It was the same fall when they recorded their debut album "Byra byra karoliukai" (The Beads are Falling) consisting of 13 songs. The duet was compared to such bands as Dead Can Dance, The Cure, and Cocteau Twins because of the unique vocals of Barbora. The first concert of Mano Juodoji Sesuo took place in the so-called "Festival Of The Worst Bands" (aka Pačių blogiausių grupių festivalis) in Vilnius (1992). Right after the festival the band released two singles - "Tiesi rankas į dangu" (You reach for the sky) and "Byra byra karoliukai"; both of them reached the highest positions in top charts of Lithuanian radio stations.
The great success was expected for the band, but the singer Barbora left for the US before the recording of the second album started. This looked very much like the end of the band but Mindaugas decided not to give up and to carried on with the project.
His childhood friend Dainius joined the band and in fall of 1993 they recorded their demo MC "Saules dienos" (The Days of the Sun), consisting of five songs. The style of the music changed, compared to the first album: it became heavier, guitars beceme more prominent and Mindaugass singing was more romantic and not as alternative, compared to Barboras vocals. The band started identifying themselves with The Sisters Of Mercy.
At the end of 1993 the beginning of 1994, Mano Juodoji Sesuo was engaged into the creation and recording of their new album. The album was titled "Reinkarnacija" (Reincarnation) and was released at the beginning of 1994 under "Bomba Rec." label. The release of the MC was presented in a big concert in Kaunas Academic Drama Theater and has received significant interest of the national press. The song "Nejaugi tai tu" (Can it be you) was included into a German compilation CD "The Torturer vol. 2".
In winter of 1995 new members - Henrikas (drums) and Jurga (keyboard) joined the duet. In spring the band released a new EP called EP "Sesuo" (Sister) that included three new songs and four live versions of older songs. 1995 can be considered the year of the greatest activity of the band: MJS played in over 50 gigs, including the final concert of the tour "Kai perplauksi upę" (When you swim across the river) of the legendary band Foje (Foyer) in Vilnius Vingio Park, and in the festival "Sparnai" (Wings) in Prienai.
In 1996 Mano Juodoji Sesuo released the album "Belamy". The songs "Šaltą Ryta" (On a cold morning) and "Belamy" were included into playlists of Lithuanian radio stations. The drummer Henrikas left the band, and MJS returned to programmed drums. The concert activity of the band decreased, but the creation of new songs continued, and in December 2001 the band released their new album "Synthetique".
Nearly 4-year-long searching period significantly altered the bands previous rock-alike sound and instrumentation as well as their musical concept. A significant dose of electronics and progressive dance rhythms united with dark and cold tones emerged in their new music. The only remaining similarities with their previous albums are Mindaugass vocals and the general romantic and wistful mood of the music.
The year 2003 began with the long-planned Synthetique tour. Keyboard player Jurga left the band and was replaced by ivil from the cybercore band Xess. And it was October when the bass player Dainius left MJS as well.
Mindaugas and ivil duo was complemented by Rosvaldas "Rosva" (known as an ex-vocalist/guitar player of an already non-existent tanzmetal band Liunuosna). The renewed and strengthened trio from Kaunas gave a concert in Riga club Depo, followed by a performance in the yearly festival "Velniu Malnas" (The Devils Mill) in Vilnius in winter of 2003, which received multiple positive evaluations.
In 2004 the band recorded the album "Dogmatic". Three years later the compilation “Essential Curse – The best of MJS 1992-2007” was released: CD and DVD release contained the best of the band's songs. In the end of 2013 the band released the compilation of the acoustic (live) and remix versions of their songs.
The current lineup consists of:
Mindaugas Budnikas (vocals, guitar, lyrics, music)
Egidijus Čilčius (keyboards )
Mantas Petraitis (guitar)
The Mist
Mano Juodoji Sesuo Lyrics
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Like touching you everyday
But I‘ll never got you
Will suffer, when I do
You are dream and my question
I‘m hungry, longing for taste
Forget you and your shadow
Your name, your hollow
You‘re sweet lie and bitter truth
I‘m hungry, longing for taste
Under a spell of your hate
Will sank in despair hug
Will burn in soltitude fog
The mist where I disappear
The lyrics to Mano Juodoji Sesuo's song "The Mist" describe the singer’s longing for someone they can't have. They compare the person to a dream and a question, representing the uncertainty and intangibility of their relationship. The singer finds comfort in the presence of this person, "hiding" in their "shade" and "touching" them every day, but ultimately recognizes that they will never have them. The singer knows they will suffer because of their unrequited love.
The lyrics also touch on the duality of the relationship. The object of the singer's affection is both a "sweet lie" and a "bitter truth." The singer is under a spell of their hate and longs for a taste of their love. They can't forget the person, but acknowledge that their name and their shadow only bring pain.
The final lines of the song describe a sense of despair and isolation. The singer will "sink in despair hug" and "burn in solitude fog." They feel as though they are disappearing into a mist, symbolizing their loneliness and desperation.
Overall, "The Mist" is a poignant portrayal of unrequited love and the pain and longing that comes with it.
Line by Line Meaning
I hide me in your shade
I seek refuge in your presence
Like touching you everyday
Engulfed in your memories, I feel your essence every moment
But I‘ll never got you
Even though you're always around, I can never truly have you
Will suffer, when I do
I fear the consequences of my desires
You are dream and my question
You are a mystery that I can only hope to understand in my dreams
I‘m hungry, longing for taste
My soul yearns for your touch
Under a spell of your hate
I am trapped in the overpowering negative emotions you project
Forget you and your shadow
I wish to move on from you and everything you represent
Your name, your hollow
You are nothing but a meaningless shell to me now
You‘re sweet lie and bitter truth
You are an enthralling falsehood, but your true self is unpleasant
Will sank in despair hug
I know that my unrequited love will eventually destroy me
Will burn in soltitude fog
I will suffer alone in isolation
The mist where I disappear
I find solace in the emptiness of the unknown
Contributed by Cameron T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.