forgive me
Monica Jeezy Lyrics

I been thuggin' my whole fuckin' life
I have been living a tough life since birth.

One look at my baby girl I had to get it right
When I became a father to my daughter, I realized I had to change my ways.

Superman in these streets hey but you my kryptonite
I may appear invincible on the streets, but you have the power to bring me down.

I'm on this drink, I’m on this smoke, I’m going super Crip tonight
I am under the influence of drugs and alcohol and ready to engage in dangerous criminal activities.

Something like a scientist, I mix it like it's antidote
I am skilled at mixing drugs like a scientist would mix an antidote.

Then I sent that 8 ball down the block Scrappy Loc
I sold drugs to a local gang member named Scrappy Loc.

Rest in peace to Pookie Loc, blame it on me never snitching
I acknowledge the death of Pookie Loc and refuse to confess my involvement to authorities.

Lord knows I ain't send the homie on no dummy mission
I did not deliberately send my friend on a dangerous mission.

Want to be like Uncle Wade can't believe I sold him crack
I look up to my Uncle Wade and regret selling him drugs.

Still a hero in my eyes, you up in heaven tell him that
Despite my actions, my Uncle Wade is still a hero to me and I hope he knows that.

Don’t tell me how to raise my son just know he gone be a man
I refuse to have others dictate how I raise my son and believe he will become a responsible adult.

If the scale is 1-10, just know he gone be a grand
On a scale of 1 to 10, my son will be a 10 in terms of success and achievements.

Before I stand with flaw niggas I would rather stand alone
I would rather stand alone than associate with morally corrupt individuals.

Till I’m stand, on the top like what he standing on
I strive to be at the top of my game and achieve success like others in my life.

They say that I'm wishy washy, ain't nobody perfect though
Others criticize me for being inconsistent, but I acknowledge that nobody is perfect.

They say Young you growing up, hope they know you worth it though
I am aware that others believe I am maturing and hope they recognize my worth.

The shit I’m smoking on got me trippin' please forgive me
I am under the influence of drugs and may act erratically. I apologize for any harm I may cause.

The shit I’m sippin' on got me trippin' will you forgive me
I am under the influence of alcohol and may not be in control of my actions. I apologize for any wrongdoing.

Look you in your eyes when I’m talking know you hear me
I want to communicate with you directly and express myself clearly.

Just listen to the words to the song I know you feel me
I hope you listen to the lyrics of my song and understand my emotions and experiences.

'Cause ain't nobody perfect in this world please forgive me
I acknowledge that nobody is perfect and ask for forgiveness for my mistakes.

I ain't them and they ain't me maybe that’s the disconnect
I am different from others and may have trouble relating to them.

I do my tequila straight but I do not do disrespect
I enjoy drinking tequila but refuse to engage in disrespectful behavior.

You know I remind them though forgetful niggas they forget
I remind others that people often forget things, but they frequently forget themselves.

Before the deal I had a check and I put that on the set
Before I signed a record deal, I had money and I swear on my life it was obtained legally.

Breaking units down in Fatty room, white mountains on the dresser
I used to distribute drugs in a room belonging to Fatty, and had large quantities of drugs on the dresser.

Forgive me Auntie Sarah when we fell out look I knew it's stressful
I apologize to my Auntie Sarah for the stress caused by our disagreement.

Wasn’t for you I ride on 'em, look we in a rival gang
If not for my Auntie Sarah, I may have engaged in violence against a rival gang and regret that we are on opposite sides.

You know I'm screaming "fuck the other side," guess that just a rival thing
I express intense hatred towards the other gang as expected in our rivalry.

100 dollars re'ing up. back then we always talked
I used to purchase drugs for $100 and had conversations with someone about it in the past.

But since the fame ain't been the same
Since becoming famous, things have changed and I am no longer engaging in the same activities.

Forgive me Mrs Brenda Ross, nah not your nephew acting like a rap nigga
I apologize to Mrs. Brenda Ross for my nephew's behavior as he tries to act like a rapper.

Like I ain’t sit on your front porch talk shit and trap with you
I acknowledge that I used to engage in illegal activity on Mrs. Brenda Ross's front porch and now feel remorseful.

You asked me to help with your wedding, argument in front your kids
Mrs. Brenda Ross asked me for help with her wedding, but we had an argument in front of her children.

Hurts me to the very day, lamest shit I ever did
The argument in front of Mrs. Brenda Ross's children still affects me today and I regret it deeply.

So please forgive me lil sister because I know I hurt your soul
I ask for forgiveness from my little sister for hurting her emotions in the past.

Your husband is a lucky man I hope he know you worth it though
You are a valuable and worthy individual, and I hope your husband recognizes that.