Internal War
Oceano Lyrics


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I never contemplated from adolescence to a man
Why I'm so quiet, with little friends,
Could the reason be I'm whispering to spirits?
Apparitions inside my head.
I tried fighting off the demons
Until the showed me what I needed,
Conjuring emotions and violent solutions.
I let them burrow deeper and possess a part of me
.
Now I am one with the damned!
They're fucking tempting me!
The tension keeps rising!
Tell me it's alright to make wreckless decisions,
Assert my vengeance!
I want to force them to feel what it's like to be
Still covered in the scars of past oppressors.
Fortunately, I healed faster indulging in grief.
Still, I'll never forgive what was done to me!
My escape is empty highways.
A simple pen serves well as my weapon,
After being held captive,
Slightly considering death,
Once one thing I loved was robbed from me.
Slicing a knife through the wrist
Was the first and final attempt.
Leaving behind the mental abuse and emotional stress,
I'm harmed, buf finally free.
When I think about it I don't need help.
I just inflicted scars to watch myself bleed.
Maybe to realize how damaged I am internally.
No longer suppressing memories,
The past had to be released!
I'm not miserable now.
Still you couldn't handle what transpires within my dreams.
Incessant rambling, Horrific crime scenes.
If there was a god, he's punishing me.
For years of defiance and blasphemy.




Where was my calm before or after the storm?
Even when I reach are. E. M. My mind is still at war.

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Oceano's song Internal War are a raw and emotional expression of the inner turmoil the singer is facing. The first few lines reveal that the singer has always been a quiet person with few friends, and wonders if this is because they communicate with spirits in their head. They have been fighting off demons, but have now let them possess a part of them, becoming one with the damned. The tension is rising, and the singer is seeking permission to make reckless decisions and assert their vengeance. They want those who have hurt them to feel the pain they have endured, and although they have healed from their past scars, they will never forgive what was done to them.


The singer's escape is empty highways, and they use a pen as their weapon to release their emotions. They have contemplated death, but their attempt was unsuccessful, and they have finally found freedom by releasing their past and allowing their memories to surface. However, their internal struggles still haunt them, with incessant rambling and horrific crime scenes playing out in their mind. They feel like they are being punished by a god for past defiance and blasphemy, and even when they are at rest, their mind is still at war.


The song is a cathartic expression of the intense emotions that the singer is facing, allowing the listener to feel the weight of their pain and struggles. It touches on themes of mental health, trauma, and the search for inner peace.


Line by Line Meaning

I never contemplated from adolescence to a man
I never thought deeply about my life from childhood to adulthood


Why I'm so quiet, with little friends,
I wonder why I'm introverted and have few friends


Could the reason be I'm whispering to spirits?
Could it be because I'm talking to ghosts?


Apparitions inside my head.
I see visions in my mind


I tried fighting off the demons
I tried to resist my inner demons


Until the showed me what I needed,
Until they showed me what I lacked


Conjuring emotions and violent solutions.
I conjured up intense feelings and aggressive responses


I let them burrow deeper and possess a part of me
I allowed them to take control of a part of me


Now I am one with the damned!
Now I am one with the cursed


They're fucking tempting me!
They're strongly influencing me


The tension keeps rising!
The pressure and anxiety keep increasing


Tell me it's alright to make wreckless decisions,
Assure me that it's acceptable to make risky choices


Assert my vengeance!
Take revenge with confidence


I want to force them to feel what it's like to be
I want them to experience the same suffering I felt


Still covered in the scars of past oppressors.
I still bear the wounds inflicted by my abusers


Fortunately, I healed faster indulging in grief.
Luckily, I recovered quicker by allowing myself to grieve


Still, I'll never forgive what was done to me!
However, I will never pardon the harm done to me


My escape is empty highways.
I find solace in driving on deserted roads


A simple pen serves well as my weapon,
A pen is enough to express my emotions and fight back


After being held captive,
After being imprisoned


Slightly considering death,
Contemplating suicide to escape the pain


Once one thing I loved was robbed from me.
Once something dear to me was taken away


Slicing a knife through the wrist
Cutting my wrist with a blade


Was the first and final attempt.
That was my only suicide attempt


Leaving behind the mental abuse and emotional stress,
Leaving behind the psychological and emotional torment


I'm harmed, buf finally free.
I'm hurt, but finally liberated


When I think about it I don't need help.
When I reflect on it, I don't need assistance


I just inflicted scars to watch myself bleed.
I hurt myself to see myself bleeding


Maybe to realize how damaged I am internally.
Perhaps to comprehend the extent of my inner damage


No longer suppressing memories,
No longer repressing past experiences


The past had to be released!
The past had to be let go of


I'm not miserable now.
I'm not unhappy anymore


Still you couldn't handle what transpires within my dreams.
Still, you couldn't handle what happens in my dreams


Incessant rambling, Horrific crime scenes.
Non-stop talking about disturbing and violent events


If there was a god, he's punishing me.
If a higher power exists, it's punishing me


For years of defiance and blasphemy.
For years of rebellion and disrespect


Where was my calm before or after the storm?
Why didn't I experience peace before or after the chaos?


Even when I reach are. E. M. My mind is still at war.
Even when I reach emergency mode, my mind is still in conflict




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Zs

I never contemplated from adolescence to a man
Why I'm so quiet, with little friends,
Could the reason be I'm whispering to spirits?
Apparitions inside my head.
I tried fighting off the demons
Until the showed me what I needed,
Conjuring emotions and violent solutions.
I let them burrow deeper and possess a part of me.

Now I am one with the damned!
They're fucking tempting me!
The tension keeps rising!
Tell me it's alright to make wreckless decisions,
Assert my vengeance!

I want to force them to feel what it's like to be
Still covered in the scars of past oppressors.
Fortunately, I healed faster indulging in grief.
Still, I'll never forgive what was done to me!

My escape is empty highways.
A simple pen serves well as my weapon,
After being held captive,
slightly considering death,
Once one thing I loved was robbed from me.
Slicing a knife through the wrist
Was the first and final attempt.
Leaving behind the mental abuse and emotional stress,
I'm harmed, buf finally free.
When I think about it I don't need help.
I just inflicted scars to watch myself bleed.
Maybe to realize how damaged I am internally.
No longer suppressing memories,
The past had to be released!
I'm not miserable now.
Still you couldn't handle what transpires within my dreams.
Incessant rambling, Horrific crime scenes.
If there was a god, he's punishing me.
For years of defiance and blasphemy.

Where was my calm before or after the storm?
Even when I reach R.E.M. my mind is still at war.



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Trve_Kvlt SLAM POLICE_Boi

1:43 this riff is just beautiful

Zs

I never contemplated from adolescence to a man
Why I'm so quiet, with little friends,
Could the reason be I'm whispering to spirits?
Apparitions inside my head.
I tried fighting off the demons
Until the showed me what I needed,
Conjuring emotions and violent solutions.
I let them burrow deeper and possess a part of me.

Now I am one with the damned!
They're fucking tempting me!
The tension keeps rising!
Tell me it's alright to make wreckless decisions,
Assert my vengeance!

I want to force them to feel what it's like to be
Still covered in the scars of past oppressors.
Fortunately, I healed faster indulging in grief.
Still, I'll never forgive what was done to me!

My escape is empty highways.
A simple pen serves well as my weapon,
After being held captive,
slightly considering death,
Once one thing I loved was robbed from me.
Slicing a knife through the wrist
Was the first and final attempt.
Leaving behind the mental abuse and emotional stress,
I'm harmed, buf finally free.
When I think about it I don't need help.
I just inflicted scars to watch myself bleed.
Maybe to realize how damaged I am internally.
No longer suppressing memories,
The past had to be released!
I'm not miserable now.
Still you couldn't handle what transpires within my dreams.
Incessant rambling, Horrific crime scenes.
If there was a god, he's punishing me.
For years of defiance and blasphemy.

Where was my calm before or after the storm?
Even when I reach R.E.M. my mind is still at war.

Philipp Mitterlehner

intro = perfect.

TheSorrowLand

"I never contemplaited from adolescence to a man
Why I'm so quiet, with little friends
Could the reason be I'm whispering to spirits?
Apparitions inside my head
I tried fighting off the demons
Until they showed me what I needed
Conjuring emotions and violent solutions
I let them burrow deeper and posses a part of me"

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Physic

Christopher Cunningham

The lyrics are πŸ’―

Jordon 26

This song would be perfect to die to!

Elizabeth W

Whitechapel should do this song, it fits them.

Robert Paulson

0:45 "I try farting on the demons."

XxTyRox93xX

This Song Is Awesome I Listen To It When I'm Suicidal

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