Asthmatic
Spine Shank Lyrics
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Destroyed by what I create
It left the nerve exposed
Feels like a lost cause
Frustration's all I have left
It's what reduced me to this
Turned me against myself
It's still a lost cause
I can't keep doing this to myself
But it's the only way to forget who I am
Your disability
Kept pushing me away
It went beneath what's so real to me
And threw it all away
I underestimated
The lengths that you would have gone
To deny who you are
You threw it all away
I will keep doing this to myself
'Cause it's the only way to forget who I am
I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
It can only help me if it hurts
I won't give into, I won't give into...
I won't become one with your lies
I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway
I will keep doing this to myself
'Cause it's the only way to forget who I am
I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway
I have become one with your lies
The lyrics of Spine Shank's song “Asthmatic” depict a sense of hopelessness, frustration and the feeling of being lost. The opening line "It starts to tear me down" suggests that something is causing the singer to feel destroyed or broken. This is followed by the line "Destroyed by what I create", which could suggest that the singer's own creativity is causing them to lose control, leading to self-destruction. The line "It left the nerve exposed" further highlights the singer's vulnerability and sensitivity.
The chorus of "I can't keep doing this to myself, But it's the only way to forget who I am" could suggest that the singer is using self-destructive behaviour as a means of coping with painful memories or trauma. The line "Your disability, kept pushing me away" could suggest that the singer is struggling to connect with someone who has a disability, which has caused further frustration and isolation. The line "I will keep doing this to myself, 'Cause it's the only way to forget who I am" reiterates the singer's reliance on self-destructive behaviours as a coping mechanism.
Furthermore, the line "I never wanted your help, I never needed your help" suggests that the singer is unwilling to accept help from others and prefers to deal with their issues alone. The repetition of the line "This failure has to be all mine all mine now" reinforces the idea that the singer is taking full responsibility for their problems, and is content to suffer the consequences of their actions.
Overall, the song Asthmatic by Spine Shank is a powerful depiction of the struggles of mental health and self-destructive behaviour. It is a raw expression of the pain, frustration, and helplessness that can come with experiencing these issues.
Line by Line Meaning
It starts to tear me down
The situation is starting to affect me negatively.
Destroyed by what I create
My creations, ideas or actions are causing me harm.
It left the nerve exposed
The issue has made me vulnerable and sensitive.
Feels like a lost cause
I feel like there is no solution or hope for the situation.
Frustration's all I have left
The only emotion I have left is frustration.
It's what reduced me to this
Frustration or the situation has led me to my current state.
Turned me against myself
The situation has made me go against myself and my own desires.
It's still a lost cause
There is still no solution, hope, or way out for the situation.
Your disability
The disability or hindrance you have.
Kept pushing me away
The disability or hindrance kept causing a distance between us.
It went beneath what's so real to me
The situation was beyond or deeper than what was tangible or known to me.
And threw it all away
The situation or disability caused everything to fall apart or be lost.
I underestimated
I didn't fully realize the extent of the situation or disability.
The lengths that you would have gone
I didn't expect you to do whatever it takes to deny or deal with the disability or situation.
To deny who you are
You had to deny a part of yourself or your identity to deal with the situation or disability.
You threw it all away
You lost everything due to the situation or disability.
I will keep doing this to myself
I will keep harming myself or putting myself in this situation.
'Cause it's the only way to forget who I am
Because it's the only way to avoid or forget my true self, identity or problems.
I never wanted your help
I didn't want or need your assistance.
I never needed your help
I was capable of dealing with the situation or disability on my own.
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I am responsible for the failure, consequence or outcome.
I'll turn my back on myself
I will abandon or betray myself and my needs or desires.
If it's my only way out
If it's the only solution or escape.
It can only help me if it hurts
Harm and pain seem to be the only things that can help me deal with the situation or disability.
I won't give into, I won't give into...
I won't give in to the situation or disability and let it control me.
I won't become one with your lies
I won't accept or believe the lies, false beliefs or misinformation surrounding the situation or disability.
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway
I am so exhausted or worn out that I can't experience any other emotion.
I have become one with your lies
I have believed or accepted the lies or false beliefs surrounding the situation or disability.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: JONATHAN SANTOS, ROBERT GARCIA, SOREN SARKISYAN, THOMAS DECKER
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@riyahf3481
such an underrated hit
@Ammut6
Spineshank is underrated as a whole
@vinaymulukutla358
I got this album when it came out upon hearing this song on a Roadrunner compilation back then. Was super exciting to a seventeen year old me. Great trip back to the early 2000's for me.
@p1nkfreud
I NEVER WANTED YOUR HELP; I NEVER NEEDED YOUR HELP
@grayman1
(Over and over)
@PoliticaV
Man this was the shit back in my day!
@erickmazur807
Still a banger
@p1nkfreud
Same
@vinaymulukutla358
Still fun today.
@danielfleckenstein7107
Wow! Been awhile since I've heard this banger!