I'm Gone
Mr. Kurones Lyrics

How can I get so far gone
I am wondering how I ended up in this state of mind

When can I move on
I am looking for a way to move forward from my current situation

Dreading a world that'll never go on
I am anxious about a future that seems bleak and unchanging

If I took the time replace
If I were to make the effort to replace

Only mine erased
I would only be erasing my own problems

'Cause I feel as if I'm here but I'm gone
I feel like I am present physically, but emotionally absent

I heard a lil' tale about to children sittin on the kitchen floor
I heard a story about two children sitting on the floor in their kitchen

They eatin mayonaise out the jar and they moms out smokin dope on the stroll
Their mother is outside smoking drugs while her children eat mayonnaise from a jar

Man, you believe this
Can you believe this?

Life is complete for them
This is their version of a normal life

And it ain't no emotions, only instinct
They are living with only their animal instincts to guide them

And that's how they'll be raised by the streets
These children will grow up fending for themselves on the streets

A boy and a girl
There are two children, a boy and a girl

Just up the boulevard from your world
They are living just a little ways away from your world

Oh it ain't all gravy where you at
Things are not all good where you are

'Cause that's where he gon' go to jack
That is where he will go to commit theft

Catch his first case at, become a disgrace at
That is where he will commit his first crime and bring shame to his family

But not in this world up the boulevard
But in this world up the boulevard, things are different

I'ma see to hit that liquor, starts so easily
I am easily tempted by alcohol

The difference people in my life are dyin and I see this
The people in my life are dying and I am aware of this fact

My question is, to what lengths do we go so that they live
I question how far we will go to keep others alive

'Cause I'ma reach this
I will do everything in my power to achieve this goal

My locc's mean everythang to me, life is an odysea
My affiliation with my gang means everything to me, life is a struggle

But sometimes, you don't step up and take the reigns
Sometimes, you fail to take control of your own life

Man, the world'll play you cheap, should I ride
The world can be unfair to you, should I stay involved in this life?

I'm picturin kids cryin, a head firin up dope over the stove
I am imagining children crying while their parent or guardian is using drugs next to a stove

Family car gettin repot because they couldn't cover the note
The family's car is being repossessed because they couldn't make their payments

Nobody knows what's to eat because there's no groceries
There is no food in the house, so no one knows what to eat

And the baby suffers from a rash 'cause he hasn't been changed in over a week
The baby has a rash because they have not been cleaned or changed in over a week

The oldest keeps things together, by scramblin up some powdered eggs
The oldest child is trying to hold things together by making a meal out of powdered eggs

She's only 5, so why her mom can't keep them pimps from out her face
The youngest child is only five and should not have to deal with pimps in their home

How could they rape in that arrestin
How can they arrest someone for rape

The mother won't admit, but she's molested, diseased and infested
The mother is not admitting that she has been sexually abused and is suffering from various health issues

With wing worms, both of her legs covered with ring burns
She has ringworms and burns on both of her legs

She cleans up, but whoever heard of some clean germs
While she may appear clean, she still has germs and health issues that need to be addressed

I seen the, hurt in her mama's eyes, she tramatized
I see the pain in the mother's eyes, she is traumatized

Been beat up, ever since her father died, no harmonize
She has been abused since her father's death and is struggling to find peace or harmony

It's hard for me to talk about the good things in my life
I find it difficult to talk about the positive aspects of my life

With all the things I did for stripes
Because of the actions I took to earn respect

And the way I made my gramps and my mama cry
Because of the hurt I caused my grandfather and mother

This life is real, and I ain't got time to care about you
My life is hard and I do not have time to worry about you

Just sell smack to you, and sell crack to you, and sell a sack to you
I will sell you drugs but nothing else

Never give back to you, unless you know me and you owe me
I will not give you anything unless you have some kind of debt to me

And never worry about your dreams, that's you the bigga the lil' homie
I do not care about your goals, that is up to you

Here to corrupt you for sho', like my pops did and he did it wrong
I am here to lead you astray, like my father did to me

Now he lost everything he owned and he lost everyone he knows
My father lost everything he had and everyone he was close to

Like a ??? showin you the ropes
I am like a tour guide, showing you the ways of this life

And introduce you to all kinds of good stuff like alcohol and weed smoke
I will show you how to indulge in drugs and other vices

And dice games, take you to places you may die
I will introduce you to hazardous activities that could lead to your death

And the whole time we rollin, I'ma say, man, this the real way to survive
While we are doing these things, I will say that this is the only way to get by in life

Understand this
You need to understand this point of view