Equinox
Marian Call Lyrics

It's coming on Equinox, I've found no balance for to speak of
The equinox is arriving, but the singer hasn't found balance in their life, despite the expectation that things should be equal during this time.

Just salt on my shoes – just recycled blues
The singer is feeling down and like they're repeating the same negative thoughts and experiences they've had before. Nothing is changing for the better.

But I paid all my bills on time (I measure miracles per minute)
Despite their troubles, the singer is proud of themselves for managing their money well and able to see small successes in the midst of chaos.

I'm unlikely at best – I'm unlike all the rest.
The singer feels like they don't fit in, and that their chances at success or happiness seem slim. They see themselves as different from others around them.

Funny to me still, how naturally it came to us
Despite hard times the singer has had, they still have a fondness for past memories - and how easy things once were between them and a certain someone.

How easy we were we, how clear things were to me
The relationship the singer had with someone was uncomplicated and simple to understand. They miss this sense of ease and clarity in their current life.

Oh, I hope it snows...
The singer is looking for a change of pace, wishing for something unusual to happen to feel invigorated and refreshed.

And maybe you, maybe we, maybe she...
The song is suggesting a possible reconciliation between the singer and an old lover, while also referencing the chance of meeting someone new.

I know I'll see you again after Breakup
The singer is holding onto the hope that they will see their old lover again when the weather warms up and the snow melts. 'Breakup' refers to the spring breakup of ice on rivers that happens once a year in Alaska.

When all the stacks of slush are gone
The singer is referring to the slushy piles of snow in the city that accumulate during wintertime, and expressing a desire for the tough periods to be over.

When all the dirt is dry and warm – it could happen
The singer is wishing that things could be better, but realizes that improvement is not guaranteed.

And you can be you again after Breakup
The singer believes that the person they're talking about has been going through a tough time, but that they could regain their happiness and carefree spirit once breakup clears and spring arrives.

And we're gonna laugh and laugh and laugh
The singer is looking forward to a time in the future where they and their friend or lover can spend time together and enjoy their company once more.

And I'll pick up the tab like nothing's happened
The singer is suggesting that they and their former lover can resume their relationship without hesitation or awkwardness. They will pay for the expenses of the reunion.

'Cause nothing happened
The singer wants to implicate that they want to move on from the previous differences and encounters without holding grudges.

It's coming on Equinox, no revelations worth a mention
As the equinox approaches yet again, the singer hasn't had any significant life-altering or enlightening events to share or discuss.

Just more light on the grime – just frost on my mind
Despite daylight increasing with the arrival of the equinox, the singer still feels like things are dark for them internally. They have to face the grim reality of their situation, and feel frozen like ice.

Your silence is broken now, but clarity's still hard to come by
The singer is addressing someone who was previously silent, but is now back in contact. However, the emotions surrounding their communication are still mixed and uncertain.

You're unlikely to say – unlikely to stay
The singer believes that the person they're talking to will likely not say much, nor will they stay for long. The time they have together is fleeting and they must make the most of it.

Funny to me still, how actually I don't much mind
The singer is finding humor in how they don't really care too much about the arrival and departure of people in their life. They're able to find peace in solitude.

I love the long dark nights; I came here to chase the ice
The singer is saying that they don't mind the long nights of winter and that they prefer the response and the ambiance that the winter ice and darkness provides them.

Oh, let it snow...
The singer is longing for the solace of nature and the absence of people or social struggles in their life. They want to retreat to a more natural frame of thinking and enjoy themselves passively.

Oh – it's coming on Equinox. Lost my headlamp, lost my scraper
As the Equinox approaches, the singer feels like they're losing important things that they rely on to navigate through the world. They cannot find the resources they need and feel lost and directionless.

In puddles of mud – my heart's like to flood.
The singer is feeling very low, so much so that it feels like they're getting completely overwhelmed with emotion, inner struggles and external obstacles that's triggering self-avoidance.

But waking up's easier now the clocks are set for sunlight
The singer believes that getting up in the mornings is easier now that the sun is rising earlier and that spring is coming. They're able to be more productive and have more energy to face their day.

Just get me to June – I'll be over you soon
The singer has had enough of their negative thoughts and is looking forward to warmer temperatures and spring's arrival to give them a fresh start.

Funny to me still, how factually the seasons change
The singer finds humor in the reality that the seasons change no matter what's going on in their life, and that sometimes the changes in weather help the way one feels about themselves.

No pain when that ice cracks – I'm gainin' minutes back
The singer is using the metaphor of ice melting as a way of saying that they no longer feel tied down or isolated, and are slowly starting to regain lost time and energy.

And maybe you, maybe we, we may be...
The song concludes with the same phrase as before, signaling how many possibilities and doorways are being opened by the mere arrival of the Equinox - love interests, new beginnings, and maybe even a reconciliation.