white walls
Jillian Rae Lyrics

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Where to begin
When you never win
All I know is I'm two drinks in

I've been here before
I lost the war
Tryin' to find all my limbs

Got too many things on my mind
You're never afraid of what you'll find
I'm sick of these plain white walls
If you can't let go then you can't fall

Now here we are
We set the bar
How could we know that we pushed too far
Complicated by our unexpected expectations
Now it's all just too much

Got too many things on my mind
You're never afraid of what you'll find
I'm sick of these plain white walls
If you can't let go then you can't fall

Got too many things on my mind
You're never afraid of what you'll find

Got too many things on my mind
You're never afraid of what you'll find
I'm sick of these plain white walls
If you can't let go then you can't fall

If you can't let go then you can't fall

Overall Meaning

Jillian Rae's "White Walls" opens with the singer lamenting their inability to win, and reflecting that they've ended up with two drinks in their system. From there, she remembers a past defeat - having lost a "war" while "tryin' to find all my limbs." The verses continue with the assertion that the singer has too many things on their mind, while someone else (presumably a friend or lover) is unafraid of what they'll find. The chorus punctuates this sentiment, with Rae repeating the phrase "I'm sick of these plain white walls / If you can't let go then you can't fall" three times.

The second verse picks up with a sense of regret: "now here we are / we set the bar / how could we know that we pushed too far." This feeling is elaborated on in the following line, which suggests that the relationship was doomed from the start - "complicated by our unexpected expectations." By the end of the verse, Rae comes to the realization that "it's all just too much". The chorus repeats twice more, emphasizing the anxiety and sense of being trapped expressed earlier in the song.

Line by Line Meaning

Where to begin
Starting is a daunting task.

When you never win
Repeated failures can make you feel demotivated.

All I know is I'm two drinks in
Having a few drinks can help cope with the situation.

I've been here before
Past experiences have led to similar situations.

I lost the war
Previous attempts at overcoming the challenge failed.

Tryin' to find all my limbs
The problem is complex and finding a complete solution is difficult.

Got too many things on my mind
Feeling overwhelmed with various thoughts and concerns.

You're never afraid of what you'll find
The unknown doesn't scare you.

I'm sick of these plain white walls
The surroundings are mundane and unappealing.

If you can't let go then you can't fall
Letting go of fears and doubts is necessary to move forward.

Now here we are
The situation has progressed to this point.