Intro
K. Huggs Lyrics

Ik werd veracht, dacht ik
I believed that I was disliked and judged by others.

Want jij koos mij
But you chose me, despite what I thought.

Je vond me verdacht speciaal op mijn 7, jaar
You found me uniquely special when I was just seven years old, which I found suspicious.

Want ik dacht dat je het deed omdat je om gaf, daar
I wondered if you were only being nice to me out of pity or obligation.

Je wou me helpen zei je
You said you wanted to help me.

Want iedereen doet het
You said that everyone does it, implying that helping others is a common and decent thing to do.

Het mooie is ik weet je gezicht niet meer
Ironically, I do not even remember what you look like.

Maar elke keer weer, zie ik je terug
But I keep thinking about you and your kindness inevitably comes back to me.

Mss verachte ik jou en verzachte dit de drang naar liefde die
Maybe I projected my feelings of self-loathing onto you, which temporarily eased my need for love and affection.

Ik miste van mijn moeder die weg werd getrokken op mijn vier
I felt abandoned by my mother, who was taken away from me when I was only four years old.

En werd ik net een dier
As a result, I felt like an animal, trapped in a human zoo of sorts.

Ingeboxt in een menselijk zoo
I felt contained and confined, like an exhibit in a human museum.

Hoezoo zou je denken?
You might wonder why I feel this way.

Jaa ik werd vaak veracht dacht ik
The truth is that I felt rejected and unwelcome by society.

Niet alleen door de gezichtsloze jongen maar ook door de rechter
Not just by that faceless boy from my past, but also by the justice system.

Wacht ik, leg het even voor je uit khaal alles uit mijn kluis
Let me take a moment to explain everything to you and reveal my innermost thoughts and feelings.

Ik was mijn hele leven lang niet thuis
I never felt like I belonged, no matter where I was or who I was with.

Maar in een instelling!
Instead, I spent most of my life in institutions, cut off from the outside world.

Kwerd daar verkracht, misbruikt, gepest en gebruikd
During my time there, I experienced rape, abuse, bullying, and exploitation.

Bedrijgd en geslagen, kmoogt mij enkel verlagen, En op school hoorde ik nergens
I lived in constant fear, subjected to physical and emotional violence, and felt worthless and insignificant even at school.

Want ik was een neger
Simply because of my skin color, I was treated differently and unfairly.

Je moest het eens mee maken elke blik
You cannot imagine how every glance or stare from others made me feel.

Ja ik werdt veracht dacht ik
In the end, I could not help but believe that I was despised and hated by everyone.