Distance
John/CuePublik Lyrics

I swear I’m not just saving face
I am being truthful and not just trying to appear good

I’ve changed since we last spoke
I have made progress and am not the same person as before

Killed the fire, cleared the smoke
I have eliminated the negativity and troubles that were present before

And I walk on coals until we get back home
I am willing to endure hardship and difficulties to be with you

You knew I’d been wasting days, debating ways to cope
You were aware that I have been struggling to deal with my problems

The river dries, the rocks erode
The situation has changed and things are no longer the same

I swim up-tide to show you how I’ve grown
I am trying to demonstrate my progress and personal growth

Take my hand
Please accept me and let me be a part of your life

I know I’m asking for so much
I understand that I am demanding a lot from you

I let you down I broke your trust
I am aware that I have disappointed you and betrayed your trust

Doesn’t this distance tear you up?
Isn't this separation causing you pain and distress?

I'm asking for so much, it tears me up
I am aware that I am being demanding and it is causing me emotional pain

I'll say you were my saving grace but I still said goodbye
I recognize that you were the one who helped me but I still left you

I’ll cut the bullshit, cut the lies
I will be honest and straightforward with you from now on

To hold you 'til those days are long behind
I want to be with you and support you until the past is no longer affecting us

When I’ve exercised the cliches and I’m speaking only truth
When I have stopped using meaningless phrases and am only speaking sincerely

It's more than me, it's more than you
This situation is complex and involves more than just us as individuals

The more I try the less my words have use
No matter how hard I try, my words seem to fall short

Oh won't you take my hand
Please accept me and let me be a part of your life

Oh, this distance, this forgiveness
The distance between us requires forgiveness

I reach out my hand
I am making an effort to connect with you and reconcile our relationship

You don’t have to take it back, no you don’t have to understand
You don't have to forgive me or even understand my actions

All this pain and all this waiting
The pain and longing for reconciliation is difficult to bear

Tell me where I stand
Please tell me how you feel and what your thoughts are

If I do or if I don’t If I can or if I can’t If i can or if I…
Whether or not I can meet your expectations or succeed in reconciling our relationship

I'm asking for so much, it tears me up
I understand that I am being demanding and it is causing me emotional pain

This distance tears me up
The separation from you is causing me emotional distress