Creature
Jelly Roll Tech N9ne Krizz Kaliko Lyrics

There's a monster under my bed and at my window there's a dragon
My fears and struggles are like monsters and dragons that haunt me both day and night.

I accepted the challenge, it turned me into a savage
I faced my problems and difficulties head-on, which transformed me into a fierce and resilient person.

I broke a promise to myself again
I betrayed my own goals and values once more, and I feel ashamed and powerless because of it.

I don't know why I am so vulnerable
I can't explain why I feel so exposed and unprotected, despite my best efforts to be strong and independent.

They try to help but I won't let them in
Although people offer me support and advice, I refuse to accept it or trust them enough to share my true feelings and struggles.

I guess rock bottom's where I'm comfortable
I have hit rock bottom so many times that it feels like a familiar and tolerable place, rather than a wake-up call to change my life.

Both my feet planted when most people would've panicked
I remain steadfast and grounded in the face of adversity, even when others would have given up or lost their composure.

I embraced the storm, I found beauty in what was damaged
I learned to find meaning and hope in my pain and wounds, and to appreciate the resilience and strength that comes from enduring hardships.

I'm not afraid of the Boogieman
I no longer fear the specters and threats that used to terrify me, because I have faced and overcome them already.

Instead I look at him like he's a friend
I see my inner demons and monsters as familiar and curious companions that teach me about myself and my struggles, not as foes to be vanquished.

There's not a monster out there in the world That's scarier than the one that's within
The fears and doubts that come from my own mind and heart are more daunting and difficult to overcome than any external threat or danger I may face.

There's a creature in my closet I can hear him rumbling 'round The demons screaming in the distance Creates such a humbling sound The monster that's outside my window He's like family to me now The things that people are afraid of Never let me down
My fears and doubts are always present and loud, but they have become familiar and even comforting to me, because they have never betrayed or disappointed me like others in my life.

Not a sadist, no But I'm hated so The religious freaks say I'm the biggest beast And that I've made it grow When I spray this flow I created more Creatures alike when I heat up the mic I'm a breed of the night but I'm tainted though By the darkness I'm binded I sparked it and shined it They find it cause mine is whoa For that they labeled me a demon seed Wanna disable N9ne, see him bleed Hinder me fatally and see them grieve, no-oh (Chow)
Although I may seem like a monster or a demon to some people, I use my music and my talent to inspire and empower others who have been misunderstood or mistreated like me. Even though my gift may come from a dark or troubled place, it has helped me to create something beautiful and meaningful that touches people's hearts and souls.

You would not believe the creature inside me If you deceive Kalifah's a lively We disagree when people defy me Or tryna take his Whatever the fuckery told 'em you don't wanna break this You forsake his What is sacred? Then it's over, no matter what your faith is I'm a creature
I have a creative and emotional intensity that few people can match, and that sometimes scares or intimidates them. When people challenge or attack me or my music, I defend myself fiercely and without mercy, because I believe in the power and the sanctity of my art and my identity.

Yeah, I managed to get myself in trouble, all of this' pain Yeah, I'm down and the double-dosing liquor's always to blame If I could keep myself sober, I'd keep my hands to myself I take a shot and it's over, that's how I end up in Hell (I do) I hope I don't pass it down to my offspring They get everything from their daddy Feel like I'm addicted to all things Yeah, there's no reason to change I've gone too far now I'm stuck in my ways Back at the bar now They said I'm a flirt and they right I ain't perfect, aight? So when I'm thirsty and perking And purposely searching for something that's hurting me, so I just get back up and go I just back out of it slow That's how it go I knock the back out a hoe And next night act I don't know (Ok) I think they be laughing at me Hands be grabbing at me Feel like God let it happen to me That'd be blaspheme These be that desperately, ok, yeah I think I better let it go Either that or I gotta let her know That I can't do that
I struggle with addiction and self-destructive behavior, especially when it comes to drinking and hooking up with women. Despite my best efforts to change or break away from this pattern, I feel trapped and unable to control my impulses and desires. I worry that I am passing on this legacy of pain and addiction to my children, and that I am becoming a laughingstock or a victim of divine punishment.