting up the blood until the body's bloated
I am attempting to cover up my inner demons and their negative effects, but it's only making things worse.

All the way through the necklace
My efforts to conceal my problems are becoming all-consuming and overwhelming.

No shit, that's a motto
The inevitability of death is something I am constantly aware of and struggling to come to terms with.

Counting off the days 'til some glass bones holler
I am becoming more and more aware of my mortality and how fragile life is.

Filth full throttle
I am immersed in negativity and despair.

In the slop they wallow
I am surrounded by others who are also struggling and consumed by their pain.

Drunk off all the pain from the tears they swallow
Others around me are using harmful coping mechanisms to deal with their pain, perpetuating the cycle of despair.