PILLS
Jayden Babb Lyrics
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Losing my brain
Doctor, please no more
Doctor, I don′t wanna feel this anymore
The pills keep my mind at bay
To try and keep my monsters away
Now I'm numb and can′t see
Anymore, anymore
Feel my brain go static
Feel my heart begin to panic
Everyone wants everything from me
But I can't even self-provide properly
So, the pills keep my mind at bay
To try and keep my demons away
Now I′m numb and can′t see
If the man in the mirror's even me
Anymore, anymore
I am still feeling pain
′Cause I can't drown out my brain
Doctor, please just one more
Doctor, I just wanna feel something once more
The pills keep my mind at bay
To try and keep myself away
Now I′m numb and can't see
If the man in the mirror′s even me
Doctor, please no more
Feel my brain go static
I am still feeling pain
Feel my heart begin to panic
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Jayden Babb's song "Pills" is a poignant depiction of the struggles associated with mental health, addiction, and the devastating consequences that can ensue. The lyrics express a deep sense of desperation as the singer pleads with a doctor to stop prescribing medication that only provides temporary relief for his torment. The opening lines describe the desire to lose the pain and the brain, indicating a level of anguish that is almost unbearable. The repetition of the phrase "Doctor, please no more" emphasizes the extent to which the individual is willing to go to escape the agony he is experiencing.
The chorus embodies the crux of the song, describing the pills' ability to keep the individual's mind at bay and ward off demons. However, the price he pays for this relief is numbness and a sense of disconnectedness. The line "If the man in the mirror's even me" highlights how much the individual's sense of self has been eroded by the medication, raising existential questions about identity and authenticity. The sense of isolation and being a victim of other people's demands is captured in the phrase "Everyone wants everything from me, but I can't even self-provide properly."
The song ends on a note of sorrow, as the individual realizes that despite their attempt to quiet the pain, it persists. The desperation in the lines "Doctor, please just one more, Doctor, I just wanna feel something once more" highlights the all-consuming nature of the pain they are trying to escape.
Line by Line Meaning
Losing the pain
Trying to forget the physical and emotional pain experienced
Losing my brain
Becoming disconnected from one's own mind and thoughts
Doctor, please no more
Asking for the doctor to stop prescribing pills
Doctor, I don′t wanna feel this anymore
Expressing the desire to not feel any pain or emotions
The pills keep my mind at bay
Taking medication to control the mind and emotions
To try and keep my monsters away
Using medication to control inner demons or personal problems
Now I'm numb and can′t see
Feeling completely detached and disconnected from reality
If the man in the mirror's even me
Questioning one's own identity and sense of self
Anymore, anymore
Repeating the feeling of detachment and loss of identity
Feel my brain go static
Experiencing a blank or numb mental state
Feel my heart begin to panic
Feeling anxious and stressed about the situation
Everyone wants everything from me
Feeling overwhelmed by responsibilities and obligations to others
But I can't even self-provide properly
Struggling to take care of oneself despite pressure from others
So, the pills keep my mind at bay
Continuing to rely on medication for emotional control
To try and keep my demons away
Fighting personal inner demons using medication
Doctor, please just one more
Asking for one last prescription
Doctor, I just wanna feel something once more
Desiring to experience some sort of emotion, even if it means feeling pain
To try and keep myself away
Taking medication to escape one's own thoughts and emotions
Doctor, please no more
Repeatedly asking the doctor to stop prescribing medication
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
A sound effect to end the song
Contributed by Maya R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.