Somebody To Love
J. B. Lyrics

I know how it feels to love somebody that don't love you
I understand the emotional toll of loving someone who doesn't love you in return

Broken hearted status from the pain so now it's fuck you
Feeling heartbroken and hurt, I've reached a point where I no longer care about that person

All the love is hate, I got to put someone above you
The love I once felt has turned into resentment, and I need to prioritize myself over you

All the jealousy and negativity is going to come through
The negative emotions like jealousy and bitterness will inevitably surface

I used to wish for more, I thought we were living in bliss
I had high expectations and believed we were living in a state of perfect happiness

I should've saw it coming, I was blind aint call it's quits
In hindsight, I realize that I should have seen the signs and ended the relationship earlier

Xany's calm me down when I'm sinking in the abyss
I turn to Xanax to find solace and numb the pain when I feel like I'm drowning in darkness

Now it's, lower and lower and lower, I'm just done with this
Things keep getting worse, and my patience has run out; I'm completely done with this situation

Can't believe I really let you break my heart
It's hard to accept that I allowed you to break my heart and cause me pain

Why do I miss all the butterflies you gave me
Despite the hurt, I still long for the initial excitement and joy you brought into my life

Every second that we kissed
Every moment we shared intimate affection and connection through kissing

My heart and brain are telling me different
There's a conflict within me, as my emotions and rational thoughts are in disagreement

My feelings twist
My emotions are tangled and confused

And If I had a genie, you're the wish that's on the list
If I had a chance to make a wish come true, it would be to have you in my life

And I'm sorry that I let you down (Let you down, down, down, down)
I apologize for not meeting your expectations and disappointing you

I just never came around (Came around, 'round, 'round, 'round)
I never fully committed or reached the level of involvement you desired

In the alcohol I drown (I drown, drown, drown, drown)
I find solace and escape from my pain by numbing myself with alcohol

I got to leave Cus you're still in this town
I need to leave this place because you're still present and it's hard to move on

I used to talk to God about everything that we did
I used to confide in God and share my thoughts and experiences with Him regarding our relationship

And girl it's really hard, but I'm trying to just forgive
It's challenging, but I'm making an effort to forgive you for the pain you caused

We used to be so worth it, now I'm going off the grid
We were once valuable to each other, but now I'm disconnecting and distancing myself

Now I'm sinking, and sinking and sinking, lost my will to live
I feel myself sinking deeper into despair, losing the motivation to keep going

Can't believe you really did that, yea you know, I won't forget
I can't fathom that you actually did what you did, and it's something I won't easily forget

All the memories we shared, and all the lies came off your lip
The memories we created together now feel tainted due to the lies that came from your mouth

Fucked up how I'm thinking drugs the only way to live
It's messed up that I'm considering drugs as the only way to cope and continue living

Now I'm popping, I'm popping, I'm popping, I just need a sip (damn)
Now I'm resorting to taking drugs, repeatedly, to escape reality; I just need a sip