Alongside Ghostie, KiddBeatz, and the late Loboloki, Sybyr is a co-founder of the Anti-World collective—formerly WeirdCLVN and Weird Melodicians—a music collective founded upon social outsiders “expressing abnormality through music,” as Chase explained inside a September 2014 interview with GOLD BUSHIDO. In a September 2018 interview with All Def Music, Sybyr described the concept of Anti-World to be “a place where no fuckery is allowed.”
Sybyr’s clothing preferences and appearance are oftentimes met with backlash due to his defiance of gender norms. Chase can be seen sporting high-heels, lipstick, nail polish, and platform boots inside social media posts—stylistic choices that have been a cemented part of his persona since June 2016.
Sybyr’s discography is extensive, with over fifty bodies-of-work self-released since July 2012. Sybyr would publicly debut as MacXVII, releasing his fully-instrumental record, Space Trips. It would take nearly two years before Chase would experiment with vocals, releasing his loose single, “1449,” in April 2014.
On June 4, 2017, Sybyr was reported missing by many of his associates—he was last seen on June 2, 2017, inside Commerce City, Denver. On June 12, 2017, it was stated that he had been found and was safe. Unbeknownst to fans of the Maryland artist, Chase was spending time inside behavioral facilities and hospitals, which he detailed inside a September 2018 HAM Radio interview with All Def Music
Following Chase’s leave from the psychiatric ward on July 12, 2017, he decided to change his alias from Syringe to Sybhyr, first announced via a Facebook post. Chase later switched his pseudonym to Sybyr on July 16, 2017. Being homonymic with cyber, the Sybyr alias seemingly has roots from Sybyr’s childhood, where he routinely spent time on the internet.
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I Wanted To Die
SYBYR Lyrics
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There ain't no question of why haven't I
Ran away to destroy my life
I never wanted a pain so bad
Living with memories that I once had
Joining the voices of ones we once had
Running around in a realm made of glass
Into unknown territory of mass, and
Seems like since forever, forever
I wanted to die
There ain't no question of why haven't I
Ran away to destroy my life
I never wanted a pain so bad
Living with memories that I once had
Joining the voices of ones we once had
Running around in a realm made of glass
Into unknown territory of mass, and
I look out of the window
Seems like since forever, forever
In Sybyr's song "I Wanted To Die," the artist expresses emotions of pain and trauma. The lyrics suggest that the artist has contemplated ending their own life and feels like running away to destroy themselves. There is a profound sense of loss and regret as the artist says they never wanted to feel such immense pain. Instead of moving on from the memories they once had, the artist is joining the voices of those they have lost. The line "Running around in a realm made of glass" could suggest feelings of vulnerability and being fragile.
The artist seems to be in a state of perpetual sadness and feels like they have been stuck forever. They look out of the window and feel like they have been in the same place for ages. The song is a reflection of the artist's struggle with mental health and possibly the aftermath of losing someone close to them. The song emphasizes the importance of seeking help and reaching out to people when struggling with mental health.
Line by Line Meaning
I wanted to die
I was in such immense emotional pain that I felt like dying was the only way to alleviate it.
There ain't no question of why haven't I
It's inevitable that I would feel this way, given the overwhelming burden I carry.
Ran away to destroy my life
In my despair, I actively tried to ruin everything I had, even if it meant causing myself more pain.
I never wanted a pain so bad
The level of hurt I experienced was beyond anything I could have ever imagined or desired.
Living with memories that I once had
My past is haunting me, and I am struggling to come to terms with it.
Joining the voices of ones we once had
I am trying to connect with the people who used to be in my life, but it only serves to highlight how alone I feel now.
Running around in a realm made of glass
My reality feels incredibly fragile, like one wrong move could break everything apart.
Into unknown territory of mass, and
I feel like I am moving forward into an uncertain future, with no idea of what lies ahead.
I look out of the window
I am searching for something, anything, that could give me hope or direction.
Seems like since forever, forever
This agony has been going on for what feels like an eternity, with no end in sight.
Writer(s): Chase Cauthen
Contributed by Leo E. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
YVNG RVT
I wanted to die.
And the question is why haven’t I
Figured a way to destroy my life?
I never wanted a pain so bad.
Living with memories that I once had.
Joining the voices of ones we once had.
Running around in a world made of glass.
Into unknown territory of mass
I look out of the window
Seems like since forever, forever
Its Zak
the closet days.. you can see and hear the emotion.. this wasn’t for views.. or for the sound.. this is pure and authentic emotion poured out onto a very melodic beat. i can’t stress enough how bad i felt for sy 4 years ago..
ŤŔĨРĹĔ Ж
sy still good but some different
thankyouapollo
when I die I want to hear syringes voice guide me to the next place
l0
:(
Don
same
uvasi
i want both
noah
i want bladees
DRAINAGE
This song legit helped me a lot. Helped me find myself, shout out to Syringe.
L. Matias
I wanna die knowing syringe made it
Dylan The Chef
This song and syringe are both underrated 💉😕