Heavy
Jaylib J Dilla Madlib Talib Kweli Quasimoto Frank-n-dank Percee P Guilty Simpson Lyrics

It's all up on my shoulders and it's getting heavy
I feel the weight of my responsibilities and it's becoming overwhelming.

When I was younger I thought when I'm older I'll be ready
I used to believe that as I grow older, I will have everything figured out and be prepared for life.

But now I'm in my mid 20’s, barely can cook spaghetti
However, now that I'm in my mid 20's, I still struggle with basic tasks like cooking spaghetti.

And I've been spending my money as if I'm paid and wealthy
I've been foolishly spending my money as if I have a high income and am financially secure.

Damn I've built up so much credit card debt
I realize that I have accumulated a significant amount of debt on my credit cards.

At this point paying it off seems really far fetched
It feels impossible to imagine paying off all this debt considering my current financial situation.

And I wanna travel but I'm saddled on a fence
I have a desire to travel, but I'm unsure whether it's a wise decision considering my financial constraints.

Should I stay up on my grind or spend some time before I'm dead?
I'm torn between focusing on my work and career or taking time off to enjoy life before it's too late.

Guess the one thing that I know is I can’t get the answers to it all
I've come to accept that there are certain questions in life that I will never find the answers to.

Like why can’t I be the man that she wanted all along?
I question why I couldn't meet the expectations of the person I love and be the man she desired.

And why can’t I be in charge of how they all take my songs?
I wish I had control over how people interpret and appreciate my music.

And why the fuck did god go and give cancer to my mom?
I'm deeply hurt and angry that my mother has been afflicted with cancer, questioning why a higher power would allow it to happen.

But I slowly make my peace with it
Over time, I'm learning to find acceptance and inner peace regarding my mother's illness.

Or maybe I'm just getting numb cuz I don’t feel different
Perhaps I'm becoming emotionally numb because I haven't noticed a significant change in how I perceive things.

Just less affected, less and less time spent on seeing pictures
I'm finding myself less emotionally impacted and investing less time in reminiscing over old memories.

But till our last second my sisters and I are grieving children
Until the end, my sisters and I will always be mourning the loss of our mother.

I hope I make them proud before I leave the building
I aspire to make my sisters proud of my accomplishments and actions before I pass away.

I know I'm not the son my father had envisioned
I am aware that I haven't lived up to my father's expectations of the kind of son he wanted.

I hope I make a child believe in what is in him
I desire to inspire and instill confidence in a child, helping them believe in their own potential.

Like Mac did, a life ain't a life until you live it
I reference Mac, who taught us that life is meaningless unless you truly experience and embrace it.

I know when you make it the hatred surface with it
I understand that achieving success attracts negativity and animosity from others.

And I'm certain I'll get insecure with my first critic
I have no doubt that I will feel insecure and doubt myself when facing criticism for the first time.

I'm already hurt, these verses seem to make a difference
Even though I'm already emotionally wounded, expressing myself through these verses brings about a positive impact.

So I keep on working till every person has taken interest
I remain dedicated and continue to work hard until I capture the attention and interest of every listener.

It's gonna be heavy when you see my demise
It will weigh heavily on others when they witness my downfall or the end of my career.

For now out the belly of the beast I arise
Currently, I'm emerging from a challenging and oppressive situation with newfound strength and resilience.

And how can you tell me that you don't see it like I do?
I find it hard to believe that others fail to perceive things from my perspective.

Salvation at that mountain peak I climb to
I find salvation and inner peace at the peak of the metaphorical mountain that I strive to reach.

Emotions always escalate a situation quick
Emotions have a tendency to rapidly intensify and escalate a given situation.

I try to keep my cool and reconsider why I'm pissed
I make an effort to remain calm and reevaluate why I'm feeling angry or upset.

I've learned that most the time I'm just denying what it is
I've come to realize that often, I'm simply refusing to acknowledge the true nature of the situation.

I'm guided by a mind that makes me wanna die
My thoughts are often driven by a troubled mind that leads me to contemplate self-destruction.

As other organs try to live
While my mind struggles, the rest of my body continues to strive for survival and normalcy.

I'm horrible at sticking to my own advice
Ironically, I struggle to follow the advice I give to others even though I know it's valuable.

Let alone someone else’s on how to live my life
It's even more challenging for me to follow someone else's advice on how I should live my life.

People always love to judge, I've grown to find it fine
It seems people always enjoy passing judgment on others, but I've learned to be okay with it.

Cuz I just can’t help that they look down on me when trynna climb
Unfortunately, when I'm trying to better myself, some people still choose to belittle or underestimate me.

Word to the wise if you ahead of me be humble
I urge those who are more successful than me to maintain humility and modesty.

Show me your respect and nothing less for I have struggled
I deserve to be treated with respect, considering the difficulties and challenges I've faced in life.

Even though I know I'm next, I only flex when I rebuttal
Despite knowing that success may be in my future, I only assert myself confidently when defending my ideas or opinions.

Otherwise I keep the peace cuz there’s no need to start some trouble
In most situations, I choose to maintain peace and avoid unnecessary conflicts or confrontations.

This girl thinks it's just a line when I said come and cuddle
A girl I'm interested in believes my invitation to cuddle is insincere and merely a generic pickup line.

Why’s it so hard to believe that I just love to snuggle
I find it frustrating that she finds it difficult to believe that I genuinely enjoy cuddling.

Straight up and subtle with my words, I can’t control the implication
I express myself honestly but find it challenging to control how my words are interpreted and the meaning people derive from them.

Cuz that’s a mix of what you heard and how you chose to take it
The way my words are received includes a combination of what was said and how each individual chooses to interpret it.

And that depends on norms that you were raised with
The interpretation of my words is influenced by the cultural norms and values instilled during your upbringing.

Some take offense to things that others find their way with
Certain individuals feel offended by things that others may find acceptable or interpret differently.

Some make the best of what they have while others live their lives complaining
Certain people strive to make the most out of their circumstances, while others constantly complain about their situation.

Right now I'm doing both in an attempt to try to paint it
At this moment, I find myself doing a little bit of both—making the best of my situation while also expressing my frustrations.

Cuz I've been residing in a state that I feel opaque in
I've been living in a mental state where everything feels unclear and obscure, lacking transparency and clarity.

Trynna find the faith that I eventually will make it
I'm struggling to find the confidence and belief that I will eventually succeed and achieve my goals.

To a time that I am fine with all the times I wasn’t
I long for a future when I can come to terms and be at peace with all the past moments when I wasn't okay.

Looking at my life, I've had a dime a dozen
Reflecting on my life, I've experienced numerous ordinary or common occurrences.

It's gonna be heavy when you see my demise
It will be emotionally burdensome for others when they witness my downfall or the end of my career.

For now out the belly of the beast I arise
However, for the time being, I'm emerging from a difficult and challenging situation stronger than before.

Salvation at that mountain peak I climb to
I find salvation and a sense of fulfillment at the pinnacle of the metaphorical mountain I'm striving to conquer.

Salvation at that mountain peak I climb to
Salvation and inner peace are waiting for me at the peak of the mountain I aim to reach.

Salvation at that mountain peak I climb to
Salvation and a sense of purpose are waiting for me when I finally conquer the challenges and obstacles on my path.