Torn
Selfish Things Lyrics

Awake.
I am conscious and fully aware of my actions and surroundings.

I'm burning with my mistakes.
I am consumed by regret and the consequences of my past choices.

Be afraid.
You should feel fear in my presence because I will harm you.

I'll use you until I break.
I will manipulate and exploit you until I reach my breaking point.

I said I'm sick of all this meaning,
I express my exhaustion towards finding significance in everything.

I'm twisted and I'm reeling,
I am mentally distorted and experiencing intense emotional turmoil.

I find it hard to let things go.
I struggle to release or forget about past experiences or attachments.

Apathetic, screaming
I display a lack of interest or concern while still expressing my anguish through loud vocalizations.

Opulent and dreamy.
I appear rich and extravagant in my fantasies and daydreams.

Kill me while you hold me close.
Cause me harm or destruction even in your moments of intimacy and affection towards me.

Tell me little lies.
Please deceive me with small untruths.

I need your love,
I have a strong desire for your affection and emotional attachment.

I need you now.
I require your presence and support immediately.

Look me in the eyes.
Directly meet my gaze and acknowledge my existence and emotions.

I know your weight,
I understand the significance and impact you have on me and my life.

I feel your clout.
I sense the power and influence you hold over me.

I will paint your fear,
I will vividly depict and intensify your fears through my artistic representation.

With every colour of my mind, see
I will utilize every aspect of my thoughts and imagination to capture your fear.

I'm not the man I thought I was before.
I am different from the person I once believed or perceived myself to be.

Disdain,
I feel a strong contempt or disgust towards something.

There are creatures inside my brain.
My mind is inhabited by unsettling and disturbing thoughts or entities.

I think I'm lame.
I have a negative perception of myself, considering myself to be uninteresting or incompetent.

My plans all went up in flames.
All my intentions and goals have been completely ruined or destroyed.

Synchronized and sinking,
In perfect harmony and descending together towards a lower state.

From middle, end, beginning.
Regardless of the chronological order, I am continuously experiencing a downward spiral.

I'm hung until I'm wrung out, dry.
I am metaphorically suspended and stretched to the point of complete exhaustion and emptiness.

Dumb from all the drinking,
I have become mentally dull or impaired due to excessive alcohol consumption.

The darkness keeps on creeping,
A feeling of gloom and negativity continuously infiltrates and takes over my being.

I hope that you can save my life.
I harbor a desperate desire for you to rescue or redeem me from my current state of despair.

I pull until I'm torn.
I exert great force on myself, causing myself to be ripped apart and damaged.

I pull until I'm.
I continue to exert force and strain on myself without any specific endpoint or purpose.