Didn't I
Marlon Roudette Lyrics

So long, the war is getting colder
It's been a long time since we've been fighting, but things are getting worse.

I feel like this beat-up soldier
I feel exhausted and worn out like a soldier who has been through many battles.

So wrong, I'm running from the fight
I know it's wrong, but I'm avoiding the conflict.

Now I wish I'd never told her
I regret telling her something that hurt her so much.

It must have hurt some dropping that bomb
I realize that what I said must have hurt her a lot.

But I guess what's done is done now
I can't undo what I've done or said.

And as we both get older
Time goes on, and we age.

I wonder will these wounds heal over
I wonder if our relationship will ever be able to recover from this hurt.

Ooh ooh, didn't I love you baby?
I'm reflecting on the love I had for her.

Ooh ooh, will I ever get the chance again?
I'm wondering if I'll ever have the chance to love her again.

If you're worth fighting for
If you're really valuable to me,

Why didn't I go to war?
Why didn't I fight for us?

If you're all I'm searching for
If you're everything I'm looking for,

Why didn't I love you more?
Why didn't I give you more love?

What was I thinking of
What was I thinking when I didn't treat you better?

I should have treated you better
I know I should have treated you better.

If I didn't mess around
If I didn't cheat or make mistakes in our relationship,

Would we still be together?
Would we still be in a relationship?

Cause you're something girl
Because you're someone special to me.

So strong, moving on finally
I feel like I'm finally moving on from this situation.

Trying to put this thing behind me
I'm trying to let go of what happened in the past.

With every step I end up back three
Despite my efforts to move forward, I keep taking steps back.

Can't break these walls around me
I'm struggling to let go of my past and move on.

And though I'm almost free
Even though I feel like I'm close to getting over this situation,

Those demons are always with me
I still struggle with the negative emotions associated with the past.

I can't escape now even if I want to
I feel trapped and unable to move on.

Ain't no place where I can run to
There's nowhere I can go to escape my feelings.

Didn't I, lose it all for a little lie
I lost everything because of a small lie.

Me confused girl caught in the middle I
I was confused and caught in the middle of a difficult situation involving a girl.

I woulda fight any bad man for you girl
I would have fought anyone for her sake.

Trad lands for you
I would have done anything for her, even give up everything I had.

But yet me can't fight my roaming eye
But I couldn't resist the temptation to be with other women.

Well I was wrong to behave like a youngster
I know now that my behavior was immature.

Leave me but believe me it's naivety I'm no monster
Even though she left me, I'm not a bad person, just naive.

Didn't I, say we were in our prime
Didn't I say we were perfect for each other at the time?

But it wasn't our time girl
But maybe the timing wasn't right for us.

You can't say we didn't try
We did our best to make it work.