Wander
I.VII.I.IX. Lyrics

Stop calling me back
I need space and time to myself, please stop trying to contact me

I'm sick of being honest
It's exhausting to constantly express my thoughts and feelings truthfully

I feel like there's a hole
I experience a sense of emptiness or incompleteness within me

In the side of my head
This feeling is mainly mental or psychological

From all this fucking talking
I feel drained from speaking too much or engaging in meaningless conversations

Of course I want love
I desire emotional connection and intimacy in my life

Of course I want more
I have aspirations and goals that extend beyond just achieving love

But I also want
There are other things that matter to me as well

A cottage on a hill
I dream of having a cozy and picturesque home in a serene location

With a mote
I want my home to have a protective and symbolic barrier around it

And a lion at the door
I want to feel safe and empowered, with a majestic and strong creature by my side

Cracked tile shower
I see the imperfection and fragility in things that are supposed to provide cleanliness and comfort

Acid eating at the walls
I observe the destructive nature of elements that can eat away at the structural integrity of a place

Yo
A casual and expressive way of starting a sentence or drawing attention

Ive been staring of in space
I've been lost in thought, daydreaming or ruminating about something

For far too damn long
It's been a while since I've been fully present or engaged in the moment

You can't fix me
It's not your responsibility or ability to change or heal me, especially if I don't want it

Wherever my mind Wanders
My thoughts and imagination travel and explore freely, without a definite course or goal

It finds you
You seem to be a recurring or prominent figure in my thoughts

Remember secret meetings
I reminisce about times when we shared private and intimate moments together

Back in my room
These moments often happened in a private and familiar setting

Lived love so undercover
Our love was kept hidden or secret from others, either by choice or necessity

Hips that move and swing like summer
I have fond memories of your body and dance moves, which remind me of warmth and vibrancy

Need to grow
I acknowledge that I still have room for improvement and personal development

Let it go
I need to release or forgive negative emotions or attachments that hold me back

All the notes were a show
Our interactions or communication were superficial or insincere, like a performance

And I was your main attraction
You were mainly interested or invested in me because of how I made you feel or look

And your man does he know?
I wonder if your current partner is aware or suspicious of our past relationship and actions

All the time we put in
We invested a lot of effort, energy and time into our relationship, both good and bad

Gripping, thrusting, biting actions
Our physical and sexual interactions were intense and intimate, but also raw and aggressive

Found my faith in a place in myself
I discovered a sense of trust and confidence within myself, without relying on external sources

Killed the hate
I let go of negative emotions such as anger, resentment or envy

Understanding the real reactions
I gained insight and empathy into the complex and genuine emotions and responses of myself and others

We were broken and weak since we learned to speak
Our emotional and psychological issues and vulnerabilities have been with us since childhood or early development

Want you to know I ain't mad at atcha'
I don't hold any grudges or negative feelings towards you, despite any hurt or harm that may have occurred

I'm not saying its you
I don't want to blame or accuse you of anything specific or general

In fact, I think that we both had our part to play
I realize and accept that we both contributed to the dynamics and outcomes of our relationship, whether consciously or not

Thank you for teaching me
I appreciate the lessons and experiences that I gained from our relationship, even if they were painful or difficult

Now they all know
Our secrets or private matters have become public or known to others, possibly causing embarrassment or drama

And the world's still turning
Life goes on, even in the face of personal or social upheaval and chaos

I've been wondering just where my passion is
I feel confused or unsure about what drives and excites me in life, especially in contrast to past passions

If every past admission proved it's passion less
I doubt whether anything that I've been passionate about before really had a deeper or lasting meaning or fulfillment

Put my dreams upfront
I want to prioritize and focus on my personal goals and desires, rather than just pleasing or accommodating others

And someone else can fit
I don't want to force myself into someone else's expectations or agenda, but seek people who can support and complement my aspirations

First on mine, not last on someone else's list
I want to value and respect myself enough to pursue what matters to me, rather than waiting for others' permission or approval