Blame On Me
J.I the Prince of N.Y Lyrics

I don't like to go outside 'cause I can't stand the rain
I don't want to leave the house because it reminds me of the sadness and pain that rain represents

I walk outside with all this pride 'cause I can't stand the pain
I try to keep my chin up and show off my confidence publicly as a way to distract myself from my internal struggle with pain

My eyes been open since I seen the things you really do
I've become more aware of your true nature and actions, and no longer have blind faith in you

Act like you know it all but if only you really knew
You pretend to have all the answers, but you're clueless like the rest of us

I'm not gon' lie you caught me off guard 'cause I was feeling you
You surprised me with your actions because I had developed feelings for you

So I started to move the way you move and now it's killing you
I tried to emulate your behavior, but it ended up causing problems for you

Used to break her spine for real, my niggas gon' ride for real
I used to be extremely physically intimate with her, and my friends are extremely loyal and protective of me

Fuck up your Jungle Gym cause me and my niggas gon' slide for real
If you try to mess with my crew or my reputation, my friends and I will respond with physical violence

I looked these niggas in their eyes before I sign a deal
I made sure to carefully consider my options and evaluate everyone involved before making any commitments or signing any contracts

I don't fuck with you don't fuck with me 'cause you can die for real
I am not interested in associating or collaborating with you, because if anything goes wrong it could result in serious consequences including death

I think about the beans these niggas really try to spill
I think about the secrets or gossip that others have shared or attempted to spread about me

There was no respect it was life or death and we surviving still
In my previous experiences, things were so tense and dangerous that it felt like it was a matter of life and death. However, we have managed to survive until now

Don't know how it feels, so I gotta keep it real
I don't know how you feel or what's going on inside your head, so I will be honest with you about my own experiences and emotions instead

You better watch what you say don't come out your face cause you can get killed
Be careful with your words and don't speak recklessly, because it could have fatal consequences

Niggas talk shit everyday cause they feel a way so fuck how they feel
People sometimes talk badly about me because they are unhappy or jealous, but I don't care about their opinions or feelings

Really it's fuck how they feel, I think it's time I keep it real
I truly don't care about anyone else's feelings or opinions anymore, and I want to be honest and authentic to myself

I ain't got nothin' to say when I feel like I'm buggin' I pray
When I am feeling anxious or overwhelmed, I turn to prayer and meditation instead of trying to express myself verbally

I got a new bitch and yeah we do shit but I ain't gon' fuck her the same
I am in a new romantic relationship, but I am changing my behavior and not making the same mistakes with her that I made in my past relationships

Got treated like shit she say I'm the shit so now she gon' fuck up my name
My new partner was previously mistreated by someone else, but now she has strong feelings for me and may potentially damage my reputation out of jealousy

Them niggas who said I was ass can go eat an ass when I'm running the game
People who previously doubted or criticized me can now see that I am successful and powerful, and are no longer worthy of my attention or respect

Don't play with my heart like that
Don't mess with my emotions, because it hurts me deeply

I ain't think it would start like that
I was not prepared for the way this situation began or how it would progress

When I open my eyes I can't see shit cause I be in the dark like that
I quickly become confused or lost when I try to face reality or confront my problems head-on

I treated you good when nobody would I played my part like that
I was kind and supportive towards you when no one else would be, and I did everything in my power to contribute positively to our relationship

If you fucking around you gotta let me know so I don't get my heart attached
If you are seeing other people, you need to be honest with me so I can avoid becoming emotionally invested or getting my heart broken

I know what you do before you do it you ain't slick like that
I am aware of your tactics and behavior, and I am not fooled by your attempts to deceive me

I can do what you do to me to you but I don't get like that
I have the power to get revenge or hurt you, but I choose not to stoop to your level and act out of anger

You did what you did for way too long cause you ain't shit like that
You have engaged in harmful or negative behavior for an excessive period of time, and you have a fundamental character flaw that leads you to act this way

I used to make you touch your toes and give you dick like that
I used to have a very physically intimate relationship with you, involving specific sexual positions and acts

These bullet holes can fuck up your clothes you could get hit like that
There is a high likelihood of gun violence or other dangerous situations in our environment, and you could be physically harmed or killed as a result

I traveled this road I been on my own I'm taking trips like that
I have faced many struggles and difficulties on my own, but I am now starting to explore new and exciting opportunities for myself

I puff puff puff and I don't pass I'm smokin' spliffs like that
I am smoking marijuana frequently and stubbornly refusing to share or involve others in the experience

I know I'm still young but I grew up fast I ain't no kid like that
Although I am still technically young, I have experienced many challenges and grown up quickly as a result, so I am not naive or childish like many others my age

You be on some sucker shit
You are acting in a weak or foolish manner, and I do not respect your decisions or behavior

You think you fuckin' slick
You believe you are being clever or deceitful, but I can see through your actions and intentions

Hit it from the back and then I dip cause I can't trust no bitch
I have casual sexual relationships with women but do not develop emotional attachments or trust them, because I have been betrayed or wronged in the past

How could you change on me
I am confused and hurt by your sudden change in behavior or attitude towards me

Gotta take it to the grave with me
I will never forget the way you have hurt me, and this pain will stay with me until my dying day

I gave you a chance when I shouldn't have
I trusted you or put faith in you when I should have been more cautious or protective of myself

So put the blame on me
The responsibility for these negative outcomes or failures should fall on my shoulders, because I made poor decisions or trusted the wrong people