In The Morning
Mizuchi Lyrics

I remember I was 11 when I first heard Eminem
At a young age, I was introduced to Eminem's music.

Me and my homies were laughing like, 'What the fuck is he saying?' then
My friends and I found Eminem's lyrics amusing and difficult to comprehend at first.

But as time grew up and we all flew by
As we grew older and time passed quickly.

Some of the words took a place within like my eyes started facing in
Certain lyrics resonated deeply with me and made me introspective.

And then I picked up the pen and while expressing my heart
Inspired by Eminem, I began writing and pouring my emotions onto paper.

I opened up my life to the rhythm of scars
Through my writing, I shared my life experiences and struggles.

And I started approaching myself, not just in the mirror
I began reflecting on my own identity beyond superficial appearances.

Funny, I thought the truth was sharp and shiny and clear
I used to believe that truth is straightforward and easily discernible.

But it wasn't, I used the pen as a cave and I never went home
Instead, truth was elusive, and I sought solace in writing, avoiding reality.

My homies worried, I never picked up my phone
My friends grew concerned as I isolated myself and avoided their calls.

Always thought I was laughing when I was sad and alone
I projected a facade of happiness, even when I felt sadness and loneliness.

Blaming everybody when they just tried to get in my zone
I mistakenly blamed others for intruding on my personal space and creativity.

Look the past is my memory, I don't fuck with that guy
I distance myself from my past self and choose not to dwell on it.

Keeping the bruises I've given myself so hidden inside
I hide the internal pain and self-inflicted wounds I've endured.

Wait, 'pleased to meet ya'
If I were to encounter my past self, I would greet it with detachment.

If I had met the past evils of myself then this is how I greet ya
If confronted by the negative aspects of my past, this is how I address them.

'Look, I'm not you anymore, yeah I kicked you out the door
I assertively declare that I am no longer defined by my past mistakes.

You can't block me from the youth you tried to ruin before'
I refuse to let my past hinder my growth and the happiness of my younger self.

Yeah, I hated myself, that's how I dealt with the process
In the past, I struggled with self-hatred as a coping mechanism.

Now I smile at myself and bitch I call that progress
But now, I can genuinely smile at myself and recognize it as personal growth.

All the voices that told me that there's no beauty in life
The negative voices that once claimed there's no beauty in life.

Getting softer every night 'cause they just hearing me singing like
Gradually, those voices are fading as they listen to the positive message in my music.

'Ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta Ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta'
Repeating syllables that represent the sound of perseverance and progress.

Bring it back real good, yeah I got this
I confidently bring back my strength and determination.

This is something that you should not miss
My journey and growth are worth witnessing and paying attention to.

Yeah, I fucked up, I hurt my friends and all the ones that I loved
I acknowledge my mistakes and how they affected those dear to me.

Looking into my past, how do I forgive if I'm judged?
As I reflect on my past actions, it's challenging to find forgiveness while facing judgment.

How do I thank all the people who tried to bring me out of this hole?
I contemplate how to express gratitude to those who helped me escape my struggles.

How do I let 'em know that I felt cold in my home?
How do I convey the loneliness and detachment I experienced within my own environment?

It's easy to see things when you're not lost in yourself
Clarity is more apparent when one is not emotionally consumed by their own struggles.

Now that I've honestly chosen to throw my pills on the shelf
I've made a sincere decision to stop relying on medication to cope.

Yeah these changes are scary, to tell the truth, I'm petrified
Although change is daunting, I admit to feeling terrified.

This is me at 19, who will I be at 35?
At the present age of 19, I ponder who I will become by the age of 35.

Will my bones peel away? Will I have the world in my palms?
I contemplate whether I will face aging and wonder if I'll achieve great success.

Will I have plaques all around me? Maybe a girl in my arms?
I question if I'll receive accolades and have romantic companionship.

Yeah but I'm trying not to focus on that, I may be lonely but I'm out of that trap
However, I consciously redirect my attention away from these concerns, acknowledging my personal growth.

The future is dicey, I'd throw some money on that
The future is uncertain, and if I were to wager, I'd predict unpredictability.

Some get famous, maybe some don't
Some individuals achieve fame, while others may not.

I'm just patient with my product, in the basement psychotic
I exhibit patience and dedication in polishing my work, even if it means isolating myself.

I'm recording in closets yea it's a tight space
I record my music in cramped closets, encountering limitations.

So they'll be screaming my name as all the light's fade, my face lights up
Despite the challenges, I anticipate recognition and success, where my excitement shines through.

Despite the fact that it's dark, I cry while I realize that I done come up so far
Even in the midst of darkness and hardship, I shed tears of joy when I recognize my progress.

Fuck the money and the fame, yeah I'm still learning the game
I prioritize personal growth and knowledge over material wealth and celebrity status.

A few years down the line and you will remember my name
Given time, I believe my name and achievements will leave a lasting impression.

As a kid I always dreamt that I would get there someday
Since childhood, I held onto the dream of eventually achieving success.

Never thought that I'd believe that maybe today's that day
I didn't expect to reach a point where I believe that the present day could be that day.

But as tomorrow shit changes and that someday will change
However, circumstances evolve, and the definition of 'someday' will shift.

I'm proud to tell myself that I really made it one way
I find pride in acknowledging the personal accomplishments I've achieved.

Couple albums down the line and my heart in one piece, in one place
In the future, after releasing a few albums, my emotional state will be intact and grounded.

Couple homies and a snack on my plate
I envision having a few close friends and enjoying simple pleasures in life.

Living like my younger self would really curse at the thought
I strive to live a life that would make my younger self proud and astonished.

'Little dipshit, you cute but you just lacking the sauce
My younger self might playfully criticize me, acknowledging my potential but also room for improvement.

But it's chill little homie, you just swimming in sorrow
However, my older self assures my younger self not to worry, as I once navigated through difficult times.

You playing yourself when you say that mind is so hollow
My younger self misunderstands the depth of my current mindset, thinking it lacks substance.

Life's a painkiller if you're choosing to swallow'
Life becomes more manageable if you choose to accept and face its challenges head-on.

'Cause now I got my mental in order, the mansions will follow
With my improved mental state, I believe success and material wealth will eventually follow.

'Ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta Ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta, ta'
Repeating syllables that symbolize resilience and determination.

In the morning I'm feeling fine but my mind is sinking, falling
In the morning, despite feeling physically well, my mind experiences a sense of despair and decline.

Into the seven seas Take me away Take me away
I long for escape, wishing to be transported away from my current state of mind.

I'm breaking away from these chains, I'm begging Begging on my knees
I strive to break free from the metaphorical chains that bind me, pleading on my knees for liberation.