Ryan Cassata is a transgender singer-songwriter and motivational speaker fr… Read Full Bio ↴Ryan Cassata is a transgender singer-songwriter and motivational speaker from Long Island, NY. By the age of 18, he has released an EP and full-length album, booked and went on several tours, played the world's biggest gay music festival, won the Harvey Milk Memorial Award, and appeared on national and international TV several times. He released his debut EP Distraction on January 12, 2011, and his debut full-length album The Theme of Humankind on May 28, 2011.

Ryan plays guitar, piano, harmonica, and sings. At the young age of 14, in 2007, Ryan began to gig across Long Island. After 2.5 years he had played over 200 performances and completed a Florida tour, as well as two New England tours, titled "The Love Around the World Tour." Cassata performed at the world's biggest gay music festival, Pridefest Milwaukee, with other great musicians like Salt N' Pepa, Chris Crocker & LeAnne Rimes.

Ryan Cassata is the founder of Artemendous Records, LLC. and Artemendous Radio Station as he conducts broadcasts worldwide to help the local music scene grow stronger.

Ryan Cassata is the composer of the soundtrack for Loop Planes, an award-winning independent film that screened in the South by Southwest (SXSW) Film & Music Festival (2010), the Tribeca Film Festival (2010), the International Israel Women's Film Festival (with The Runaways) (2010), and 15 other film festivals.

Ryan Cassata appeared on The Larry King Live Show (2009) and the Tyra Banks Show (2010) for being transgender himself. Aside from being a musician, Cassata is a strong advocate for the transgender community. He travels the states speaking at high schools, colleges, and conferences, sharing his story with a mission to stop ignorance and bring peace to the world. Cassata appeared in Hamptons Bay Magazine (2008), Go Magazine (2008), and Closer Magazine (2011) for his hard work and advocacy. He also appeared in Bay Shore High School's "Maroon Echo" three times for his advocacy along with his musical achievements. In 2011, Ryan Cassata won the first Harvey Milk Memorial Award for the new path of equality he had created at his high school.

Ryan Cassata writes very passionate lyrics. His words are positive and inspirational to today's generation. Cassata hopes to spread this positivity across the country and around the world in hopes to make people smile and catch on to kindness.

Ryan Cassata is doing much more than the average teen. He demands change, he demands revolution, and...he demands PEACE.

Recently, Ryan Cassata was selected to be one of the keynote speakers for the biggest transgender conference in the United States, the Philadelphia Trans-Health conference. Ryan is the youngest speaker the conference has ever had.

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Ryan Cassata Lyrics

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These clowns are circling me
I’m not where I’m supposed to be
I see that now
You need a time out

You put me in the wrong place
Wipe those tears from your face
You disappeared

You put me here
You wanted fear

Fuck I’m so empty
And you’ve got plenty
This is a haunted house
And we play cat and mouse
I wanted wife and spouse
You know what I’m about
Fuck…this is a haunted house

I’m a loner boy
I make a lot of noise
I raise my voice sometimes
Fuck tonight, fuck tonight
I’m a loner boy
I make a lot of noise
I raise my voice sometimes
Fuck tonight, fuck tonight
Yeah…fuck

Why the fuck am I in the guest room?
Why can’t I kiss you goodnight?
I’ve been an angel in your life and you ain’t acting right
It’s 8AM, here’s your coffee
I’m sick of having to ask for you to want me
Shouldn’t have to beg for you to love me
When there’s a whole line of people outside who want me
But I’m still here pouring your coffee
I made it from scratch, and you still don’t want me
I fed your dogs too, and I folded your laundry
I wrote some songs for you,
And I turned into a zombie

These clowns are circling me,
I’m not where I’m supposed to be
And I see that now, you need a time out
These clowns are circling me,
I’m not where I’m supposed to be
And I see that now, you need a time out
These clowns are circling me,
I’m not where I’m supposed to be
And I see that now, you need a time out

I’m a loner boy
I make a lot of noise
I raise my voice sometimes
Fuck tonight, fuck tonight
I’m a loner boy
I make a lot of noise
I raise my voice sometimes
Fuck tonight, fuck tonight
Yeah, fuck
Fuck tonight, fuck tonight
These clowns are circling me,
I’m not where I’m supposed to be

You need a time out
These clowns are circling me

Overall Meaning

The song "Boy on Boy" by Ryan Cassata explores themes of feeling out of place, being mistreated, and seeking validation and love from a partner who is not reciprocating. The lyrics paint a picture of a toxic relationship where the singer is constantly being put in the wrong place and made to feel unwanted. The clowns circling the singer symbolize the chaotic and confusing nature of the relationship.

The chorus, "I’m a loner boy, I make a lot of noise, I raise my voice sometimes, Fuck tonight, fuck tonight," conveys a sense of frustration and anger towards the situation. The singer is expressing their need to be heard and valued, but their pleas seem to go unnoticed. They are tired of feeling empty and unloved.

The verses highlight specific instances of mistreatment and neglect. The singer questions why they are in the guest room instead of being in their partner's company, why they have to ask for affection and love, and why they are still there pouring their partner's coffee and doing chores when they deserve better. The lack of reciprocity in this relationship takes a toll on the singer, causing them to feel like a zombie, drained of emotion and happiness.

Line by Line Meaning

These clowns are circling me
I feel like I'm surrounded by people who are making a mockery of me and my situation

I’m not where I’m supposed to be
I am in a place or situation that I don't belong in, and it's causing me distress

I see that now, you need a time out
I understand now that you need a break or a period of reflection and introspection

You put me in the wrong place
You placed me in a position or environment that is not suitable or beneficial for me

Wipe those tears from your face
Stop crying and trying to manipulate me with your emotions

You disappeared
You suddenly vanished or became distant without any explanation

You put me here
You deliberately placed me in this situation or condition

You wanted fear
You desired to instill fear or uncertainty in me

Fuck I’m so empty
I feel extremely hollow and devoid of emotions or fulfillment

And you’ve got plenty
You, on the other hand, possess an abundance of emotions or satisfaction

This is a haunted house
The circumstances or environment I am in feels eerie, unsettling, and haunted by negative experiences

And we play cat and mouse
We engage in a game of pursuit and evasion, with one of us constantly trying to outsmart the other

I wanted wife and spouse
I desired a committed and loving relationship with you

You know what I’m about
You are aware of my desires, goals, and intentions

I’m a loner boy
I prefer being alone and find solace in my own company

I make a lot of noise
I express myself loudly and boldly, making my presence and opinions known

I raise my voice sometimes
There are instances when I become vocal and assertive

Fuck tonight, fuck tonight
I don't care about or want anything to do with tonight or the present moment

Why the fuck am I in the guest room?
I am questioning why I am relegated to the guest room instead of being treated as a significant other

Why can’t I kiss you goodnight?
I am frustrated and confused about why I am denied simple acts of affection or intimacy

I’ve been an angel in your life and you ain’t acting right
I have been kind, nurturing, and supportive in your life, yet you are not behaving appropriately towards me

It’s 8AM, here’s your coffee
I have prepared your coffee for you at 8 AM as usual

I’m sick of having to ask for you to want me
I am tired of having to constantly seek your desire and affection

Shouldn’t have to beg for you to love me
I should not have to plead or beg for your love and affection

When there’s a whole line of people outside who want me
There are many other individuals who are interested in being with me and giving me the love I deserve

But I’m still here pouring your coffee
Despite feeling unappreciated, I am still performing acts of service and care for you

I made it from scratch, and you still don’t want me
I put effort and thought into making your coffee, yet you still do not desire or appreciate me

I fed your dogs too, and I folded your laundry
In addition to making your coffee, I have taken care of your pets and completed household chores

I wrote some songs for you
I composed and dedicated songs to express my love and devotion to you

And I turned into a zombie
The lack of reciprocation and emotional connection has transformed me into an emotionless and lifeless being

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