I Don't Want Children
Loma Lyrics

I don't want children
I don't want to have children

Even though if I did
Although I may have thought about having them

I would want them, from you
I would only want to have children with you

Now I see them
Now I imagine having children

Lying in the sun
Relaxed and carefree

His head on my knee
Resting comfortably on my lap

Watching a cloud
Enjoying a moment of wonder and whimsy

Change from a horse to a dragon
Seeing the magic in the world and how things can transform

Or her eyes
Alternatively, I may imagine having a daughter

Looking into mine
Making eye contact and connecting

And seeing her
Looking at my hypothetical daughter

I would see you
Realizing how much she is a part of you

And seeing you, I would see
Through her, I would see parts of you I may not have otherwise

How some things invisible
Realizing the intangible ways that we are connected

Can be made visible
Our connection can be made tangible through love and family

And looking out over days unborn
Thinking about the future and what could be

Thinking of vessels unfilled
Acknowledging the potential for motherhood

I won't ever feel
Accepting the decision not to have children

A warm head
The feeling of a child's head resting on my body

Suckling me, feel my body swell
The physical experiences of pregnancy and nursing

And then release
Letting go of that experience

Wondering what could be
Curious about the possibilities of motherhood

Who could be
Imagining the child I could have had

And the taste is bitter sometimes
The decision not to have children can be painful

Sweet love I
Affection for my partner

Send this to you, and only you
Expressing my feelings to my partner alone

Now I'm going away
Leaving for a time

To retrieve a few small things
Collecting some belongings

From the world
From outside our relationship

And when I return, if you are still here
If my partner is still committed to our relationship

When I look in your eyes I will be
Our love will be evident to me

Multiplied
Strengthened and multiplied

Multiplied
Growing even stronger

Multiplied
Our love will continue to increase exponentially

Multiplied
Our relationship will flourish