Hustler
Salvat Josef Lyrics

It's not easy on my bed sheets
My lifestyle is challenging and exhausting, even physically.

It's not easy on my nerves
I'm constantly on edge and stressed out by my choices and actions.

It's not easy on my conscience
I am aware that what I am doing may not be morally right and it weighs heavily on my mind.

It's not easy on my soul
My actions are damaging to who I am as a person, and it takes a toll on me emotionally.

This is not what you wanted
I understand that my choices may not align with what society expects of me or what my loved ones want for me.

What you wanted for me
I realize that others may have had different hopes and visions for my life than what I have chosen for myself.

I know that much now
Over time, I have come to understand how my choices may have disappointed those around me.

My apologies
I acknowledge the pain and disappointment that my actions may have caused others and express remorse for it.

You will call me a harlot
Some may see me as a promiscuous person because of the lifestyle I have chosen.

You will call me a whore
Others may view me as engaging in immoral behavior by selling my body or engaging in other forms of illegal activity.

But see I'm a man now
Despite others' perceptions of me, I am an adult and capable of making decisions for myself.

I'm worth so much more
My worth as a person goes beyond my actions and my past mistakes.

I've got the heart of a hustler
I am determined and driven to make a living and pursue my goals, even if it means engaging in unconventional means to do so.

With a hustler's pain
The difficulties and challenges that come with hustling, such as poverty and rejection, can be emotionally taxing.

With all a hustler's shame
Society often looks down upon those who engage in illegal or immoral activity, and I feel the weight of that judgement.

I've got the body of a lover
I am a sexual being and enjoy intimacy, even if it means having to sell my body to make a living.

With a masochists brain
I am aware that the pain and degradation that comes with my lifestyle is not healthy but I cannot resist it.

I'm playing a dangerous game
I am aware that my actions may have severe consequences, and ultimately, it may not be worth the risk.

The mind say no sir
Intellectually, I know that what I am doing is wrong.

But the body says please
Despite my better judgement, my physical and emotional needs push me to continue hustling.

The heart stays silent
My emotions are conflicted and I do not know how I feel about my lifestyle or if I should continue with it.

Such a silent tease
The lack of clarity in my emotions makes it difficult for me to decide what to do and causes inner turmoil.

And I don't know why I'm telling you this
I am opening up about my struggles because I feel the need to express myself to someone who may understand my situation.

Maybe I've got to get it off my unholy chest
My past and present actions make me feel ashamed and unworthy, and I hope that by talking about it, I can find some emotional release.

There's a road much travelled
There are other paths to take besides hustling that are more conventional and accepted by society.

But one I haven't walked down yet
I have not yet explored those other paths and am unsure if I can succeed in them.

And it calls my name (it calls my name)
The idea of a different path is alluring and tempting, and I am drawn to it.

Yes it calls my name
I cannot ignore the pull of this other path that may be better for me in the long run.

It's a darker path
The other path entails a certain level of risk, uncertainty, and even danger.

I've got a hustlers heart
My determination, strength, and resilience come from my hustling lifestyle, even if it means that I must face adversity and hardship.