Hold up
Leilah Lyrics

I wanna feel you slip inside
I desire to deeply connect with you emotionally and mentally.

My mind
I want to understand and experience your thoughts and perspectives.

I wanna watch you undress
I want to witness the vulnerability and authenticity in your life.

Your life
I want to explore and understand the depth of your experiences and existence.

I want you to rub
I desire you to intertwine your story and experiences with mine.

Your story on mine
I want our narratives and emotions to merge and create something unique.

I wanna make you come
I want to ignite your passion and bring you to life.

Alive
I want to witness your vibrant and authentic self.

Hold up baby spit some wisdom on it first
Before we proceed, share your profound insights and knowledge.

Hold up baby let me watch
Please wait a moment, allow me to observe and understand.

Turn the lights on so I can see your universe
Provide me with clarity and openness, so I can explore the depths of your soul.

It's your soul I wanna touch
I crave a profound connection with your inner essence and true self.

I wish I knew love like you do
I desire to have the depth of understanding and experience of love that you possess.

The way your skin does
I long to feel love as deeply and intimately as you do.

The way you protect it
I admire the way you safeguard and cherish love.

Like you deserve it
Recognizing and honoring your worthiness of love.

Like the way you think I do
Similar to how you perceive my understanding of love, which may not be accurate.

But the way I don't
Contrary to your belief, I struggle to grasp and embrace love fully.

I keep hurting you
I unintentionally inflict pain upon you.

But you stay
Despite the pain, you choose to remain by my side.

Walking away is so much easier than to see you cry
Leaving the relationship would be simpler than witnessing the pain I cause you.

Your tears are melodies to my moon
Your sadness and vulnerability resonate deeply within my emotions.

You sing to me so often
You express your emotions and pain to me frequently.

And I'm always listening
I am attentive and receptive to your words and emotions.

But not always singing along
Although I hear you, I may not fully empathize or respond as expected.

You are royalty
You possess an exceptional and majestic spirit.

Majestic in spirit
Your essence exudes a regal and magnificent aura.

So worthy of praise
You deserve admiration and recognition for your value.

Your love is unknown to my broken
My brokenness prevents me from fully comprehending and accepting your love.

My pieces you try to pick up
You make an effort to heal and mend my brokenness.

But they too sharp
My wounds and issues are too deep and challenging to address easily.

You cut yourself every time
In your attempts to help me, you also experience pain and harm.

But you still reach
Despite the pain, you continue to extend a helping hand towards me.

For me
You selflessly devote yourself to supporting and loving me.

For it
You are committed to mending and healing our relationship.

I am pieces
I am fragmented and broken as an individual.

You are love
You embody and radiate love in its purest form.

I want to learn to love like you do
I aspire to acquire your ability to love deeply and unconditionally.

But I don't know how
I lack the knowledge and understanding of how to love in the same way.

So you insist on teaching me
You are determined to guide and educate me in the ways of love.

Even if that means you burn
You are willing to endure pain and sacrifice for my growth.

Slow and steady
Patiently and consistently, without rushing the process.

With every singe
With each moment of discomfort or pain experienced.

Your fingertips grow fonder of my existence
You find increasing appreciation and affection for my presence in your life.

Cuz I think you understand the force field I shield it with
You comprehend the emotional barriers and defenses I employ to protect myself.

To protect it
To safeguard my heart and emotions from potential harm and vulnerability.

Like I know how to
Attempting to shield myself in the best way I know how.

Like I know love is supposed to
Attempting to follow societal or idealized expectations of love.

Love is burning
Love is intense and transformative.

So deeply I want to feel like you do
I crave a profound connection and emotional intensity in love, similar to what you experience.

So badly I yearn for something to move me
I have a strong desire for love or an experience that deeply touches and impacts me emotionally.

Even if that means it hurts
Even if it involves pain or emotional vulnerability.

Even though you say it doesn't have to
Despite your reassurances that love doesn't necessarily need to be painful.

Even if that means you'd spare a limb in the name of love
You would sacrifice a part of yourself for the sake of love.

Even if you choose to see it as a gift
You perceive the pain or sacrifice as a valuable offering in love.

And pray the universe will heal it
You have faith that time and fate will bring healing and restoration.

Repair it
Mending and reconciling the pain and wounds caused by love.

Grow it back so you can burn it off again
Allowing the healed love to be vulnerable once more and experience its transformative power.

You Catress with nine lives
You embody resilience and the ability to endure various challenges and rebirths.

You'd die every time if it meant that you'd feel again
You are willing to risk emotional pain and vulnerability in order to experience love and connection.

As long as it feels anything
As long as love evokes some form of emotion or meaning, regardless of the pain.

Like magic
Love is enchanting and mysterious in its transformative power.

I wanna stretch you out across the stars
I desire to expand our love to encompass the vastness and infinite possibilities of the universe.

I wanna feel you drip
I want to experience your love and emotions deeply and intensely.

Into my heart
Allowing your love to penetrate and deeply impact my core being.

I love the way you grind
I admire the way you channel and express your pain and struggles through artistic creation.

Your pain into art
You transform your suffering and experiences into meaningful and expressive artwork.

You're gonna make me come
You have the ability to evoke intense emotions and experiences within me.

Apart
To the point of emotional and mental separation or fragmentation.

Hold up baby spit some wisdom on it first
Wait a moment and share your profound insights and guidance with me.

Hold up baby let me watch
Pause and allow me to observe, learn, and understand.

Turn the lights on so I can see your universe
Provide clarity and openness so I can fully comprehend and explore the depths of your being.

It's your soul I wanna touch
I desire a deep connection and intimacy with the core of who you are.