My Ruin is a Los Angeles-based alternative metal band, composed of the husb… Read Full Bio ↴My Ruin is a Los Angeles-based alternative metal band, composed of the husband and wife duo Tairrie B. and Mick Murphy. The band has been through various line-up changes since its formation in 1999. Its fanbase is mostly in the UK. Its sound consists of passionate vocals set against heavy rock beats. Vocalist Tairrie B. began her career in the 1980s as one of the first female rappers, signed to Eazy-E's Ruthless Records, and she is formerly of the bands Tura Satana and Manhole.

They have released several of their records via their own imprint, Rovena Recordings and have also been signed to Snapper, Spitfire, Century Media, Undergroove Records, Rovena Recordings and Tiefdruck Musik.

Releases:

Speak & Destroy (1999, UK release; 2000, US release) (Spitfire/Snapper)
A Prayer Under Pressure Of Violent Anguish (2000) (Spitfire/Snapper)
To Britain With Love... and Bruises (2001; only released in the UK) (Live) (Snapper)
The Shape Of Things To Come (2003) (Century Media)
The Horror Of Beauty (2003) (Century Media)
The Brutal Language (2005) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Throat Full Of Heart (2008) (Rovena/Undergroove)
Alive On The Other Side (2008) (Rovena/Cargo)
Ghosts and Good Stories (2010) (Tiefdruck)
A Southern Revelation (2011)
The Sacred Mood (2013)

(free download from myruin.bandcamp.com)

Former Members:

Chris Lisee - Bass (2005-2009)
JD - Drums (2008-2009)
Marcelo Palomino - Drums (2008)
Matt Lechevalier - Drums (2005-2007)
Yael - Drums (2000-2005)
Jason Brunk - Bass (2005)
Jonny Chow - Bass (2004-2005)
Meghan Mattox - Bass (1999-2004)
Melanie Makaiwi - Guitar & Bass (on Speak & Destroy)

They have a dedicated fanbase, most notably in the UK. Their sound consists of passionate and angry vocals set against heavy metal riffs and beats. Vocalist Tairrie B and Mick Murphy began a side project known as The Lvrs. Mick Murphy has another side project known as Neanderthal.

Evening Prayer
My Ruin Lyrics

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The wages of sin
Hold my heart hostage
My mouth is still cruel
My skin is in bondage
My body is scarred
From lyrics I've carved
Bruises I've healed
Lips that I've starved

Wounds I've replaced
With love and with hate
The truth set me free

But my faith was raped
I've broken my silence
Lied to myself
Spoken in violence
Been someone else
Screamed at my demons
Prayed to my god

Begged for forgiveness
My hands are still hot

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to My Ruin's song Evening Prayer explore themes of sin, guilt and redemption. The singer describes the wages of sin having a hold on their heart, with their mouth still being cruel and their skin in bondage. The lyrics describe their body being scarred, from lyrics they've carved, bruises they've healed, lips they've starved and wounds they've replaced with love and hate. The singer goes on to say that the truth set them free, however, their faith was raped and they have broken their silence, lied to themselves, spoken in violence and been someone else. They scream at their demons, pray to their god and beg for forgiveness, but their hands are still hot, suggesting that they are still struggling with the consequences of their actions and are in need of redemption.

The lyrics portray a sense of emotional complexity, with the singer showing self-awareness and introspection. The themes of sin, guilt, and redemption are common in many different genres of music and literature, reflecting the human experience of making mistakes and seeking forgiveness. The lyrics could be interpreted in a religious context, with the singer seeking forgiveness from God for their sins, or in a more general sense, with the singer trying to come to terms with their past mistakes and find a way to move forward.

Line by Line Meaning

The wages of sin
The consequences of my sinful actions

Hold my heart hostage
My heart is burdened by the weight of my vices

My mouth is still cruel
Despite my attempts to change, I still speak hurtful words

My skin is in bondage
I am trapped by my own flaws and limitations

My body is scarred
I have been hurt physically and emotionally

From lyrics I've carved
I have expressed my pain through art and music

Bruises I've healed
I have overcome some of my past traumas

Lips that I've starved
I have kept my feelings bottled up

Wounds I've replaced
I have found new ways to cope with pain

With love and with hate
Both positive and negative emotions have fueled my recovery

The truth set me free
I have come to terms with my past and am working toward a better future