Close to Me
KITCHEN 1 - The Cure Lyrics

I've waited hours for this
I've been eagerly anticipating this moment for hours

I've made myself so sick
I've become physically ill from my anticipation

I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I regret waking up to face this day

I never thought this day would end
I didn't believe this day would ever come to an end

I never thought tonight could ever be
I never expected tonight to turn out like this

This close to me
So close to me that it's almost overwhelming

Just try to see in the dark
Attempt to perceive when you're unable to see

Just try to make it work
Attempt to make the situation function

To feel the fear before you're here
Experience the apprehension before arriving

I make the shapes come much too close
I magnify my own fears and make them seem closer than they truly are

I pull my eyes out
I become so overwhelmed that I feel like gouging my eyes out

Hold my breath and wait until I shake
I try to calm myself down by holding my breath and waiting until the shaking stops

But if I had your faith
If only I possessed your level of assurance

Then I could make it safe and clean
I could make it a secure and uncomplicated situation

If only I was sure
I wish I had complete certainty

That my head on the door was a dream
That my current situation was just a nightmare

But if I had your face
If only I had your self-assuredness

Oh, if only I was sure
Oh, how I wish I had complete certainty

That my head on the door was a dream
That my current situation was just a nightmare