Homesick
Lou Lyrics

I know its for the best
I understand that this situation is for my own good

And it might not feel like it yet
Even though it doesn't feel that way at the moment

I just need some rest
All I need is some time to relax and recuperate

It's so hard to sleep when in your head
It becomes difficult to sleep when your mind is filled with

Is thoughts of doubt and insecurity
thoughts of uncertainty and lack of confidence

Am I enough or is this just hurting me
Am I sufficient or is this situation causing harm to me

Maybe I'm obsessed
Perhaps I am overly consumed by

With if anyone as even
Whether anyone has even

Heard of me yet
acknowledged my existence or work

Really hoping I don't waste my time
Sincerely hoping I'm not investing my time in vain

But I just need to find something
However, I simply need to discover a

That I'll leave behind
legacy or impact that I can leave behind

They won't care about my nine to five
People won't be concerned about my regular job

There's so much I got to do
There is a lot that I need to accomplish

Before the day I die
Before I pass away

Homesick but sick of my home
Feeling nostalgic but also tired and discontent with my current living situation

Crowded streets but no one I know
The streets are filled with people, but I don't recognize anyone

Ooo shit
Expression of surprise or frustration

I'm home sick
I long for a feeling of home

Packed up everything that I own
I have gathered all my belongings

My mum always said
My mother always told me

Your life has no limitations
There are no boundaries to what you can achieve in life

Cuz your the best
Because you are exceptional

And never lower expectations
And never diminish your expectations of yourself

Have no doubts show insecurity
Never doubt yourself or display insecurities

You're enough love your impurities
You are sufficient and should embrace your imperfections

Maybe too obsessed
Perhaps I am excessively fixated

Shouldn't care if no one else has
I shouldn't be concerned whether others have

Heard of me yet
acknowledged my existence or work

I'm pushing and pulling and I can't decide
I am experiencing internal conflict and indecision, feeling torn between different options

If every decision I'm making is right
Whether or not my choices are correct

I'm looking forward and then in my eye
I am focusing on the future and suddenly, I realize

I catch a demon on enemy lines
I encounter an obstacle or negative influence in my path

You'll never make it You'll never survive
You will never succeed, you won't be able to overcome

You do not know me I know that I might
You don't understand me, but I have the potential

I'll take my chances its that or I die
I am willing to take risks, as it is the only alternative to failure

Maybe they right I got to try
Maybe they are correct, I have to attempt

When your young they say
When you are young, people often say

Go be what you wanna be
Pursue your desired path

No one said my dreams would
Nobody told me that my dreams would

Go and Mess with my phycology
Affect my mental state

I Could had a warning
I wish I had received a warning

But Now I want an apology
But now I desire an apology

I know I believe in me
I am certain that I have faith in myself

And I can say that honestly
And I can genuinely express that