Signs
Suisai Lyrics

There we were lost again gone for days
We were lost and absent for days, feeling directionless and distant.

What′s the point no one cares anyways
Questioning the purpose of everything, wondering if anyone even cares.

I'll still be alright, you could let me die slow
I will manage on my own, you could just leave me to suffer.

I′ll still be alright, just leave me alone
I will be okay, just let me be by myself for a while.

On the floor laying there wondering
Feeling defeated, lying on the ground and contemplating.

If any of this shit matters anyway
Questioning if anything really truly matters at all.

I'll still be alright, you can watch me die slow
I will survive, even if you choose to watch me suffer.

I'll still be alright, that′s all I can hope for
I will manage, hoping for nothing more than my own well-being.

Fuck this conversation, ′cause I can't let go
Getting frustrated with the conversation because I cannot let go of certain things.

Life just has this grip can′t take hold
Life's hold is too strong, making it difficult to grasp onto anything.

Coldest times are near don't want to
Feeling like the coldest, toughest times are approaching and not wanting to face them.

Let you down but times approaching
Feeling like I will eventually disappoint you, especially when the difficult times come.

Peaks never feel like the lows
The highs never feel as good as the lows feel bad.

Slowing my life to a halt
Feeling like my life is coming to a stop, and everything is slowing down.

Calling out all night
Shouting out for help, especially during the night.

Closed doors locked behind
Feeling trapped, with no way out.

You saw all the signs
You noticed all the warning signs, but did not take action.

Lie to me thats all I need to get
All I need is a lie to get by, to make things easier.

Feelings that cannot compete with the real thing enough
My feelings are not strong enough to compete with reality.

Deep as those meaningless words wanna cut
My emotions are deep, but they feel meaningless and cause pain.

Eventually all that shit turns to nothing
In the end, everything becomes meaningless and fades away.

I cannot rewind
I cannot go back in time and change anything.

Mine as well move on
Might as well move forward and not dwell on the past.

Longing for a sign
Yearning for a signal, an indication of what to do next.

Wishing for a thought
Desiring a clear idea or thought that will provide some guidance.

That′s all that I want
All I really want is some form of direction.

Something that just gets me through for the moment
Something that will help me survive and cope, at least for now.

The closer I get to the edge feels alive
The closer I get to the brink, the more alive I feel.

Like whats the point of just trudging along
Wondering about the futility of simply going through the motions of life.

None of this shit feels like it is alright
Nothing feels good or okay, everything feels wrong.

Cave into the thought crawl into my hole
Giving in to negative thoughts and retreating into a depressed state.

Back to where before no where left to go
Returning to a previous state of hopelessness, feeling stuck.

I thought that I'd realize and just let go
I hoped that I would come to a realization and move on, but it has not happened.

Why did I assume things were simple?
Questioning why I ever thought that things would be easy or straightforward.