Sent Me Looking
Nas/Amy Winehouse Lyrics

Lent you outsiders and my new Badu
I introduced you to my friends and shared my interests with you

While you were thinking I didn't have a clue
You underestimated me and thought I was naive

Tough to sort files with your voice in my head
I can't concentrate on my work because I keep thinking about you

So then I bribed you downstairs with a Marlboro Red, uh huh
I lured you downstairs with a cigarette to talk to you

And now I feel so small discovering you knew
I feel embarrassed realizing you were aware of my feelings

How much more torture would you have put me through?
I wonder how much longer you would have played with my emotions

You probably saw me laughing at all your jokes
You noticed that I pretended to find everything you said funny

Or how I did not mind when you stole all my smokes, yeah
You noticed that I let you take my cigarettes without complaining

And although my pride is not easy to disturb, yeah
I usually don't let things hurt my pride easily

You sent me flying when you kicked me to the curb
You hurt me deeply when you rejected me

With your battered jeans and your Beasties tee
I remember what you were wearing when you rejected me

Now I can't work like this, with you next to me
It's hard for me to focus on my work when you're around

And although he's nothing in the scheme of my years
You may not be important in the grand scheme of my life

It just serves to bludgeon my futile tears
But your rejection still hurts me deeply

And I'm not use to this, no no, I observe yeah, I don't chase
I'm not used to being rejected, I usually don't pursue love interests

But now I'm stuck with consequences, thrust in my face, yeah
Now I have to deal with the consequences of my actions

And the melodramas of my day delivery blows
My daily struggles seem insignificant compared to the pain of your rejection

And that surpass your rejection, it just goes to show
But the fact that I still feel strongly towards you despite your rejection shows something

A simple attraction that reflects right back to me
Our attraction towards each other is mutual

So I'm not as into you as I appear to be
However, I may not be as infatuated with you as I seem

His message was brutal but the delivery was kind
You were honest with me but in a respectful way

Maybe if I get this down, I'll get it off my mind, yeah
Maybe if I write down my feelings, I'll be able to move on

Oh it serves to condition me and smoothen my kinks
Writing down my emotions helps me process and smooth out my struggles

Despite my frustration for the way that he thinks
Although I may be frustrated with your decision, I understand your perspective

And I knew the truth, when it came, would be to that effect
I knew deep down that you wouldn't feel the same way about me

At least you're attracted to me which I did not expect
But at least there was some attraction between us, which I didn't anticipate

Didn't think you'd get my number down as such
I didn't think you noticed me or were interested in me

But I never hated myself, for my age so much, yeah
Your rejection made me feel insecure about my age and where I am in life

And although my pride's, yeah, not easy to disturbed, yeah
Usually, my pride isn't hurt easily

You sent me flying when you kicked me to the curb, yeah
But your rejection deeply hurt me

So with your battered jeans, yeah, and your Beasties tee
I still remember what you were wearing when you rejected me

Now I can't work like this, no, with you next to me, yeah
It's difficult for me to focus on work with you around after you rejected me