I'm Not Home
Hope Lyrics


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Doctor can’t you check my head,
It seems I’ve come down with a case of existential dread,
And I’ve tried meditation; medication; therapy,
But all this modern medicine’s just not working for me,

I ask myself every day,
Is how I’m feeling a sign of the times,
Or mental instability,

And I know,
There’s a million ways to treat the symptoms,
Why won’t you,
Examine the cause?
Cause living,
Underneath a sky that’s always falling’s,
Got me thinking I’m not sick,
I’m just sick of it,

Doctor can’t you check my heart,
Cause every time I watch the news I swear it falls apart,
So I just put my phone away,
Watch office re-runs on replay,
Maybe I need a self-care day,
But I’ve got fucking bills to pay,

And I know,
There’s a million ways to treat the symptoms,
Why won’t you,
Examine the cause?
Cause living,
Underneath a sky that’s always falling’s,
Got me thinking I’m not sick,
I’m just sick of it,

Am I depressed if I know the only reason that I’m sad,
Is I’ll never get to live the life I know my parents had?
Am I anxious if I tell you that what occupies my mind,
Is the fires that burn our forests down or rising global tides?
Am I paranoid for saying shady hands are pulling strings,
When the wealthy order coups from offshore pedophile rings?
Can you reach a diagnosis? can you sell me your quick fix?
When you already know I’m not sick,
I’m just sick of it?

Yeah cause we’re all on the brink,
This ship’s about to sink,
Maybe this is not normal,
Maybe it’s time to think,
Could there be a better way,
Can we learn from yesterday,
Or are we doomed to die,
Buried in mistakes we didn’t make?

And how dare you think that you can fix me,
When what’s fucked up is reality?

And I know,
There’s a million ways to treat the symptoms,
Why won’t you,
Examine the cause?
Cause living,
Underneath a sky that’s always falling’s,
Got me thinking I’m not sick,

And I know; yeah I know,
Just how to treat the symptoms,
But you know that it won’t,
Make any fucking difference,
Cause living underneath a sky that’s always falling,




Has me thinking I’m not sick,
I’m just sick of it

Overall Meaning

The song "I'm Not Home" by Hope explores the feelings of existential dread, frustration, and disillusionment with the state of the world. The singer is seeking help from a doctor to understand their emotional state and mental well-being, but they find that conventional methods such as medication, therapy, and meditation do not alleviate their distress. This could symbolize the inability of modern medicine to address the deeper underlying issues causing their existential crisis.


The lyrics highlight the singer's daily struggle to decipher whether their emotions are a reflection of the times we live in or indications of mental instability. They question whether their sadness is a result of not being able to achieve the life and happiness their parents had, or if their anxiety stems from environmental concerns like the destruction of forests and the rise of global warming. These introspective questions imply a longing for a deeper understanding of their emotions and the world around them.


The song suggests a frustration with society's focus on treating symptoms rather than examining the root causes. The singer longs for the doctor to dig deeper and uncover the underlying issues. They express their weariness of living in a world where it feels like the sky is constantly falling, and it seems that medication can only offer temporary relief rather than address the systemic problems at hand.


The lyrics also touch upon the singer's questioning of the status quo and society's acceptance of it. They express skepticism towards powerful entities manipulating events and highlight concerns about corruption, coups, and hidden agendas. This demonstrates their disillusionment with the world and a desire for the truth to be exposed.


In the final part of the song, the singer reflects on the collective state of humanity. They suggest that we might be on the brink of a disaster, using the metaphor of a sinking ship. They contemplate the need for introspection and learning from past mistakes to create a better future. The lyrics convey a sense of urgency, emphasizing the need to address the deeper causes of societal issues instead of merely treating surface-level symptoms.


Overall, "I'm Not Home" explores themes of existential dread, frustration, disillusionment, and a longing for a better world. It criticizes the reliance on superficial treatments and emphasizes the necessity of examining root causes to bring about meaningful change. The lyrics invite reflection on personal emotions as well as the larger societal and environmental concerns affecting us all.


Line by Line Meaning

Doctor can’t you check my head,
Doctor, can you please examine my mind and emotions?


It seems I’ve come down with a case of existential dread,
I'm experiencing a deep sense of anxiety and questioning the meaning of life.


And I’ve tried meditation; medication; therapy,
I have attempted various methods like meditation, taking medication, and seeking therapy.


But all this modern medicine’s just not working for me,
However, none of these modern treatments seem to be effective in alleviating my condition.


I ask myself every day,
I constantly question...


Is how I’m feeling a sign of the times,
...whether my emotions are a result of the current state of the world.


Or mental instability,
...or if it's a manifestation of my own mental instability.


And I know,
I understand that...


There’s a million ways to treat the symptoms,
...there are numerous methods to address the symptoms I'm experiencing.


Why won’t you,
Why don't you...


Examine the cause?
...thoroughly investigate the underlying cause?


Cause living,
Because existing...


Underneath a sky that’s always falling’s,
...in a world where there's a constant sense of impending crisis...


Got me thinking I’m not sick,
...it leads me to believe that I'm not actually ill...


I’m just sick of it,
...but rather exhausted and fed up.


Doctor can’t you check my heart,
Doctor, can you examine my emotions and feelings deeply?


Cause every time I watch the news I swear it falls apart,
Because every time I see the news, it feels like everything is collapsing.


So I just put my phone away,
Thus, I choose to distance myself from my phone...


Watch office re-runs on replay,
...and instead find solace in re-watching episodes of 'The Office.'


Maybe I need a self-care day,
Perhaps what I truly require is a day dedicated to taking care of myself.


But I’ve got fucking bills to pay,
However, I am burdened with the responsibility of paying my bills.


Am I depressed if I know the only reason that I’m sad,
Does my awareness that my sadness stems solely from...


Is I’ll never get to live the life I know my parents had?
...not being able to experience the life my parents once had make me depressed?


Am I anxious if I tell you that what occupies my mind,
Should I be categorized as anxious if the thoughts consuming my mind...


Is the fires that burn our forests down or rising global tides?
...revolve around the devastating forest fires and the increasing sea levels?


Am I paranoid for saying shady hands are pulling strings,
Would it be considered paranoia if I assert that manipulative individuals are controlling things behind the scenes?


When the wealthy order coups from offshore pedophile rings?
...especially when powerful and privileged individuals orchestrate coups through illicit organizations involving child exploitation?


Can you reach a diagnosis? can you sell me your quick fix?
Are you capable of diagnosing me? Can you offer a miracle solution?


When you already know I’m not sick,
Although you are aware that I am not physically ill...


I’m just sick of it?
...I am simply tired and frustrated with everything?


Yeah cause we’re all on the brink,
Indeed, because we are all on the verge of...


This ship’s about to sink,
...this society collapsing, similar to a sinking ship.


Maybe this is not normal,
Perhaps this situation is not ordinary...


Maybe it’s time to think,
...and thus, it's essential for us to reflect upon it.


Could there be a better way,
Is it possible to find an improved approach?


Can we learn from yesterday,
Can we gain knowledge from the past?


Or are we doomed to die,
...or are we destined for destruction...


Buried in mistakes we didn’t make?
...due to the errors of previous generations?


And how dare you think that you can fix me,
Furthermore, how audacious of you to believe that you can fix my problems...


When what’s fucked up is reality?
...when the true issue lies within the distorted state of the world we live in?


And I know,
I acknowledge that...


There’s a million ways to treat the symptoms,
...numerous methods exist to alleviate the symptoms.


Why won’t you,
Why won't you...


Examine the cause?
...scrutinize the root cause?


Cause living,
Because existing...


Underneath a sky that’s always falling’s,
...in a world where there's a constant sense of impending crisis...


Got me thinking I’m not sick,
...leads me to believe that I'm not truly ill...


I’m just sick of it,
...but rather exhausted and fed up.


And I know; yeah I know,
And I am aware; yes, I understand...


Just how to treat the symptoms,
...exactly how to mitigate the symptoms.


But you know that it won’t,
However, you are aware that...


Make any fucking difference,
...it won't make any significant impact...


Cause living underneath a sky that’s always falling,
...because existing in a world where there's a constant sense of impending crisis...


Has me thinking I’m not sick,
...makes me question whether I'm truly unwell...


I’m just sick of it
...but rather tired and frustrated with everything.




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Dylan Reed

@Adam AN. SHR. Yeah the only one that's technically got the biology of an Old Man because he got screwed by a Demon inside a Belt. Imagine that conversation with Peter.

"So you're a Member of the Spider-Verse huh? Suit looks cool but how did you get your powers?"

"I joined a Taskforce to protect the world from Demons, found out about a massive conspiracy where my Mentor was replaced by one and then found out the Belt I put on to transform was slowly killing me. By the time I stopped though I got launched off a cliff by a guy who stole it, went back to the country side home of my Mom and faked Amnesia. Only to regain my fighting spirit and end up using this thing again. What about you?"

"... Uhh, I got bit by a Radioactive Spider?"

Hiromi and Peter could probably become really good friends just based on their experiences with Symbiotic and Demonic Bullshit at this point.



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GugaGamer25

I must know the comic's name

Michael Anderson

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Totally Search

I like how everyone makes Spider-Man sound like a high schooler from brooklyn, really adds to the charm

Annoyed In Seattle

I thought he was from Queens?

the01stMS

@Annoyed In Seattle brooklyn and queens are close to NYC so they sound similar

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@the01stMS they are in NYC

RommDan

... He's 27...

XxKittyJayKayxX

I always thought that was the point? Honestly the voice reminds me of the 90s cartoon.

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Mister Speedforce

I love how he assumes he might be being insensitive, but it's not like they mentioned seeing a bunch of spiderman all from different and unique countries.
he said he saw a bunch specifically from Japan, which is actually anomalous in context.

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