Mayday
Luke Lyrics


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I don't feel like myself
It's getting hard to tell
What is real and what is make believe
Afraid to go outside
Afraid of all their eyes
Burning little holes into my skin
It could be
Just pretend
A dark play
Inside my own head
But how do you know if you're crazy
When you're already swimming in the deep end

I feel the paranoia creeping in
Now I don't know if I can trust my friends
Feel like a plane without a pilot
Mayday baby, Mayday

Now every time I'm in the kitchen
I'm afraid to use a knife
Always picturing violence
I don't want to die but when I'm driving into headlights
I see my body flying through the glass
I see myself in front of buses
And balcony jumping
Tell me what the fuck is going on
Where do these thoughts come from?
Tell me where do these thoughts come from?

I feel the paranoia creeping in
Now I don't know if I can trust my friends
Feel like a plane without a pilot
Mayday baby, Mayday
I don't know what's wrong with me
I can't remember who I used to be
I don't know what's wrong with me
I can't remember who I used to be

I'm afraid I've done things I can't remember
Wish I could pack up all these thoughts
And return them to sender

I feel the paranoia creeping in
Now I don't know if I can trust my friends
Feel like a plane without a pilot
Mayday baby, Mayday
I don't know what's wrong with me
I can't remember who I used to be
I don't know what's wrong with me
I can't remember who I used to be
What's wrong with me?
I can't remember who I used to be




What's wrong with me?
I can't remember who I used to be

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Luke's song "Mayday" delve into the singer's struggle with their deteriorating mental health. The opening lines express a disconnect from oneself, where the distinction between reality and imagination becomes blurred. They are consumed by fear, both of facing the outside world and of the judgmental gaze of others, which feels like it is penetrating their very being. The lyrics describe a constant internal battle between what could be just a pretend narrative and the overwhelming feeling of madness. The singer questions their own sanity, wondering how they can determine their mental state when they feel as though they are already diving into the depths of their own darkness.


The second verse amplifies the paranoia that has taken hold. The singer reveals a heightened sense of fear and mistrust towards their friends. Even mundane activities such as being in the kitchen or driving become filled with dread and the anticipation of violence or fatal accidents. The vivid imagery of seeing their own body flying through glass and envisioning scenarios like being in front of buses or contemplating balconies adds to the intensity of their distress. They are desperate for answers, seeking an understanding of where these intrusive thoughts originate from.


The chorus acts as a desperate plea for help and a cry for attention, likening their situation to a plane without a pilot, signaling an imminent crash. The singer feels lost, unable to recognize themselves anymore, unable to remember who they used to be. They express a sense of dissociation, as if their actions are not within their control or even within their memory. The desire to return these disturbing thoughts to their source is a manifestation of their longing for a sense of normalcy and relief from the mental torment they are experiencing.


Overall, "Mayday" captures the disorienting and disturbing journey within the mind of someone grappling with deteriorating mental health, struggling with their own identity, and longing for respite from overwhelming thoughts.


Line by Line Meaning

I don't feel like myself
I feel disconnected from my true identity


It's getting hard to tell
Distinguishing reality from imagination is becoming difficult


What is real and what is make believe
I struggle to differentiate between truth and fiction


Afraid to go outside
Fearful of facing the world


Afraid of all their eyes
Anxious about the judgment of others


Burning little holes into my skin
Their gazes make me feel exposed and vulnerable


It could be
Perhaps


Just pretend
Merely an act or imaginary scenario


A dark play
A somber production


Inside my own head
Existing within my thoughts and emotions


But how do you know if you're crazy
Is there a way to determine one's sanity?


When you're already swimming in the deep end
When you're already immersed in overwhelming confusion


I feel the paranoia creeping in
Sensing the gradual onset of fear and suspicion


Now I don't know if I can trust my friends
Doubtful about the reliability of those close to me


Feel like a plane without a pilot
I feel directionless and out of control


Mayday baby, Mayday
A distress call, expressing my desperation for help


Now every time I'm in the kitchen
Whenever I am in that specific location


I'm afraid to use a knife
Fearful of potential harm or danger


Always picturing violence
Constantly imagining scenes of aggression


I don't want to die but when I'm driving into headlights
Although I don't desire death, confronting danger is unsettling


I see my body flying through the glass
Visualizing a horrifying accident


I see myself in front of buses
Envisioning situations of extreme peril


And balcony jumping
Contemplating self-destructive actions


Tell me what the fuck is going on
Seeking an explanation for this chaotic state


Where do these thoughts come from?
Questioning the origin of these disturbing thoughts


I feel the paranoia creeping in
Sensing the gradual onset of fear and suspicion


Now I don't know if I can trust my friends
Doubtful about the reliability of those close to me


Feel like a plane without a pilot
I feel directionless and out of control


Mayday baby, Mayday
A distress call, expressing my desperation for help


I don't know what's wrong with me
I am unsure of the cause of my condition


I can't remember who I used to be
My past self feels distant and inaccessible


I'm afraid I've done things I can't remember
Anxiety over potential actions or events that escape memory


Wish I could pack up all these thoughts
Desire to rid myself of these troubling thoughts


And return them to sender
To send them back to their origin


I feel the paranoia creeping in
Sensing the gradual onset of fear and suspicion


Now I don't know if I can trust my friends
Doubtful about the reliability of those close to me


Feel like a plane without a pilot
I feel directionless and out of control


Mayday baby, Mayday
A distress call, expressing my desperation for help


I don't know what's wrong with me
I am unsure of the cause of my condition


I can't remember who I used to be
My past self feels distant and inaccessible


What's wrong with me?
What is the source of my problem?


I can't remember who I used to be
My past self feels distant and inaccessible


What's wrong with me?
What is the source of my problem?


I can't remember who I used to be
My past self feels distant and inaccessible




Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Luke Roes

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