Long Way to Fall
Mary Gauthier Lyrics

I felt the flames on my face
I was intensely aware of being in your presence, and the intensity of the feelings it brought up.

when I found the nerve to meet your eyes, so green
I was nervous at first, but once I looked you in the eyes I was struck by their beauty.

I stumbled towards your elegance
I found you incredibly attractive and sophisticated, and was immediately drawn to you.

I tumbled, wide awake into a dream
Being with you was so surreal and wonderful that it felt like I was living in a dream.

and there you stood, so beautiful
I found you incredibly beautiful and was in awe of your presence.

destiny seduces, after all
Perhaps the universe brought us together for a reason.

I fell into the fire
I took a huge leap into something intense and passionate.

that's a long way to fall
I knew it was risky, but I didn't care.

You gave me strength to speak
You helped me find my voice and gave me courage.

when my voice was weak and words were hard to find
I was struggling to express myself, but you were there to support me.

your faith in me was solid and
You had complete confidence in me and believed that I could succeed.

it stood me up when I couldn't steady mine
When I was feeling unsure of myself, your faith helped me feel more grounded.

all those times I cried at night
I was dealing with a lot of emotional turmoil.

you promised me it'd be all right
You reassured me and gave me hope for the future.

you held me while my demons danced and crawled
You were there for me even in my darkest moments.

I fell into your open arms
I felt safe and protected with you.

that's a long way to fall
I knew that relying on you so heavily was risky.

I never should have drifted
I regret pulling away from you.

I never should have left you all alone
I realize now that I caused you pain when I left.

I don't know what comes over me
I struggle to control myself and my impulses.

looks like I'll always be
I fear that I'll never change.

the troubled kid that runs away from
I have a long history of running from my problems.

home
The people and places that should make me feel most secure.

I reached for you the other night
I tried to reconnect with you recently.

you rolled away and moved against the wall
You rejected me and didn't want to be close.

I fell into the space between us
I felt rejected and alone.

that's a long way to fall
I never thought things would get this bad between us.

I got no one to hold on to and
I feel completely alone.

I'm sinking slowly to my knees
My life is falling apart.

I might learn to pray down here
I'm experiencing such hardship that I might turn to religion for comfort.

or maybe I'll beg you baby, please
I still harbor hope that we can repair our relationship.

but you stare at me with marble eyes
You look at me with little to no emotion.

and I don't think I've ever
I'm experiencing a new level of pain.

felt this small
I feel insignificant and powerless.

I've fallen out of your good graces
I've lost your approval and support.

that's a long way to fall
I never thought I would sink so low.