Madness
JA Lyrics

Last time for the win now
This is my final opportunity to succeed

I pull up like I'm in town
Approaching confidently, ready to face the challenge

Is it enough I don't get how
Uncertainty about whether my efforts will be sufficient

I did it all these fucking years without
Accomplished so much despite not fully understanding

Knowing what it was but I'm here and the winds out
Reaching a point of success, but feeling unsure of what it means

Feeling like it's the end now
Sensing that this journey may be coming to a close

Gotta leave a mark 'fore the lights start to dim down
Making a lasting impact before fading into obscurity

Tryna leave a legacy
Striving to create a lasting impact

6 years in this shit, for the next 6 years I'm missing
Reflecting on the past 6 years and anticipating sacrifice for the next 6 years

But I gotta be the best of me
Determined to reach my highest potential

This here this is it after this unclear what it is
Realizing this moment is crucial, uncertain of what comes next

Will you even remember me, or just clear out the memories?
Questioning if my presence will be forgotten or if only memories will remain

Seems like no future ahead of me
Feeling uncertain about what lies ahead

So the past is the centerpiece
Focusing on the past as the main point of reference

Used to wreak havoc at my peak I could be classic now I'm weak and I need passion
In the past, I had great potential but now I lack strength and crave passion

To keep this shit going got a goal in mind but is this notion
Motivated to continue, but questioning if this mindset is hindering or developing

Hindering or is it growing my inner demons are indulging
Uncertain if my inner struggles are hindering my progress or fueling growth

In all of this action I'm expected to bash it
Others anticipate me criticizing my own actions

But I'm a sinner too as in all my action just lack sense
Realizing my own flaws and how my actions sometimes lack meaning

I've been getting so saddened thinking that I'm an addict to my failures insanity is what happens
Feeling overwhelmed by the weight of my failures and questioning my sanity

Bitch it's so tragic cause this is descent into madness
Acknowledging the tragic nature of my journey into madness

Descent into madness, bitch this is descent into madness
Emphasizing the descent into madness as the central theme

If only I could relive everything oh
Expressing a desire to go back in time and experience everything again

And knowing what it'd be like in the end oh
Desiring knowledge of the eventual outcome

The winds low, it's getting cold, I can't let go
Feeling a decrease in motivation and a sense of urgency to hold on

If it snows I still have the past to end on
Even if circumstances become challenging, I can rely on past experiences

Been feeling so low both alone and with nowhere to go
Experiencing a deep sense of sadness and isolation

Falling deeper inside of this hole but I cannot let anyone know
Sinking into despair, but hiding my true emotions from others

I just don't know guess the past is where I gotta go
Uncertain about the future, realizing the past is my only option

Cause I'm trapped in a trance and my hope has been gone for a while and I'm no
Feeling stuck in a state of indifference and lacking hope

Longer tryna prove myself I can't do that now
No longer attempting to prove myself or seek validation

Cause it's played out and I've been through route
Realizing that seeking validation is repetitive and unfulfilling

Plus its late now so I gotta rule that out
Recognizing that it's too late to depend on validation

I've just been in this spiral for months did what I wanted but I know it's fucked
Caught in a negative cycle for months, acknowledging my actions have had negative consequences

Go around come around but it's rough and it's my fault so I gotta adjust
Coming to terms with the consequences of my actions, realizing the need for change

Reliving the past is a must to the beginning is all I can trust
Understanding the importance of revisiting the past as a starting point

Last couple weeks I've been stuck just reminiscing enough
Feeling trapped in a cycle of reminiscing, realizing it's been too much

Felt I was missing the love for all this shit and because this shit was getting too tough
Losing passion for my endeavors due to their increasing difficulty

Nothing but luck been getting numb don't give a fuck now
Recently relying on luck, feeling emotionally detached and apathetic

Somehow I'm now in the end, way too fast to comprehend
Suddenly finding myself near the conclusion, unable to fully grasp the speed of it

Making some type of amend, with my past self to relive
Seeking reconciliation with my past in order to rediscover myself

All of my past once again, this time with plans to repent
Revisiting my past experiences, this time with intentions to seek forgiveness

For my transgressions and sins, maybe with this I'll accept, my only chance to ascend
Hoping that reliving the past and seeking redemption will allow personal growth and progress

But I gotta act quick cause times running out
Feeling the urgency to take action before it's too late

And I might let 'em down once again but I gotta try now or I'll die with no end
Fearful of disappointing others, but realizing the importance of trying to avoid a futile existence

Guess that's my life closing in
Recognizing that life is narrowing down, time is limited

Doing this just to cope with the pain
Engaging in this process as a means of dealing with emotional distress

Feeling so out of place
Experiencing a sense of displacement and disconnectedness

I'm alone it's okay, this was always the case
Accepting loneliness as a familiar and enduring state

Call it descent into madness
Referring to this journey as a descent into madness

This is my past re-enacted
Recreating my past experiences in the present

Leaving a legacy, that's it
Seeking to leave behind a lasting impact as the ultimate goal