Million Years Ago
Scubba feat. Anekka Lyrics

I only wanted to have fun
I had no grand plan or strategy for my life, I just wanted to enjoy it

Learning to fly learning to run
I was eager to try new things and experience life to the fullest

I let my heart decide the way
I made decisions based on my feelings and intuition, rather than logic or reason

When I was young
All of this happened when I was still relatively inexperienced and naive

Deep down I must have always known
Even though I didn't fully realize it at the time, I always had a sense that my carefree lifestyle couldn't last forever

That this would be inevitable
It was inevitable that I would have to face the consequences of my actions eventually

To earn my stripes I'd have to pay
I understood that success and respect wouldn't come easily, and that I would have to work hard and make sacrifices to achieve my goals

And bare my soul
I would have to be honest and vulnerable about my true thoughts and feelings, even if it was difficult

I know I'm not the only one
I'm not alone in feeling regretful about my past

Who regrets the things they've done
I wish I could go back and make different choices or avoid certain mistakes

Sometimes I just feel it's only me
It can be easy to feel isolated and alone in one's struggles and regrets

Who can't stand the reflection that they see
It's difficult to look at oneself honestly and confront past mistakes without feeling ashamed or disappointed

I wish I could live a little more
I feel like I haven't fully lived or appreciated the opportunities and experiences that have come my way

Look up to the sky not just the floor
I want to start seeing the bigger picture and possibilities in life, rather than just focusing on the mundanity of day-to-day existence

I feel like my life is flashing by
Time seems to be passing quickly and I haven't done all of the things I wanted to do

And all I can do is watch and cry
I feel helpless to change the past or the current trajectory of my life

I miss the air, I miss my friends
I miss the freedom and companionship that used to be so important to me

I miss my mother, I miss it when
I miss the love and support of my family, and the simpler times when life seemed easier

Life was a party to be thrown
I used to see life as an adventure full of possibilities and excitement

But that was a million years ago
Those carefree times feel like they were a long time ago and are now unattainable

When I walk around all of the streets
When I revisit the places where I used to spend my time

Where I grew up and found my feet
Where I first started to explore and discover who I was and what I wanted from life

They can't look me in the eye
The people who knew me back then seem uncomfortable or ashamed of my current state

It's like they're scared of me
They may be afraid of me, or afraid of what I represent or remind them of

I try to think of things to say
I attempt to make conversation or reconnect with people from my past

Like a joke or a memory
I search for common ground or shared experiences to bridge the gap between us

But they don't recognise me now
People who used to know me well seem to have trouble connecting with who I have become

In the light of day
When faced with the reality of my current situation and choices, it's difficult to hide or pretend that everything is alright

Who never became who they thought they'd be
I feel like I haven't lived up to my own expectations or potential