I WONDER
Sevin Lyrics


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(feat. Bad Azz)

[Intro: Sevin]
Yeah, Mm, Mm, Hmm
Feel Me, Uh

[Verse 1: Sevin]
Once again, I make love to my pen hopin to birth a career
Prayin the game don't avoid it cause my purpose is clear
I can't lie, Plenty of nights i hit the curb just to smoke
To hopefully escape the agony where murders provoke
Satan tells me quit rappin, Start servin up coke
Cause the millions fed by the media ain't nourishing hope
I grab my word, Find a place to start reading to cope
It says well's not to worried, But it hurts to be broke
Heavenly father please, I'll scar my knees til ya pardon me
Life is as dark as these nights and it's hard to see
And i don't know why being right is so hard for me
It's like the only thing in the world i like is my artistry
How can i minister life when my own heart don't beat?
What can they offer me lord, When you departed the sea?
And what my people settle for and what we fought to be
Look what they did to Dr. king, I'm knowin they gon martyr me
But since i can't beat death, I just embrace it
Hopin that ya name is on my breath when i face it
I look at your disciples, 1 suffered exile, 11 were killed
When I'm gone, I want the world to know that sevin was real
Cause all i have is this exceptional skill
Tryin to reserve my soul a little peace of heaven to feel
So i bathe from the blood that you bled on that hill
They swore never saw, But you said that i will
Cmon

[Chorus 1:]
I wonder if I'm wasting time
I feel like I'm wasting mine
Cause it's taking me longer
I wonder if my life is worth
The pain and the stress and the hurt
That's been taking me longer

[Bad Azz: Overlapping chorus]
Holla at us, The truth baby
Uh

[Verse 2: Bad Azz]
God help us out here, The whole world needs stitches
Ya need to send a big chariot down here to get us
We been sinnin, We confess, We were wrong, So please forgive us
But it's hard to live in all this evil and stay delivered
We work for blood money then spend it where evil lives
To come home to nothing to sleep through all them killings
If hell was 1,000 miles, I'd be walkin it
Cause speech could feed a billion mouths, I'm talk
I'm only bad as a rapper, I'm a real good man
Had a lotta wrong things, But i had a few good stands
Before i leave here, I just want the world to know
Y'all can bury me anywhere, Because god got my soul
But sometimes

[Chorus 2:]
I wonder if I'm wasting time
I feel like I'm pacing mine
Until this is over
Price, This is what your life is worth
And you don't smile after all this hurt
Until this is over

[Verse 3: Sevin]
Everyday i gotta question the odds
I quit gambling, Start stepping wit god
My job's to ensure that whatever i've confessed is applied
But it's harder than is sounds
I was down to flip pounds and spit rounds
But now the currency's nowhere to be found
I used to think it was nothin major for me to rob wit a .9
I never realized it so tie til i tryed to resign
And the homies understand, I'm just a man, Just as well as before
But a wise man can't conceal what he know
So i feed him as it comes, But we still stuck in these heathenistic slums
Prostitution, Murdering, And curb serving, Evil as a realistic punch
We hopin we don't pass it to our sons
As all this trickles down, I'm starting to wonder if my bloodline has been cursed
Cause the fact that i grew up dyin since birth
Makes it worse, I never seen a limo less it's following a hearse
Another brother layin hollow in the church
The eulogy was nice, But it was fabricated mostly
I knew homie closely, All he ever wanted to be was o.g.
Kept a full 40, Move coke by the o.z.
I tryed to get em holy, He ignored me
He died in a shootout over principle
I wonder how 2 dollars escolated into hollows in his intricles
And now we shed tears cause we don't know the truth
Another one wit so much potential who was robbed for his youth
Uh

[Chorus 3:]
I wonder if I'm wasting time
I feel like I'm pacing mine
Cause it's taking me under
I wonder if my life is worth




The pain, The Stress and hurt
That's been taking me under

Overall Meaning

The song โ€œI Wonderโ€ by Sevin ft. Bad Azz is a deep and introspective look at the struggles of living a righteous life in a world full of sin and temptation. The song speaks to the struggle of trying to navigate the world as a believer while being inundated with messages of greed, violence, and debauchery. The opening verse has Sevin questioning whether he should continue on his music career path or succumb to the allure of quick cash, drugs and riches. He ends up affirming his faith and asking God to guide him through the darkness.


The next verse is delivered by Bad Azz, who reflects on his past sins and the difficulty of living righteously in a world that is often evil. He talks about the struggles of earning โ€œblood moneyโ€ and how it leads to a cycle of sin and poverty. Despite this, he acknowledges that heโ€™s not perfect but wants to be remembered as a good person, and that his soul is in Godโ€™s hands. The final verse returns to Sevin. He discusses the challenges of living in a community where violence and debauchery are the norm. The constant barrage of negativity makes it hard to shake off the feelings of hopelessness, but he knows that faith and prayer can help.


Overall, the song is a powerful reflection on the struggles of being righteous in a world that actively discourages it. The lyrics are poignant and relatable, and both Sevin and Bad Azz deliver their verses with conviction and honesty.


Line by Line Meaning

Once again, I make love to my pen hopin to birth a career
Sevin is starting to write again, hoping it will lead to a successful music career.


Prayin the game don't avoid it cause my purpose is clear
Sevin hopes that the music industry doesn't ignore his work because he believes he has a clear purpose.


I can't lie, Plenty of nights i hit the curb just to smoke
Sevin has turned to drugs to cope with the pain and stress in his life.


To hopefully escape the agony where murders provoke
He uses drugs to escape the pain of living in a society where murders occur frequently.


Satan tells me quit rappin, Start servin up coke
Sevin is tempted to quit music and start selling drugs for quick money because Satan is tempting him.


Cause the millions fed by the media ain't nourishing hope
Sevin believes that the mainstream media doesn't provide hope to people and is corrupting society.


How can i minister life when my own heart don't beat?
Sevin feels he cannot inspire people when he doesn't feel good himself.


What can they offer me lord, When you departed the sea?
Sevin is questioning what he will gain from life since God has already parted the sea, which was a significant, miraculous happening.


But since i can't beat death, I just embrace it
Sevin has found peace in accepting the fact that he will eventually die.


God help us out here, The whole world needs stitches
Bad Azz believes that the world is in need of healing and needs divine intervention.


We been sinnin, We confess, We were wrong, So please forgive us
Bad Azz repents for his sins and asks for forgiveness from God.


If hell was 1,000 miles, I'd be walkin it
Bad Azz feels guilty for his sins and believes that he deserves to suffer in hell for them.


But i had a few good stands, Before i leave here, I just want the world to know
Bad Azz wants to be remembered for the good he has done in his life before he dies.


Everyday i gotta question the odds, I quit gambling, Start stepping wit god
Sevin has stopped gambling and is focusing on his faith in God.


I tryed to get em holy, He ignored me
Sevin tried to get his friend to change his ways and become religious, but his friend didn't listen to him.


He died in a shootout over principle, I wonder how 2 dollars escolated into hollows in his intricles
Sevin's friend was killed in a shootout over a petty disagreement, and Sevin questions how such a small issue escalated to a deadly confrontation.




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The Official Princess Rainbow

So much truth and light in this song...praise you God for your obedient servants out here reppin your kingdom and your name. Lord continue to breathe your vital words into their mouths so that the message could spread upon this world to those who need it. Lord continue to bless them in your mighty name amen... God bless y'all...love Rainbow aka RainbowRocksTheHeaven

Zaydok the Godhop MC

Princess Rainbow bless you

๐Ÿ’•ChildofGOD๐Ÿ’•

Powerful๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ’ฏthis generation need more music like this, GOD IS#1

Joshua Fox

Being a rap fan and hip-hop fan its really nice to be able to listen to music that is about God and Jesus. Thanks for that guys. God bless.

Western Rite Orthodox

I don't even listen to secular Hip Hop anymore, I thank Christ for that , He blessed me leaving that evil music that will only cause me harm, for raising up rappers like these two Brother

Joshua Fox

ุงุชุจุงุน ูŠุณูˆุน ุงู„ู…ุณูŠุญ amen to that bro

Rachel Palmer

Right? His lyrics, "they feedin you feces but you wont call it crap" a lot of these "Christian" rappers are a joke and i include lecrae who has taken all mention of jesus out of his lyrics

Rachel Palmer

@Western Rite Orthodox im almost 40.and havent listened to rap since my 20s but is music is so fon fire and real i cant not listen to his songs!

Julia Anderson

@Rachel Palmer Thank you for opening the door, truly amazing music! I just couldnโ€™t listen to it when you hurt me๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ž

Techtacular

Sevin's verse hits ya soul

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