not today
Nishin Lyrics
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When a part of me has gone haywire, out of control
Will everything I've got just fall apart, reset me to the start?
I don't wanna find out
I'm in a better place than before
And, though, I'm not prepared to what may wait behind the door
I just know, no matter how better I become
You're numb, you still tell me I am wrong
Won't take time to get along
Like before, it is the same old song
Seven A.M. I've gotta move
December again, all thoughts removed
And in my mind's eye all I see is you
(I wish it wasn't you)
I'm biting the bullet till it hurts no more
But I'm not prepared to open the door
Frozen, as I say: "One day, but not today"
I'm out of breath
Everybody around keep speaking of my death
Oh I feel it like a draft in my chest
Through the hole that they ripped open
With bare hands
In the dead of night I scream
Everything becomes extreme
Feels just like i'm in a fever dream
Seven A.M. I'm on the run
December again, it just begun
Yet in my mind's eye all I see is you
Surrounded by ignorance and debris
I'm screaming, realizing that pride is never free
And the price to pay is higher every day
I feel I'm running low on trust and faith
Running myself rugged just to live
There is a void between us
Yet, you keep throwing rocks to fill it
Instead of building bridges
You choose to remain superstitious
Hey, I'm running away
Seven A.M. I've gotta move
December again, all thoughts removed
And in my mind's eye all I see is you
(I wish it wasn't you)
I'm biting the bullet till it hurts no more
But I'm not prepared to open the door
Frozen, as I say: "One day, but not today"
When everything is said and set in stone
(One day, but not today)
When a part of me has gone haywire, out of control
(One day, but not today)
I'm in a better place than before
(One day, but not today)
There'll always be just one outcome
(I'm frozen, as I say: "One day, but not today")
These lyrics of Nishin's song "Not Today" seem to express a sense of uncertainty and resistance to change. The opening lines suggest that the singer is hesitant to confront a situation that might cause everything they have built to fall apart. There is a fear of starting over or being reset to square one. The repetition of "I don't wanna find out" highlights the avoidance of facing potential repercussions.
The second paragraph reflects a state of improvement and progress, yet there is a recognition that no matter how much the singer's circumstances improve, there will always be a single, inevitable outcome. It suggests a feeling of being trapped or powerless in the face of this certain outcome. The repetition of "You're numb, you still tell me I am wrong" implies a lack of understanding or empathy from others, perhaps indicating a sense of isolation or frustration.
The third paragraph shifts to a more personal and desperate tone. The singer feels a constant pressure and urgency, depicted by the references to the time of day (seven A.M.) and the month of December. The repetition of seeing someone in their mind's eye, despite wishing it wasn't that person, suggests a longing or obsession that the singer cannot escape. This section also touches on the idea of enduring pain silently, "biting the bullet till it hurts no more," but still being unwilling to open up or confront the situation.
The final paragraph delves into themes of trust, faith, and the distance between individuals. The singer feels like they are running low on these qualities, and in their attempt to live and survive, they have become exhausted. The mention of a void between the singer and others and the idea of throwing rocks instead of building bridges suggest a lack of healthy communication and reconciliation. There is a sense of frustration and a desire to escape from the situation, which is intensified by the repetition of "One day, but not today."
Overall, these lyrics paint a picture of someone grappling with fear, uncertainty, and a longing for things to change. The singer acknowledges their improvement and progress but feels trapped or limited by an unavoidable outcome. They also express frustration with the lack of understanding from others and a sense of running away from a situation that feels suffocating.
Line by Line Meaning
When everything is said and set in stone
Once all is finalized and determined
When a part of me has gone haywire, out of control
When a fragment of myself has become chaotic and uncontrollable
Will everything I've got just fall apart, reset me to the start?
Will all my efforts crumble, forcing me to begin again?
I don't wanna find out
I have no desire to discover the answer
I'm in a better place than before
I have reached a more favorable state compared to my previous condition
And, though, I'm not prepared to what may wait behind the door
However, I am not ready to face the unknowns that lie beyond the entrance
I just know, no matter how better I become
I am simply aware that no matter how much I improve
There'll always be just one outcome
There will consistently be only a single result
You're numb, you still tell me I am wrong
You are emotionally detached, yet you persist in claiming my errors
Won't take time to get along
You do not bother to make an effort to reconcile
Like before, it is the same old song
As in the past, it is the repetitive tune
Seven A.M. I've gotta move
At seven in the morning, I must commence my journey
December again, all thoughts removed
December has returned, erasing all contemplation
And in my mind's eye all I see is you
In the forefront of my imagination, all I envision is your presence
(I wish it wasn't you)
(I yearn for it to be someone else)
I'm biting the bullet till it hurts no more
I am enduring the pain until it becomes unbearable
But I'm not prepared to open the door
Yet, I am not ready to reveal what lies behind the door
Frozen, as I say: "One day, but not today"
Paralyzed, I state: "Eventually, but not at this moment"
I'm out of breath
I am depleted of energy
Everybody around keep speaking of my death
Everyone surrounding me continuously mentions my demise
Oh, I feel it like a draft in my chest
I sense it akin to a chilling breeze within my chest
Through the hole that they ripped open
Via the gap forcefully torn open by them
With bare hands
Using only their hands
In the dead of night I scream
During the darkest hour of the night, I cry out
Everything becomes extreme
All things intensify to the utmost degree
Feels just like I'm in a fever dream
It gives the sensation of being trapped in a delirious hallucination
Seven A.M. I'm on the run
At seven in the morning, I am fleeing
December again, it just begun
December has commenced once more
Yet in my mind's eye all I see is you
However, in my thoughts, all that occupies my vision is you
Surrounded by ignorance and debris
Encircled by ignorance and scattered remnants
I'm screaming, realizing that pride is never free
I am screaming, understanding that arrogance always comes at a cost
And the price to pay is higher every day
Furthermore, the required payment increases with each passing day
I feel I'm running low on trust and faith
I sense my reserves of trust and faith diminishing
Running myself rugged just to live
Exhausting myself to the point of weariness simply to survive
There is a void between us
There exists an emptiness dividing us
Yet, you keep throwing rocks to fill it
Yet, you persist in tossing stones to fill the gap
Instead of building bridges
Rather than constructing bridges
You choose to remain superstitious
You opt to cling to irrational beliefs
Hey, I'm running away
Hey, I am fleeing
When everything is said and set in stone
Once all is finalized and determined
(One day, but not today)
(At some point, but not presently)
When a part of me has gone haywire, out of control
When a fragment of myself has become chaotic and uncontrollable
(One day, but not today)
(At some point, but not presently)
I'm in a better place than before
I have reached a more favorable state compared to my previous condition
(One day, but not today)
(At some point, but not presently)
There'll always be just one outcome
There will consistently be only a single result
(I'm frozen, as I say: "One day, but not today")
(I am immobilized, stating: "Eventually, but not at this moment")
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Nikita Privalov
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