Letter to You
Ryan Trey Lyrics

Aye
Hey, listen up

Aye listen close I'm about to revisit a real scene
Listen closely as I take you back to a real moment

My girls a different person from times that you've intervened
My girlfriend has changed since you interfered

And times that you've told her she wasn't shit
And the times you made her feel worthless

You played a little too hard with her almost witnessed her quit
You pushed her to her breaking point

That was the darkest month I've ever lived (yeah)
That was the most difficult time in my life

I tried to put it behind us
I tried to move on from it

Scars on her wrist to remind us
She has scars on her wrist as a lasting reminder

Of what was soon to be
Of what could have happened

If I could meet you live I'd fight you one on one just you and me
If I could meet you face to face, I would fight you alone

I'll take off all my jewelry and show you how a nigga get down
I'll remove all my possessions to prove my determination

I'm from St Louis what's up with the kid
I come from St Louis, what do you have to say about that?

Took her from peacefully getting rest to a hospital bed
You caused her to go from peaceful rest to being in a hospital bed

My baby girl is dying and it's killing me
My beloved girlfriend is dying, and it hurts me deeply

Overprotective I get it
I understand being overprotective

It's been instilled ever since I watched her
I've been that way ever since I witnessed

Explain to me all the shit her parents ain't know
Tell me about the things her parents were unaware of

Ever since then seeing her cry just became the regular no
Since then, seeing her cry has become a regular occurrence

I tried my hardest to keep her straight and her head on right
I made every effort to keep her on the right path

But in the process of doing so I be losing mine
But in doing so, I'm losing myself

Wanna see her shine but when you come round you soak up all the
I want to see her succeed, but whenever you're around, you take away all of

Sunlight out her eyes,
Her happiness and brightness

Take the smile off her face and take the color out her sky
You take away her smile and make her world seem dull

Just to hear a child tell me fuck a life I'd rather die
Just to hear her say she'd rather die than live like this

There's some shit that I can't explain if I tried and I try a lot
There are things I can't explain no matter how hard I try

So if I
So if

Start to cry that means I'm crying for you
If I start to cry, it means I'm crying for your actions

So don't you worry about a thing I put my life before you
Don't worry, I prioritize my life over you

And don't go running from your past I'm here, so I support you
Don't run away from your past, I'm here to support you

When bullets fly and you don't bleed, just know I took it for you
When danger arises and you remain unharmed, know that I protected you

My letter to you
This is my letter to you

And there's no hate in my eyes
I don't have any hatred in my eyes

Sometimes I try to let it go (yeah)
Sometimes I try to move on

And when you see me tell me do you see pain in my eyes
When you see me, observe if there is pain in my eyes

Or do you think I've let it go
Or do you think I've moved on

Should I let it go
Should I move on

Now here you got this seventeen year old boy, he started writing music
Now here's a seventeen-year-old boy who began writing music

Well he's been writing since a youngin' but he never used it
He's been writing since he was young, but he never pursued it

He went from writing bout his day and how he does in school in
He went from writing about his daily life and his performance in school

To talking bout his little girl cause she's been going through it
To now writing about his girlfriend because she's been struggling

Talking bout her sadness and how her health been spiraling down
Expressing her sadness and how her health has been deteriorating

On top of that he liked to write his friends would call him a clown
In addition, he enjoyed writing, but his friends mocked him for it

On top of that ain't, feel accepted when he walked in his house
Furthermore, he doesn't feel accepted when he enters his own home

Add on to that, the world is burning him out
To compound it all, the world is overwhelming him

And now he's doubting if his family
Now he's doubting whether his family

Even care about the shit he likes to do
Even cares about his passions

Bashed him when he said he rapped told him take a different route
They criticized him for pursuing rap and urged him to choose a different path

These things can hurt when you just tryna be you
These things can be hurtful when you're just being yourself

He's still dealing with the repercussions
He's still grappling with the consequences

From seeing the sadness in from his girl as he saw her mind go numb
From witnessing his girlfriend's despair as her mental state deteriorated

Not many people that young should witness a time so dull
Someone so young shouldn't have to experience such a bleak period

And neither parent was aware of what was up with their son
And his parents had no idea what was happening with their son

Not many people that age should witness that kind of change
Someone that young shouldn't have to witness such a drastic transformation

He was done
He couldn't take it anymore

Finally said fuck it he gon' go on home and fix it himself
Finally, he decided to go home and solve his problems on his own

He need the answers but his mind wasn't with it
He needed answers, but his mind was clouded

He's head spinning like what the fuck is going on with my life
His mind was spinning, questioning what was happening with his life

If I go this way then I'm wrong
If I choose one path, it's wrong

If I go this way then I'm still wrong
If I choose another path, it's still wrong

I don't get it
I don't understand

God tell me if this might be my last and final minutes with
God, let me know if these could be my last moments with

These pills and the sun through the shade is the only witness
These pills and the dying light are the only witnesses

All he wants is some forgiveness and peace
All he desires is forgiveness and peace

Now he's hand shaking his knees and
Now his hands are trembling, and his knees are weak

His knees and his hands shaking ah' shit nice
His knees and hands tremble, signifying his struggle

Now his phone blowing up three rings no answer
Now his phone is ringing, but he doesn't answer

A text still no answer, is eating at him like cancer
Even a text doesn't receive a response, and it's tormenting him

His mother calls and he finally gets it
His mother calls, and he finally realizes

She like, baby, put em down are you crazy just sit down this is crazy
She says, 'Child, put them down. Are you insane? Just sit down, this is madness'

He's heart speeding, it's racing
His heart is racing with fear

This room small, but he pacing a smile all on his face
He paces in this small room, a smile on his face

And his father on the way home that's why his sister shook to the bone
His father is on his way home, which terrifies his sister

His hand still holding the phone but
He still holds the phone in his hand, but

Before you heard his last breath he was gone
Before his last breath could be heard, he was gone

He died that night, yeah
He died that night

And the killer still loose, still lurking, a silent weapon
And the killer remains at large, hidden, a silent threat

It's just something that the police can't catch
It's something that the police can't apprehend

And that's depression
And that's depression

So I'm sorry
So I apologize

I'm sorry
I'm sorry

I think I have to let it go
I think I have to move on

When you see me tell me
When you see me, tell me

Tell me do you see pain in my eyes
Do you see pain in my eyes?

Or do you think I let it go
Or do you think I've moved on

I let it go
I've moved on