Tout Pour Moi
OKASH Lyrics

I have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser
Despite growing older, I don't seem to get any smarter.

Midnights become my afternoons
My sleep schedule is messed up and I'm awake at odd hours.

When my depression works the graveyard shift
My depression gets worse at night.

All of the people I′ve ghosted stand there in the room
The ghosted people I've wronged haunt me even in my imagination.

I should not be left to my own devices
I'm not capable of making good choices without help.

They come with prices and vices
My bad choices have consequences and lead to more bad behavior.

I end up in crises
My behavior puts me in dangerous situations.

Tale as old as time
This is a common problem that many people face.

I wake up screaming from dreaming
My dreams are nightmares that make me afraid.

One day I'll watch as you′re leaving
My bad behavior will push loved ones away and hurt them.

'Cause you got tired of my scheming
My manipulative behavior will eventually push people away.

For the last time
This is the final straw.

It's me Hi!
I take responsibility for my actions.

I′m the problem, it′s me
I'm the one causing the issues.

At teatime Everybody agrees
Even in casual conversation, people acknowledge that I'm the problem.

I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
I refuse to reflect on my own behavior and instead distract myself with harmful habits.

It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero
Choosing to be the villain takes a toll on a person, even if it's just in their own mind.

Sometimes I feel like everybody is a sexy baby
I feel out of place and like everyone around me is more capable than I am.

And I′m a monster on the hill
I see myself as an outsider, separate from others.

Too big to hang out
My own insecurities keep me isolated from others.

Slowly lurching toward your favorite city
I'm going through life, but I'm not sure where I'm headed.

Pierced through the heart but never killed
I've been hurt, but I'm still here.

Did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism?
I try to look like a good person, but my intentions are selfish.

Like some kind of congressman
I'm being compared to the politicians who only look out for their own interests.

I have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money She thinks I left them in the will
I fear that my actions will come back to hurt me, even in death.

The family gathers 'round and reads it And then someone screams out "She′s laughing up at us from hell!"
My bad behavior will not be forgotten, even by those close to me.

I′m the problem, it's me It's me Hi! Everybody agrees
I am the one to blame for my problems and even those around me see it.