Drowning
Sik-K Coogie Lyrics

I wish I can numb this pain
I want to be free from the pain I feel

I thought by now I won't complain
I hoped I would be stronger and not complain about my pain

I got the cash with half the fame
I have money, but only half the recognition I desire

Lost half my heart and kept the veins
I lost some of my heart and emotions, but kept going on with life

We had our spark and lost our flame
We started out strong, but lost our passion over time

I tried to talk, had none to say
I attempted to express myself, but couldn't find the words

I want the love, you never gave
I needed your love, but you never gave it

Was hurting me your only aim
Were you trying to hurt me on purpose?

You shot my heart, I bled out hate
You broke my heart, causing me to feel anger and resentment

Cuz tho you left, the trauma stayed
Even though you left, the emotional trauma still remains

I wish the past, would go away
I want to forget about the past and move on

But I guess gotta live with it
I have to learn how to live with my past and the pain it brings

Times changed, I don't feel different
Although time passed, I still feel the same

Despite the hurdles in my life I kept my vision alive
Even though I had obstacles, I kept my dreams and goals alive

I had no one on my side, yet I still did it
I had to face things alone, but still accomplished them

I'm missing the old me, talking pre-depression
I miss the version of myself before I experienced depression

Where I felt alive and I had a connection
I felt happy and connected with others during that time

Now I'm dead inside cuz I lost my direction
I feel empty and lost because I lost my sense of purpose and direction

I don't put my wall down for my own protection
I have defenses up to protect myself from getting hurt

And I'm tired of people using me
I'm exhausted from people taking advantage of me

People lie what do you believe
People are dishonest, so who can you trust?

I know people see the truth in me
I know that others can see how genuine I am

And I know one day you will see
Someday, you will understand where I'm coming from

That being true was a tool for me
My honesty and authenticity are important assets for me

I be sticking to myself,
I prefer to keep to myself

I don't need nobody else
I don't need anyone else

Just relief, from this trauma
I just want to find peace from my emotional trauma

That keeps on ruining me
It's preventing me from moving on and living my life

Cuz lately Im loosing sleep
I'm losing sleep because of stress and anxiety

And nobody's getting thru to me
No one is able to help me or understand what I'm going through

I'm still here and still driven
Despite everything, I'm still motivated to succeed

People see me as a meal ticket
Others see me as a source of income or success

They get nothing, they can deal with it
Those individuals will receive no benefit from me, and they should accept that

I guess me and them were built different
We have very different values and motivations

I work for whatever I'm given
I work hard for any opportunity that comes my way

I been living inside of my room since I was fifteen
I've been isolated and alone since I was young

Making a bunch a songs hoping somebody gets me
I create music in hopes that someone can relate with my struggles

I always felt alone and the feeling is sickening
I've always felt lonely and it's a terrible feeling

When your expressing your pain and no one is listening
It's difficult to share your struggles when nobody cares to listen

And life's hard to manage
Life is difficult to navigate

I feel like I have a disadvantage
I feel like I'm less equipped to handle life's challenges

Since My childhood left me hella damaged
My difficult childhood has left me with emotional wounds

I don't know love because I never had it
I struggle to understand love because I never received it

Every relationship I'm in never lasted
All of my relationships end up failing

Only toxic woman was all I attracted
I've only found myself drawn to unhealthy relationships

I continuously fear having attachments
I'm afraid of getting attached to someone because I fear getting hurt again

Honestly It was really hard getting past it
Honestly, it's been very difficult to move on from my past

But it is what it is you get what you give
I have to accept what has happened and move forward as best I can

I wish I learned quicker, look, I probably did
I wish I had learned my lessons sooner, but I'm sure I've made progress

Just didn't accept it
I've been stubborn in my ways and didn't want to accept certain truths

Inside of my mind is where my demons roam
My inner thoughts are often plagued by negative emotions and thoughts

I try to hide cuz they won't leave me alone
I try to avoid facing my inner demons, but they always come back

I overthink all of my mistakes on my own
I tend to dwell on my own mistakes and overthink them

I don't know where to go, it's cuz it
I feel lost and unsure of where to go next, and it's because of all of these struggles

Feels like I'm losing sleep
I feel restless and unable to sleep due to stress and anxiety

I want my mind at ease
I want to find peace and calm within my thoughts

Feels like I'm losing me
I feel like I'm losing my sense of self and identity

I wanna find relief
I want to find a sense of relief from my inner struggles

Feels like I need to breath
I feel suffocated and need to find some space and air to breathe

I think I'm into deep, now
I feel like I've gotten in over my head and am struggling to stay afloat

I'm drowning in my thoughts
I feel overwhelmed and consumed by my own negative thoughts

Drowning, by myself I'm
I'm struggling alone without anyone to help me

Drowning, I need help I'm
I need support and help from others to overcome my struggles

Drowning, They can't tell I'm
Others can't see how much I'm struggling internally

Drowning, Ooo
I feel like I'm drowning in my own emotions and struggles