She grew up in Kentish Town, North London. At school there she met Niomi McLean-Daley, better known as Ms Dynamite, becoming friends and, "doing dodgy dance routines in assembly together."
After graduating from Sussex University, Jess began working in a local pub in order to fund a continued interest in music on the side. After a steady string of collaborations with various musicians throughout the '00s (including one with Dom Search from The Nextmen) she eventually got her real break touring with Leftfield in 2010.
She has worked extensively with drum and bass / dubstep producer Breakage, scoring a UK top 40 hit with the track "Fighting Fire."
Other tracks to be released in 2011 include the singles "Vultures" and "Live For What I Die For," as well as a cover of The Cure's 'A Forest' (of which Rob Smith himself has admitted he is a fan).
She has attracted interest from the Press including a feature to run in i-D magazine.
Her debut album will be released in 2012 by Island Records UK.
For My Sins
Jess Mills Lyrics
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Words fail me.
Night falls, I'm a heart beat from breaking.
I see his face in all of it's details, and
Every time I close my eyes it's waiting.
Oh, I know, I've lived faithlessly
I'm just preying right now that a God can hear me
Pleading for something
CHORUS
For My Sins I'm here without you
Don't you know my heart is breaking too-
Give me something to believe in,
When two hearts are breaking they never break even.
For My Sins I'm here without you
Don't you know my heart is breaking too-
Give me something to believe in-
When two hearts are breaking they never break even
VERSE 2
Imagining how life will be
Without you waking up right next to me
As you left the city felt so silent
Hearing the door click closed behind you felt so violent.
I know love is not a promise
You're tired of fighting so won't fight for this
So, I lie alone in this night and it's empty
Only the darkness is holding me...
Oh time take the pain away from me
Make me face it don't let me run
Oh bravery come a speak to me
Let me believe in what I've become...
CHORUS
For My Sins I'm here without you
Heaven sent and I let hell break through
Cos I had someone to believe in-
Two hearts breaking they never break even
For My Sins I'm here without you
Heaven sent and I let hell break through
Cos I had someone to believe in-
Two hearts breaking they never break even
The song "For My Sins" by Jess Mills describes the emotional turmoil that one goes through after losing a love. The first verse captures the desperation and pain of the singer, who is on the verge of breaking down. She reminisces about her lover and how every time she closes her eyes, she sees him waiting for her. She reveals her inability to have lived faithfully and pleads with God for peace from the pain in her heart that has haunted her since she let him go. The chorus highlights the anguish she is going through and the sense of hopelessness she feels as two hearts breaking never break even.
In the second verse, the singer talks about the struggle of imagining life without her lover. She remembers the silence she felt when he left the city and how violent the sound of the door closing behind him was. She understands that love is not a promise and that sometimes, people get tired of fighting. The darkness is the only company she has, and she asks for time to take away the pain from her and for bravery to come to speak to her.
Line by Line Meaning
Words fail me.
I am unable to express myself.
Night falls, I'm a heart beat from breaking.
It's nighttime and I'm about to break emotionally.
I see his face in all of its details, and
I remember every detail of his face.
Every time I close my eyes it's waiting.
I am haunted by his memory.
Oh, I know, I've lived faithlessly
I know that I have not lived a life of faith.
I'm just preying right now that a God can hear me
I am praying that God hears me.
Pleading for something
I am begging for something.
Peace from the pain in my heart that is haunting me since I let him go...
I want peace from the pain in my heart that has haunted me since I broke up with him.
For My Sins I'm here without you
I am suffering because of my mistakes, and you are not here with me.
Don't you know my heart is breaking too-
You should know that my heart is also broken.
Give me something to believe in,
I want something to hold on to.
When two hearts are breaking they never break even.
When two people break up, it is never equal, someone always suffers more.
Imagining how life will be
I am picturing how my life will be without you.
Without you waking up right next to me
Without you lying beside me when I wake up.
As you left the city felt so silent
When you left, the city felt very quiet.
Hearing the door click closed behind you felt so violent.
The sound of the door closing behind you hurt me deeply.
I know love is not a promise
I know that love is not guaranteed.
You're tired of fighting so won't fight for this
You're tired of struggling, so you will not try to save our relationship.
So, I lie alone in this night and it's empty
I am alone in this empty night.
Only the darkness is holding me...
Only the darkness surrounds me.
Oh time take the pain away from me
I wish time would heal my pain.
Make me face it don't let me run
I want to confront my feelings and not run away from them.
Oh bravery come a speak to me
I am asking for courage to help me speak about my emotions.
Let me believe in what I've become...
Let me believe in the person that I have become.
Heaven sent and I let hell break through
You were a gift from heaven, but I let hell break through and ruin our relationship.
Cos I had someone to believe in-
I had someone to hold on to.
Two hearts breaking they never break even
When two people break up, it is never equal, someone always suffers more.
Contributed by Bentley F. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
sophie parker
She's beautiful and her voice is amazing.
Sophie Larose
I discovered you by finding out who's daughter you were and it led me here - a beautiful voice you have and a great talent - sorry for the loss of your Mother xx
Gabby Covay
Absolutely wonderful. Talented, reminiscent of the depth of early 90's music ala Sinead O'Connor - Nothing Compares to U
Afiq A
Good song. the first time i listen, my ears start to like the beats of the music.
M M
Love this... For my sins in here without him.
Tikyce Matos
Wow.. I relate to this song.. I love it
DJ Schmolli
lovely!!! gonna be a hit!
piotr_ek
Can't stop listen this <3
Andrei Oltean
Thumbs up ! Very good song .
missnaona di
love it!