If Only
J. Francis Lyrics
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I appreciate you my bruddah
Just want you to know that, yeah
Look
Late nights
Going over dreams with the team
Yo business
I'll be sippin my tea
It's been years
That I let my inner dog off the leash
All a nigga wanna do
Is just ball like Kareem
The minor setbacks
Turned to major ones
I was hoping we'd meet again
On different pages, but
Shit got real
You got older
So did I
Swear my shoulder still damp
From the moments I let you cry
From every nigga letting you down
I thought they was fools
Maybe I was the only fool
To still stick around
No bad feelings
Cause you live and you learn
Or sum like that
Still think it's kinda weak
That both of us had to be like that
But fuck that
Hate when I give love
Don't get my love back
Put trust in somebody
Who force me to take my trust back
I told you all my flaws
You said you loved that
But now it's feelin like dumb cap
Remember when I pulled up on you
First time whippin
Shit was a bucket
But I couldn't wait for you to get in it
Wait to take a spin in it
Look at the way that we did it
Niggas would think we was trippin
To see the way that we ended, damn
Cant even wear some of my sweaters
Cause memories start to play again
Might just end up on yo phone like
"Oops, wrong person
I'm drunk, but hey again..."
And leave the ball in yo court
Or the ball on yo field
Lemme know how you feel
Cause I still fuck with you still
My heart, I'm letting it spill
But you could leave it right here
Pardon me if it's too real, damn
And when certain songs play
I sit there like if only, if only
But I let it continue to play
Cause that's just a wound that still aint healed from the old me, damn...
In these lyrics, J. Francis reflects on a complicated relationship that has undergone some difficult changes over the years. The song opens with a sense of gratitude and appreciation for his friend, emphasizing the bond they share. However, as the lyrics progress, it becomes apparent that there have been challenges and misunderstandings in their relationship.
J. Francis mentions late nights spent discussing dreams with the team, indicating a shared sense of ambition and camaraderie. He acknowledges the ups and downs they have faced, describing minor setbacks that have turned into major ones. The hope for meeting again on different, more harmonious pages is expressed, but it is clear that the reality has not matched these expectations.
The passage of time is acknowledged as both individuals have grown older, and J. Francis expresses a willingness to provide support and comfort to his friend. He recalls moments when he has been there through tough times, expressing his empathy and emotional investment.
However, there seems to be a sense of disappointment and frustration in the relationship. J. Francis mentions feeling let down by other people in the friend's life and questions his own naivety for still sticking around. The lyrics hint at a lack of reciprocity, with J. Francis feeling unappreciated and possibly betrayed.
Despite these frustrations, J. Francis still holds onto his affection for his friend, expressing that he continues to have strong feelings and wants to communicate his emotions openly. He acknowledges the potential vulnerability in sharing his heart but still desires a truthful response.
Overall, these lyrics depict a complex relationship that has experienced its share of challenges and disappointments. J. Francis grapples with conflicting emotions of love, disappointment, and a longing for a better connection.
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Acknowledging and showing appreciation for the person addressed.
I appreciate you my bruddah
Expressing gratitude and affection towards the person addressed.
Just want you to know that, yeah
Ensuring that the person addressed understands the sincerity of the previous statement.
Late nights
Referring to the time spent awake and reflecting deeply.
Going over dreams with the team
Discussing and analyzing aspirations and goals with close companions.
Yo business
Emphasizing that the following statement is about the person's own concerns or affairs.
Yo business
Emphasizing that the following statement is about the person's own concerns or affairs.
I'll be sippin my tea
Indicating that the person is calmly observing and minding their own business.
It's been years
Referring to the passage of a significant amount of time.
That I let my inner dog off the leash
Describing a moment of allowing oneself to freely express their true nature or desires.
All a nigga wanna do
Expressing one's primary and overarching desire.
Is just ball like Kareem
Desiring to achieve great success and recognition similar to the basketball player Kareem Abdul-Jabbar.
The minor setbacks
Referring to small obstacles or difficulties encountered.
Turned to major ones
Highlighting how seemingly insignificant issues escalated into significant challenges.
I was hoping we'd meet again
Expressing a desire for a renewed connection or interaction.
On different pages, but
Implies a hope for a fresh start with mutual understanding and shared goals, despite previous differences.
Shit got real
Referring to a situation becoming serious or intense.
You got older
Noting that the person addressed has grown older over time.
So did I
Indicating that the singer has also undergone personal growth and change.
Swear my shoulder still damp
Asserting that the artist's shoulder remains wet from comforting and consoling the person addressed.
From the moments I let you cry
Referring to instances where the artist provided emotional support during times of sadness for the person addressed.
From every nigga letting you down
Noting that various individuals have disappointed the person addressed in the past.
I thought they was fools
Expressing the singer's initial belief that those who let the person down were foolish or misguided.
Maybe I was the only fool
Considering the possibility that the artist's loyalty and decision to remain were foolish instead.
To still stick around
Acknowledging that the singer continued to support and stay by the person's side regardless.
No bad feelings
Asserting the absence of negative emotions or resentment.
Cause you live and you learn
Recognizing that personal growth comes through experiences and mistakes.
Or sum like that
Casually suggesting that the previous statement is somewhat accurate or applicable.
Still think it's kinda weak
Expressing a belief that a certain behavior or situation is somewhat disappointing or inadequate.
That both of us had to be like that
Reflecting on the fact that both individuals had to approach the situation in a less than ideal manner.
But fuck that
Deciding to disregard or reject dwelling on the negative aspects of the situation.
Hate when I give love
Expressing frustration when the artist shows affection or care towards someone.
Don't get my love back
Feeling disappointed that the person addressed does not reciprocate the same level of affection or care.
Put trust in somebody
Referring to having faith and confidence in someone's intentions and reliability.
Who force me to take my trust back
Describing a situation where the person addressed betrayed the singer's trust, leading to a withdrawal of trust.
I told you all my flaws
Revealing personal vulnerabilities and weaknesses to the person addressed.
You said you loved that
Recalling the person's previous affirmation and appreciation of the singer's honest self-disclosure.
But now it's feelin like dumb cap
Expressing a sense of deception or falsehood, with the previous affirmation appearing insincere.
Remember when I pulled up on you
Recalling a specific occasion when the singer arrived or approached the person addressed.
First time whippin
Referring to the initial experience of driving a car, potentially indicating the start of a new phase or relationship.
Shit was a bucket
Describing the car as being of low quality or in poor condition.
But I couldn't wait for you to get in it
Highlighting the singer's excitement and anticipation for the person addressed to join them in the car.
Wait to take a spin in it
Anticipating the shared experience of driving in the car together.
Look at the way that we did it
Expressing nostalgia and admiration for the unique and exciting way the artist and the person addressed spent time together.
Niggas would think we was trippin
Suggesting that others might have considered the artist and the person addressed to be behaving unusually or strangely.
To see the way that we ended, damn
Expressing a sense of disappointment or regret regarding the outcome of their relationship or connection.
Cant even wear some of my sweaters
Acknowledging that certain clothing items hold memories associated with the person addressed and are therefore difficult to wear.
Cause memories start to play again
Explaining why wearing those sweaters triggers a flood of memories and emotions.
Might just end up on yo phone like
Referring to the possibility of sending a text message to the person addressed.
Oops, wrong person
Humorously suggesting the accidental sending of a message to the wrong recipient.
I'm drunk, but hey again...
Implies that the alcohol consumption may have led to a desire to reconnect, likely with mixed emotions.
And leave the ball in yo court
Metaphorically placing the decision or responsibility in the hands of the person addressed.
Or the ball on yo field
Metaphorically suggesting that the person addressed has control over the situation or relationship.
Lemme know how you feel
Requesting the person addressed to express their emotions and thoughts.
Cause I still fuck with you still
Asserting that the singer still cares about and has positive feelings towards the person addressed.
My heart, I'm letting it spill
Metaphorically revealing and expressing the artist's genuine emotions and vulnerability.
But you could leave it right here
Offering the person addressed the choice to accept and acknowledge the artist's emotional openness or to disregard it.
Pardon me if it's too real, damn
Apologizing in advance if the artist's sincere expression of emotions is overwhelming or uncomfortable.
And when certain songs play
Referring to specific songs that evoke strong emotions and memories.
I sit there like if only, if only
Expressing a sense of longing and regret, imagining how things could have been different.
But I let it continue to play
Deciding to allow the songs that evoke emotions and memories to continue playing.
Cause that's just a wound that still aint healed from the old me, damn...
Recognizing that the emotions and memories stirred by the songs are remnants of past wounds that the singer has not fully recovered from.
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Written by: Tavita Jimmerson
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