The Perfect Kiss
Joy Division CrimethInc Lyrics

I stood there beside myself,
I was lost in thought, consumed by my emotions and disconnected from the world around me.

Thinking hard about the weather
Lost in a mindless daze, thinking about trivial things just to escape my inner turmoil.

Then came by a friend of mine
A friend appeared and briefly interrupted my isolation.

Suggested we go out together
They suggested a way to distract ourselves from our individual problems.

Then I knew it from the start:
I was hesitant to agree, but I realized that my friend was already in a fragile state.

This friend of mine would fall apart
I knew in my heart that my friend was mentally unstable and could snap at any moment.

Pretending not to see his gun,
I was aware of the danger and threat, but chose to deny and ignore it.

I said 'let's go out and have some fun'
In a moment of desperation, I suggested we partake in an activity we once enjoyed.

I know, you know, you believe in a land of love
We both cling to the idea of a perfect world, one where love and happiness are abundant.

I have always thought about
My thoughts wander to a place where I could be content.

Staying here and going out
I am indecisive and can't decide whether to leave or stay in my current state of mind.

Tonight I should have stayed at home,
In hindsight, I realize I was not in the state of mind to go outside.

Playing with my pleasure zone
Engaging in self-gratifying activities alone, as a coping mechanism for my inner emptiness.

He has always been so strange,
My friend's mental state has always been abnormal and hard to understand.

I'd often thought he was deranged
I had entertained thoughts that my friend might have a severe mental illness.

When you are alone at night
When you have no distractions and are forced to confront your innermost thoughts and feelings.

You search yourself for all the things
You take stock of your life and question if you are living up to your ideals.

That you believe are right
You re-examine the values and principles you hold dear.

If you give it all away
You forfeit everything you hold dear, and risk losing yourself in the process.

You throw away your only chance to be here today
You lose your shot at living a fulfilling life in the present, embracing the one chance you have at making it all worthwhile.

Then a fight breaks out on your street
Violent conflict interrupts the mundane day-to-day, making you confront the danger and violence that surrounds you.

You lose another broken heart in a land of meat
The reality that life can be cruel and unforgiving hits home, causing you to question the idealistic world you once believed in.

My friend, he took his final breath
My friend succumbed to his inner demons in a tragic final manner.

Now I know the perfect kiss is the kiss of death
I realize the 'perfect kiss,' the idealistic notion of happiness and love that we cling to, is ultimately fatal and will only bring pain and suffering in the end.