Legacy
Moderately Mediocre Lyrics

I took a fatal step in all the wrong directions
I made a crucial mistake by choosing the wrong path

At least that’s what he wrote down in these tomes
The consequences of my actions were recorded in these books

I saw it all, I knew it well
I witnessed everything and understood it deeply

I watched as kingdoms rose and fell
I observed the rise and fall of powerful entities

But never found a thing to call my own
However, I could never claim something as truly mine

He wrote that we were friends unlike any other
He documented our bond as unique and unparalleled

There’s water damage stained across these words
These words have been damaged and marked by water

He has me underground
He has confined me to a hidden and isolated place

I want to call out
I desire to express myself and reach out

But any time I try I don’t return.
But every time I attempt, I don't receive a response or connection

I caught a taste of what it means to be an equal
I experienced the sensation of being on the same level as others

Be a human, be a person, flesh and bone
Embrace the essence of humanity, existence, and physicality

You told me that its power
You informed me about the strength and influence it holds

Its fear and its respect
The emotions of fear and respect associated with it

Though I can’t help but to think
However, I cannot avoid contemplating

That you’re wrong
That you might be incorrect in your belief

I’d take the blame but I can’t rearrange my face
I am willing to accept responsibility, but I cannot change my appearance

I’d keep you safe or else you’d leave me alone
I would protect you, otherwise, I fear you would abandon me

I’m sorry if I screwed up
I apologize if I made mistakes

I tried to listen well
I made a sincere effort to pay attention and understand

I don’t remember this place
I have no recollection of this location

But it feels like home
Yet, it gives me a sense of belonging and familiarity

Cuz I’m standing
Because I am standing

Alone
By myself

Waiting in the darkness
Patiently anticipating in the absence of light

You feed me
You provide me with sustenance

These songs
These melodies

Tales of what I started
Narratives about my own actions and beginnings

My legacy
My lasting impact and reputation

My memory
My recollections and remembrances

Could burn up with these stories
Might be lost or destroyed along with these narratives

And all that I could do is stand and watch
And all I am capable of is observing helplessly

I’d do it all again if that’s the cost
I would repeat my actions, regardless of the consequences

To keep my legacy from being lost
In order to preserve my impact and reputation

You kept me out of sight when it was easy
You concealed me from view when it required little effort

And left me on display when it was not
But exposed me to the public when it was inconvenient

I get it, but it hurts
I understand, but it still causes emotional pain

Though I know you softened first
However, I am aware that you showed vulnerability earlier

That maybe you’d have left me there to rot
Perhaps you would have abandoned me to deteriorate in that state

You told me to be human was to suffer
You instructed me that suffering is an inherent part of being human

To agonize and yearn for revenge
To experience extreme pain and desire for retaliation

To struggle for power
To constantly fight for control and dominance

And never trust another
And to never place trust in anyone else

But told me it was fine
But assured me that it was acceptable

Cuz we were friends
Because we had a close bond

I once asked you
On a previous occasion, I inquired

Is it worth it?
Does the outcome justify the effort?

Your time and your anger
The investment of your time and emotional anger

Your burning of bridges and friends?
The act of severing connections and friendships?

To run away past the snow
To escape far beyond the snowy landscape

And plot your revenge
And devise a plan for your retaliation

Is it worth all that?
Is it worthwhile to go through all those hardships?

And you said no.
And you responded negatively.

Will you live well?
Will you lead a fulfilling life?

Will you let go?
Will you release your attachments?

Will you leave me and die young?
Will you abandon me and meet an early demise?

Will you see me
Will you perceive me

As a memory?
As a recollection?

Someone you used to know?
As someone you no longer recognize?

Is it worth it?
Is it worth the effort?

All the hard work?
All the laborious efforts?

Do you even know??
Do you have any understanding about it?

What if I come back
Imagine if I return

And I’ve lost it?
And I have lost my way or sanity?

What then??? What then???
What would happen then? What would occur?

I don’t remember this place but it feels like home.
Although I have no recollection of this location, it gives me a sense of belonging.