Born in Cape Town, South Africa on November 26, 1976, the daughter of South African jazz musicians (her father and mother are the celebrated musicians Sathima Bea Benjamin and Abdullah Ibrahim), she studied Vocal Performance at the LaGuardia School of Music & Art before majoring in Music Business at New York University. She also did some modelling during her teen years.
Ibrahim initially worked under the names Major Woody & Da Easter Bunny because she thought it would be funny to hear those names announced at shows. After working with groups including Ground Zero, she joined a hip hop music group called Natural Resource in the mid-1990s, along with rapper Ocean. In 1996 they released a pair of 12-inch singles called Negro League Baseball b/w "Bum Deal" b/w "They Lied," and "Bum Deal(remix)" b/w "They Lied(remix)" b/w "I Love This World" on their own label Makin' Records. She also appeared on singles by fellow Makin' Records artists Pumpkinhead and Bad Seed, and on the O.B.S. (Original Blunted Soldiers) double 12-inch single alongside crew members Pumpkinhead, Bad Seed, and Meat-pie, and produced much of the material released on the label under the pseudonym Run Run Shaw. During this period she established strong ties with the Brooklyn Academy crew, with which she would appear throughout her career.
Solo career (1998-2004)
Natural Resource dissolved in 1998, after which Ibrahim changed her stage name from What? What? to Jean Grae, a reference to the X-Men character Jean Grey. Under her new moniker, she released her first LPβAttack of the Attacking Thingsβin 2002, and followed it in 2004 with This Week. Throughout her career she has also recorded tracks with numerous major hip hop artists, Atmosphere, The Roots, Talib Kweli, The Herbaliser, Da Beatminerz, Phonte, Mr. Len, Masta Ace, Vordul Mega, C-Rayz Walz, Mos Def, and Immortal Technique among them.
Jean has recorded an unreleased album with celebrated North Carolina producer 9th Wonder, of Little Brother fame, entitled Jeanius. This unfinished record was leaked on the internet, and subsequently work was stopped on this album. However, at the release party for 9th Wonder's Dream Merchant Volume 2 album she stated that Jeanius was still going to be released. This album was eventually released first through Zune Live Marketplace two weeks before its disc release on July 8, 2008. The album features the track "My Story", about the abortion she had as a teenager. Her rapping on the album was described by Robert Christgau as "remarkable for its rapidity, clarity and idiomatic cadence. The writing has a good-humored polysyllabic literacy.". Elsewhere, it's been reported that her proposed fourth album, provisionally titled Phoenix has gone into production. It has been reported by several camp insiders that 9th Wonder will handle the lion's share of the production duties with unknown UK producer Passion hifi and NY resident Clinikal providing a beat each.
Blacksmith Music (2005-present)
Previously signed to Babygrande Records, she signed a deal in 2005 with Talib Kweli's Blacksmith Records. On 28 April 2008, Jean Grae posted a blog on her MySpace page saying goodbye to her fans.[9] She later cited disenchantment with the music industry and desire to start a family as the reasons behind the 'retirement' and said that she was working on new material and still wanted to continue in music: "You know what? I need that Grammy. I think I might be able to stop after that". In July 2008, Talib Kweli posted a blog explaining Grae's album, mentioning that she was not retiring. The blog ends encouraging fans to purchase the album, referring to Grae as "one of the last true MCs left." Grae returned to doing live performances later that year.
On September 18, 2008, Jean Grae posted a Craigslist ad offering her creative services for $800/16 bars. On her MySpace blog entry, she states, "I don't wanna complain anymore, I just wanna change some things about the way artists are treated and the way you guys are allowed to be involved, since it IS the digital age."
You Don't Know
Jean Grae Lyrics
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Wouldn't even stop to talk to the average kid
The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage with
Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for hire
Disciplined, intellectual beauty's what I desire
Flyer than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Lopez
Everyone told me, kickin' it to her was hopeless
At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids
But the rich-sniff-coke kids got no play
"I'm not even interested" is what her body language would say
Everyone around the way, gave up trying to get in it
It didn't matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it
On the block, bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it
Talk shit, and deny to everyone that they did it
'Cause they regreted the long list of niggaz that they let hit it
And no one ever gave them shit except McDonald's and did-dick
Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it
She smoked intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy
But when they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy
She had a style, all her own, respectful and pure
I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a cure
[Chorus]
Don't you know that, time waits for no man
Not fate, it's all planned
I'm blessed just to know you
I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night
Can't find, a reason why
God came, to you and I
If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go
Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know
Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad
I used to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad
That I wasn't just another nigga trying to get in it
So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute
I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours
On her birthday, I gave her a poem with flowers
Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower
We talked about, power to the people and such
We spent more time together but it was never enough
I never tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel
I was too interested, in keeping it real
Perfectly honest and complete, she would always call me "carino,"
And never Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks
Forever changing the expression of my thoughts when I speak
It was because of her, I even deaded all of my freaks
She convinced me, to stop hangin' out on the streets
To stop robbin' and stealin', from people like you
Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Bronxu
We sailed in Barrio (?) and the Metropolitan too
Got to the point when I was either with her or my crew
So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was true
I couldn't live without her so I told her, facing my fears
But honey's only response, was a face full of tears
She could only sob hysterically, holding me tight
I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I left sight
I felt like a moth who got himself too close to the light
Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after that night
[Chorus]
I went on with my life, college and my career
Ended up locked up like an animal for a year
Where the C.O.'s talk to you like they were the overseer
Then I got sent to the hole, when my exit was near
At night in my cell, I'd close my eyes and I'd see her
Hold her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared
Just an empty cell until the state gave me parole in the summer
came back, in tact and on track
But the fact of the matter, is I still felt cold
Even after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home
My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my zone
Fuckin' lots of different women, but I still felt alone
Relatively well-known around the New York underground
But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be down
The sound of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair
Though gone physically, somehow it was still there
I had to do something, because the shit was too much to bear
So I went and visited the building where she used to live
The world looks a lot different after you do a bid
The way your life done changed
While primitive minds (are) still stuck in the same game
Like her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine
Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last name
Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, like a mother oughta
But her facial expression changed, when I asked about her daughter
[Chorus]
She told me that there was a note for me, that was left behind
She had left it there waiting, for such a long time
I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up first
I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and then she cursed
She told me where the letter was and I started thinking the worst
Reversed my position, stepped over and opened the door
And sure enough there was an envelope with my name on the floor
"Nobody loves you more than me carino" is what the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll probably be dead
But when you left in '97 a part of me went to Heaven
I thank God at least I got to know what love really was
But it hurt me, to see what true love really does
'Cause even though we never made love, you were all that there was
It was because I loved you so much that I had to make you leave
You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to believe
And then I slipped up, and I let you get close to me
It was hard to not be openly when people spoke to me
This was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be
Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that left me with HIV
Hoped the end exists for me since late in 1993
I died a virgin, I wish I could've given myself to you
I cried in the hospital because there was no one else but you
Promise that you'll meet me in paradise inevitably
No matter what, I'll keep your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is still a blur
But I remember wishing that I was dead, instead of her
She was buried on August 3rd
The story ends without a sequel
And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in love with people
Hold the person that you love closely if they're next to you
The one you love, not the person that'll simply have sex with you
Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then beyond
'Cause you never really know what you got, until it's gone
The lyrics of Jean Grae's song "You Never Know" is a story about a man who fell in love with a woman who was not interested in him initially. She was disciplined, intellectual, and beautiful, and he was just an average kid. Despite her disinterest, he continued to pursue her, and they became friends. They talked about everything from power to the people and such. They spent more time together but it was never enough, and he never tried to cop a feel. Eventually, he confessed his feelings to her, but she only responded by crying hysterically and hugging him tightly. He left feeling like a moth getting too close to the light.Β
Years had passed, and he went through college and his career. He went to jail, where he thought of her and what could've been. He got out and visited the building where she used to live. He found out that she had died from HIV, which she got from a blood transfusion. It turned out that she loved him too, and she left a note for him telling him how much she loved him, even though nothing ever happened between them. The story ends without a sequel, with him sharing the lesson that you should never take the person you love for granted because you never really know what you've got until it's gone.Β
Line by Line Meaning
She was on her way to becoming a college graduate
She had ambitious plans to finish college and earn her degree
Wouldn't even stop to talk to the average kid
She was not interested in engaging with ordinary individuals
The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage with
She was the kind of Latina woman I would seriously consider marrying
Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for hire
She didn't care about material possessions or extravagant displays of affection; her love was genuine
Disciplined, intellectual beauty's what I desire
I am attracted to women who are intelligent and have self-control
Flyer than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Lopez
She was more stunning and captivating than famous actresses Salma Hayek and Jennifer Lopez
Everyone told me, kickin' it to her was hopeless
People were pessimistic and discouraged me from pursuing a relationship with her
At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids
Initially, I assumed that she was not interested in guys who were financially struggling
The thug niggaz always talking about, how they smoke kids
The tough guys in the neighborhood boast about committing violent acts against others
But the rich-sniff-coke kids got no play
Although wealthy individuals who snort cocaine have money, she did not pursue relationships with them
"I'm not even interested" is what her body language would say
Her non-verbal cues indicated that she was not attracted or intrigued by anyone
Everyone around the way, gave up trying to get in it
People in the neighborhood eventually stopped attempting to pursue her romantically
It didn't matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it
Even if you were charming or had a good approach, she was not interested
On the block, bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it
Women in the neighborhood felt envious of her, but they refused to acknowledge it
Talk shit, and deny to everyone that they did it
They would criticize her behind her back and then deny their actions when confronted
'Cause they regreted the long list of niggaz that they let hit it
They felt remorse for engaging in casual sexual encounters with numerous men
And no one ever gave them shit except McDonald's and did-dick
The only things they received were fast food from McDonald's and unsatisfying sexual encounters
Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it
They would smoke marijuana and feel envious of her success and desirability
She smoked intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy
She would smoke marijuana responsibly and thoughtfully, while they would imitate her actions and behavior
But when they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy
When they attempted to imitate her way of speaking, it came across as inauthentic and unrefined
She had a style, all her own, respectful and pure
She had a unique and genuine way of carrying herself, displaying respect and purity
I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a cure
I was deeply infatuated and obsessed with her, and there was no remedy for my condition
Don't you know that, time waits for no man
Time does not wait for anyone, it continues to move forward regardless
Not fate, it's all planned
The course of events is not determined by destiny, but rather by a deliberate plan
I'm blessed just to know you
I consider myself fortunate to have known you
I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night
I have experienced both love and heartbreak just for the opportunity to hold you in my arms
Can't find, a reason why
I cannot find a logical explanation
God came, to you and I
God intervened and brought us together
If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go
If given another opportunity, I would never allow you to leave me
Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know
Hold onto your love and cherish it, because you never know when it might be taken from you
Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad
Her eyes were aesthetically pleasing but conveyed a sense of emptiness and sorrow
I used to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad
We would have occasional conversations, and she seemed happy about it
That I wasn't just another nigga trying to get in it
She appreciated that I genuinely cared about her and wasn't only interested in pursuing a sexual relationship
So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute
Occasionally, we would interrupt our activities to engage in conversation
I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours
I didn't employ any tricks or strategies, so our short conversations would extend into lengthy discussions
On her birthday, I gave her a poem with flowers
As a birthday gift, I presented her with a heartfelt poem and a bouquet of flowers
Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower
I treated her to a meal at a restaurant following her cousin's celebration of a new baby
We talked about, power to the people and such
We engaged in discussions about empowering the community and related topics
We spent more time together but it was never enough
Although we started spending more time in each other's company, it never felt like we had spent enough time together
I never tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel
I respected her boundaries and never attempted to touch her inappropriately
I was too interested, in keeping it real
My focus was on maintaining authenticity and honesty in our interactions
Perfectly honest and complete, she would always call me "carino,"
She consistently referred to me affectionately as "carino," which means "darling" or "sweetheart" in Spanish
And never Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks
Instead of calling me by my stage name (Technique), she called me by my real name and would gift me with a new book to read regularly
Forever changing the expression of my thoughts when I speak
Her influence on me was so profound that it permanently altered the way I expressed myself verbally
It was because of her, I even deaded all of my freaks
Because of her, I ended all of my casual sexual encounters and focused solely on her
She convinced me, to stop hangin' out on the streets
She persuaded me to abandon my involvement in street life and criminal activities
To stop robbin' and stealin', from people like you
To cease engaging in theft and robbery from individuals in the community
Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Bronx
Rather than engaging in unlawful activities, I took her to cultural venues like the Apollo Theater and the Bronx
We sailed in Barrio (?) and the Metropolitan too
We explored neighborhoods like Barrio and the Metropolitan area together
Got to the point when I was either with her or my crew
I reached a stage where I had to choose between spending time with her or being with my group of friends
So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was true
I made a decision one day to confess my genuine feelings for her
I couldn't live without her so I told her, facing my fears
I expressed to her that I couldn't imagine my life without her, despite my fear of rejection
But honey's only response, was a face full of tears
Her only reaction was to burst into tears
She could only sob hysterically, holding me tight
She could only cry uncontrollably while holding onto me tightly
I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I left sight
I attempted to say something, but she continued sobbing until I was out of her sight
I felt like a moth who got himself too close to the light
I felt like a moth that had ventured too close to a bright light source, resulting in negative consequences
Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after that night
Unlike being burned by the light, I became emotionally cold and distant after that incident
I went on with my life, college and my career
I continued with my life, focusing on my education and professional aspirations
Ended up locked up like an animal for a year
Unfortunately, I ended up incarcerated for a year, treated like a caged animal
Where the C.O.'s talk to you like they were the overseer
Correctional officers spoke to us inmates as if they were in charge and superior to us
Then I got sent to the hole, when my exit was near
Eventually, I was placed in solitary confinement just as my release from prison was approaching
At night in my cell, I'd close my eyes and I'd see her
During the night in my prison cell, I would close my eyes and imagine her presence
Hold her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared
In my dreams, I could embrace her tightly, but upon waking, she would vanish
Just an empty cell until the state gave me parole in the summer
My cell felt empty and devoid of meaning until I was granted parole by the state during the summer season
came back, in tact and on track
After my release, I returned intact and focused on my goals and aspirations
But the fact of the matter, is I still felt cold
Nevertheless, the truth of the situation is that I still felt emotionally distant and numb
Even after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home
Despite my mother hugging me and shedding tears of joy upon my return home
My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my zone
My true friends would observe me lost in thought, detached from reality
Fuckin' lots of different women, but I still felt alone
Engaging in sexual relationships with numerous women didn't alleviate the feeling of loneliness
Relatively well-known around the New York underground
I had gained a certain level of recognition and fame within the underground music scene in New York
But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be down
However, my thoughts constantly gravitated towards her and the connection we once shared
The sound of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair
The memory of her voice and the delightful fragrance of her hair lingered in my mind
Though gone physically, somehow it was still there
Although she was no longer present in my life, her essence still persisted in my memories
I had to do something, because the shit was too much to bear
The emotional weight became overwhelming, so I felt compelled to take action
So I went and visited the building where she used to live
I decided to go and visit the place where she resided in the past
The world looks a lot different after you do a bid
Your perspective on the world changes significantly after serving time in prison
The way your life done changed
The profound transformations that occur in your life
While primitive minds (are) still stuck in the same game
While some individuals continue to be trapped in unevolved thinking and patterns of behavior
Like her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine
For example, her cousin who was involved in selling cocaine on the street corner
Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last name
I entered the building and pressed the button next to her surname on the intercom
Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, like a mother oughta
Her mother granted me access and warmly embraced me, fulfilling the role of a nurturing mother
But her facial expression changed, when I asked about her daughter
However, her mother's expression shifted once I inquired about her daughter
She told me that there was a note for me, that was left behind
Her mother informed me that there was a letter addressed to me, which had been left behind
She had left it there waiting, for such a long time
She had intentionally left the letter there, patiently waiting for me to discover it
I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up first
I was considering asking about the letter, but her mother broached the subject before I had the chance
I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and then she cursed
I observed a tear welling up in her eye, followed by her uttering a curse word
She told me where the letter was and I started thinking the worst
She informed me of the location of the letter, and I began to anticipate the worst
Reversed my position, stepped over and opened the door
I changed my physical stance, walked towards the door, and opened it
And sure enough there was an envelope with my name on the floor
As expected, there was an envelope on the floor addressed to me
"Nobody loves you more than me carino" is what the letter said
The letter began with the line, "No one loves you more than me, my dear," indicating her deep affection for me
"By the time you get to read this, I'll probably be dead
She anticipated her own death, implying that she might no longer be alive when I read the letter
But when you left in '97 a part of me went to Heaven
When you left in 1997, a piece of me felt like it ascended to Heaven
I thank God at least I got to know what love really was
She expressed gratitude towards God for allowing her to experience genuine love
But it hurt me, to see what true love really does
However, witnessing the consequences of true love caused her pain
'Cause even though we never made love, you were all that there was
Despite us never engaging in a sexual relationship, she considered me her everything
It was because I loved you so much that I had to make you leave
Due to her intense love for me, she felt compelled to push me away
You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to believe
I had such a profound impact on her that she began to question her own thoughts and desired to have faith
And then I slipped up, and I let you get close to me
Despite her attempts to distance herself, she made a mistake and allowed herself to become emotionally attached to me
It was hard to not be openly when people spoke to me
Despite her initial intention to distance herself, it was difficult for her to hide her emotions when others interacted with her
This was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be
Her current situation did not align with her preconceived notions of how her life should have unfolded
Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that left me with HIV
My dear, don't you understand that I contracted HIV due to a blood transfusion
Hoped the end exists for me since late in 1993
Since 1993, I have been hoping for an end or a resolution to my situation
I died a virgin, I wish I could've given myself to you
I passed away without ever having experienced sexual intimacy, and I regret that I was unable to share that with you
I cried in the hospital because there was no one else but you
While in the hospital, I wept because you were the only person I longed for
Promise that you'll meet me in paradise inevitably
Please promise that you will eventually join me in paradise
No matter what, I'll keep your love forever with me
Regardless of the circumstances, I will forever hold onto the love you gave me
What happened for the rest of the day is still a blur
The events that unfolded for the remainder of the day are still hazy and unclear in my memory
But I remember wishing that I was dead, instead of her
However, I do recall fervently desiring my own death in place of hers
She was buried on August 3rd
She was laid to rest on August 3rd
The story ends without a sequel
This tale concludes without a follow-up or continuation
And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in love with people
Now you understand the reason why Technique warns against falling in love with others
Hold the person that you love closely if they're next to you
Embrace and cherish the person you love if they are beside you
The one you love, not the person that'll simply have sex with you
Focus on the individual you genuinely love, not someone who is only interested in sexual encounters
Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then beyond
Value and treasure them to the utmost degree and even surpass that
'Cause you never really know what you got, until it's gone
You never truly comprehend the value of something or someone until they are no longer present
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Lyrically2Challenged
20 years later still one of the best
THETWINZ2005YT 1
im still here for this song 16 years later
Jaimie J
Still listening 2021π―π₯π₯π₯
amblors
this is FIREeeeeeeeeee. damn
Mathematics
Just think, this came out in 03. Still flamez
SixThousand Blankets
Easily the hardest song by a female spitter.
Don Sprowl
She goes off
C B
My woman crushπΆπΆπΆπͺπΌ
Billy Jones
SICK
Draco $antana
Damn.. ill