Not Again
Sunrise Avenue (wapos.ru) Lyrics

I've been trying to love myself for real
I have been attempting to genuinely care and respect myself

I've been trying not to feel what I feel
I am attempting to suppress my emotions and not let them control me

I've been trying to be a bit less mistaken
I want to make fewer errors in judgment or perception

It was real the feeling I had for you
My romantic feelings for you were not fabricated or false

And you told me how you need me too
You expressed that you also require my affection and companionship

Everyone kept saying it's not the real thing
Many people advised me that our love was not genuine or authentic

How dare you break my lonely heart
I am outraged that you shattered my already isolated and despondent heart

And dance on the pieces
You seem to delight in causing me pain and anguish

Being with you just tares me apart
Your presence and behavior cause me extreme emotional distress

Not again and again
I refuse to keep experiencing the same devastation and dejection repeatedly

Take you love and leave me behind
I would rather you depart and abandon me than continue to harm me with your affections

Realize we're mistaken
We both need to come to terms with the fact that our relationship was misguided and flawed

I don't need to be torn down
I do not need to be further destroyed or dismantled emotionally

I've been wanting to die, just so you know
I have been experiencing a severe and unbearable desire to end my life

Trying to show them all how I'm alone
I am attempting to exhibit that I am solitary and unsupported

I've been hating my bedroom in the night
I have developed a strong aversion and negative association with my bedroom during nighttime hours

I've seen heaven and hell with you
I have had incredibly euphoric and hope-inspiring experiences with you, as well as deeply painful and traumatic ones

I believed the lies you said were true
I trusted and accepted the falsehoods you told me as genuine and accurate

I've been trying to grow, I've been holding on
I have been striving to mature and develop personally, while also attempting to maintain my connection with you

I've been trying to be strong
I have been working to remain resilient and endure through my emotional struggles

Once again I just want to feel something true
I yearn and crave for authentic and valid experiences or feelings

Once again I just want to get closer to you
I desire to have a deeper level of intimacy and proximity with you

Nothing will ever change anyway
Regardless of what happens or what we do, our situation and emotions will remain static and unchanging

Not again will I lie to myself
I will no longer deceive or delude myself about the nature of our relationship or my own emotional state