The daughter of Philip M. Hatfield (a radiologist) and The Boston Globe fashion critic Julie Hatfield, Hatfield was born in Maine and grew up in the Boston suburb of Duxbury. She acquired a love of rock music during the 1970s, having been introduced by a babysitter to the music of the seminal Los Angeles punk rock band X, which proved a life-changing experience. She was also attracted to the music of more mainstream artists like Olivia Newton-John and The Police, perhaps explaining the dialectic in her later music between sweet, melodic "pop" songs and more hard rock oriented material. Visualizing herself as a singer since her high school years, Hatfield sang in school choirs and briefly played in a cover band called The Squids, which played Queen and Rush songs.
Hatfield began her solo career following the Blake Babies' breakup in 1991, releasing her first solo album Hey Babe in 1992. The album was one of the highest selling independent albums of 1992. Hatfield recruited a rhythm section comprised of former Moving Targets and Bullet LaVolta drummer Todd Phillips, and Thudpucker bassist Dean Fisher, and thus becoming The Juliana Hatfield Three.
Hatfield achieved alterna-rock stardom with the release of 1993's Become What You Are (recorded under the group name The Juliana Hatfield Three). Several songs from the album received regular airplay on major North American rock stations, with Hatfield's song "My Sister" becoming the biggest hit of her career with the video becoming an MTV staple. Another one of her songs ("Spin the Bottle") was used in the soundtrack of the Hollywood film Reality Bites (1994). Hatfield also made the cover of Spin magazine. Hatfield's popularity coincided with the success, in the mid-1990s, of many other female musicians (such as Liz Phair, PJ Harvey, Belly, Letters to Cleo, Velocity Girl, The Breeders, Hole, Veruca Salt, Poe, Throwing Muses, Magnapop, Bettie Serveert). Although she has always maintained that her gender is of only incidental importance to her music, Hatfield was pleased to have been invited, in 1997, to tour with the first Lilith Fair, a prominent all-female rock festival founded by singer Sarah McLachlan. Hatfield was profiled in a number of girls' magazines at this time and was embraced by many pre-teen and teenage girls as a role model due to the positive way she addressed serious issues faced by young women in her songs and interviews. About this period she says: "I was never comfortable with the attention. I thought it had come too soon. I hadn’t earned it yet." She gained notoriety in 1992 for saying that she was still a virgin in her mid-twenties in Interview magazine. In a 1994 interview for the magazine Vox she said she was surprised by the effect 'outing' herself had: "I think there are a lot of people out there who don't care about sex, but who you never hear from, so I thought I should say it. The magazine I did the interview for is full of beef-cake hunky guys and scantily-clad models, so I thought it would be really funny to say that I didn't care about sex in a magazine that's full of sex and beauty - but no one really got the joke."
In 1995, following the success of Become What You Are she released her followup album, Only Everything, in which she "turned up the volume and the distortion and had a lot of fun". One reviewer describes it as "a fun, engaging pop album". The album spawned another alternative radio hit for Hatfield in Universal Heart-Beat. The video featured Hatfield as an overly demanding aerobics instructor. Prior to the tour for 'Only Everything', Hatfield released Phillips and brought on Jason Sutter (American Hi-Fi, Chris Cornell, Jack Drag), as well as Ed Slanker (Thudpucker, Tinsel) on 2nd guitar, and Lisa Mednick on keyboards. Two weeks into the tour, Hatfield canceled the tour citing exhaustion, and took a month long break. Sutter was replaced by once again drummer Phillips, and touring resumed with Jeff Buckley as the opening act.
In 1996 she traveled to Woodstock, New York where she recorded tracks for God's Foot, which was to be her fourth solo album (third if not counting Become What You Are, which was recorded with the Juliana Hatfield Three), intended for 1997 release. Containing some of Hatfield's finest work to date, the album was unfortunately put on indefinite hold by her record company due to a disagreement with Hatfield. Only substandard bootleg versions of these songs (which do not meet Hatfield's approval) have surfaced and she has rarely featured them in her subsequent live performances.
During this time Hatfield left Atlantic Records and ventured back into indie-world. She recorded a six song EP titled Please Do Not Disturb, along with Todd Phillips and Ed Slanker, and with new bass player Mikey Welsh (Weezer). The EP produced by Hatfield features a tender song "Trying Not To Think About It" which is a tribute to the deceased musician Jeff Buckley who was a friend of Hatfield's. The EP was released on Bar/None Records in 1997.
Following the traumatic experiences surrounding God's Foot and her departure from Atlantic Records, Hatfield recorded the album Bed in 1998 in six days, about which she says on her website: "It sounds as raw as I felt. It has no pretty sheen. The mistakes and unattractive parts were left in, not erased. Just like my career. Just like life."
In 2000, she released Beautiful Creature, an album which was among the most critically well-received of her career. This album left the rockier side of Hatfield's musical personality unexpressed, however, so at the same time she also recorded Juliana's Pony: Total System Failure with Zephan Courtney and Mikey Welsh, which she describes as "a loud release of tension", with "lots of long sloppy guitar solos. And no love songs...a not-at-all attractive reaction to the ugly side of humanity, specifically American culture" The two albums were initially released in a set as a pair. Juliana's Pony: Total System Failure was however received very badly by the critics, who much preferred the acoustic songwriting on Beautiful Creature. On Beautiful Creature Hatfield worked with Austin-based musician Davíd Garza who co-produced much of the album. Wally Gagel a producer for Sebadoh and Tanya Donelly helped Hatfield record her most electronica influenced songs "Cool Rock Boy" and "Don't Rush Me" which added texture to the otherwise acoustic album.
2002 saw the release of Hatfield's first "best-of" album. The album, titled Gold Stars 1992-2002: The Juliana Hatfield Collection, featured the singles from her solo albums. It also contained two of the songs from the previously unreleased God's Foot, a cover of Neil Young's Only Love Can Break Your Heart, as well as four new recordings.
In 2004 Hatfield released In Exile Deo, which was arguably an attempt at a more commercial sound, with input from producers and engineers who'd worked with Pink and Avril Lavigne. Hatfield did however produce the album herself with David Leanord receiving co-production credits on "Jamie's In Town" and the bright rocker "Sunshine'. The critics loved it, with a couple calling it her best work since the start of her solo career.
By contrast, the 2005 album Made in China was released on her own new record label, Ye Olde Records, and has a much rawer feel. John Doe of the band X described the disc as "A frighteningly dark & beautiful record filled w/ stark, angular, truly brutal songs & guitars. This is surely a 'Woman Under the Influence', though I'm not sure of what". Reviews were very mixed, with some liking the lo-fi sound, but others seeing it as slackness.
In December 2005 Hatfield toured the United States with the band X, whom she idolized during her teenage years.
In 2006, Hatfield released her first live album. Titled The White Broken Line: Live Recordings, the album featured performances from her tour with X. This was Hatfield's third release for her record label.
Hatfield's 9th studio album, How To Walk Away was released on August 19, 2008 on Ye Olde Records. The album's heartfelt subject on the break-up of a relationship resonated with critics, who gave the album largely positive reviews, with some hailing it as her best album since In Exile Deo.
On September 29, 2008 it was followed by her memoir, When I Grow Up.
Hatfield returned 2 years later as her 10th studio album Peace & Love was released on Ye Olde Records, February 16, 2010. The album's composition, arrangement, performance, production, engineering and mixing was solely credited to Hatfield.
There's Always Another Girl was released on August 30, 2011 again independently on her Ye Olde Records label.
In 2013, she joined with Matthew Caws (of Nada Surf) to form the duo Minor Alps.
In 2014, The Juliana Hatfield Three reunited two decades after it disbanded. Hatfield, drummer Todd Philips, and bassist Dean Fisher began practicing new material for an album, which would be their first together since Become What You Are in 1993.
In 2015, Hatfield and American musician Paul Westerberg formed the duo The I Don't Cares.
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Now I'm Gone
Juliana Hatfield Lyrics
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Well, don't I merit a mention?
Tell them how you're surrounded by idiots
How I was always much too stupid
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
They only love you because yours is the hand that feeds
But there's no stylistic variety
One of us is still hungry
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
Not coming back, I'm not coming back
Not coming back
I get no apology or a thank you or a please
When I suffer your neglect it's my responsibility
You lounge around your castle fingering your queen
With your chairs that no one sits on and your starched and ironed sheets
You have no faith in the future, you don't believe
That I still got the holy spirit in me
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
I'm not coming back
Not coming back, na, na, na, na
The lyrics of Juliana Hatfield's song "Now I'm Gone" depict a relationship gone wrong. In the first stanza, the singer asks why they don't get mentioned in their partner's memoirs and accuses them of thinking that they are surrounded by idiots, including themselves. The next two stanzas seem to suggest that their partner is isolated and surrounded by people who only care about them because they are the ones providing for them. The singer asserts that there is no stylistic variety in the partner's life and that one of them is still hungry, perhaps for something more than what they have.
The final stanza seems to be a direct address to the partner. The singer says that they have received no apology, thank you, or please, despite having been neglected by their partner. The partner is described as lounging around in luxury while the singer struggles with their neglect. The partner is said to lack faith in the future and not believe that the singer still has "the holy spirit" in them. This could imply that the partner doesn't believe in the singer's potential to succeed or thrive without them. Ultimately, the singer has made the decision to leave the relationship and asserts that they will not be coming back.
The song's lyrics suggest a sense of longing for recognition and appreciation within a relationship, as well as an awareness of the power dynamics within a relationship. The singer seems to assert their autonomy and sense of self-worth by making the decision to leave. The repeated line "It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone" drives home the singer's sense of agency and finality in that decision.
Line by Line Meaning
Your memoirs are so full of tension
Your written record of events is filled with stress and unease
Well, don't I merit a mention?
Am I not worthy of being acknowledged?
Tell them how you're surrounded by idiots
Share with them how you are encircled by unintelligent people
How I was always much too stupid
Explain how I was always deemed inadequate
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
The situation was such that one of us had to leave, and I am the one who did so, and that decision remains irreversible
You're holed up in your country estate surrounded by your sheep
You are staying secluded in a rural property with your animals surrounding you
They only love you because yours is the hand that feeds
The only reason they show affection towards you is because you are the one providing food for them
But there's no stylistic variety
There is no variation in the way you conduct things
One of us is still hungry
One of us is still unsatisfied
Not coming back, I'm not coming back
I shall not return, I do not have any plans to return
I get no apology or a thank you or a please
I receive no apologies, expressions of gratitude or requests, despite being ignored by you
When I suffer your neglect it's my responsibility
I am made to feel accountable for being neglected by you
You lounge around your castle fingering your queen
You lie around in your palace caressing your female partner
With your chairs that no one sits on and your starched and ironed sheets
With your chairs being hoarded without purpose and your linens being excessively cleaned
You have no faith in the future, you don't believe
You lack confidence in what is to come, you don't have faith
That I still got the holy spirit in me
You do not recognise my spirituality and connection to God
It was you or me so I left, now I'm gone
The situation was such that one of us had to leave, and I am the one who did so, and that decision remains irreversible
I'm not coming back, Not coming back, na, na, na, na
I shall not return, I do not have any plans to return, and it is sung out loud
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: JULIANA HATFIELD
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