Who Am I
Sxye Lyrics

I promised myself it won't happen a second time
I made a promise to myself not to let the same thing happen to me again

I promised myself i'd be stronger i'd be fine
I also promised myself that I would be stronger and recover

Why can't i see
I'm oblivious to what's happening

That i am weak
I'm not strong enough to handle my situation

That i am hurt
I'm emotionally hurt by something or someone

That i am gone
I feel like I'm disappearing or fading away

And that id been so all along
I've been feeling this way for a while, and it's become a part of me

But i am just a kid that's lost in darkness
I feel like a lost child, wandering around in the dark

Of this big and scary world
The world seems daunting and scary

I'm not a girl i'm not a boy
I don't identify as either gender specifically

I am just me but i like joy
I'm just being myself and strive for happiness

I am destroyed but i'll be fine
Although I feel broken, deep down I know I'll be okay

If i'm confused i'll stop in time
If I start to feel confused or overwhelmed, I'll take a break

Wait for a sign
I'm waiting for a sign or indication of what to do next

I am afraid of what's to come
I'm scared of the future and what it holds for me

These kids are blocking out the sun
Other kids are creating obstacles and distractions from my goals

And now i'm left drowning in lies
I'm surrounded by deception and can't escape it

Can't differentiate the tides
I can't tell what's real or fake anymore

Is this the truth is this real life
I'm questioning the reality of my situation

This tends to happen all the time
This feels like a recurring issue for me

I can't decide who to believe
I'm struggling to determine who to trust

So i grieve inside
I'm keeping my sorrow and emotions to myself

Why does my head never make sense
I can't seem to get my thoughts in order

Stresses me out to count to ten
Even simple tasks can cause me stress and frustration

Let's go again travel inside
I'm trying to explore my thoughts and emotions again despite the fear and discomfort

Messed up my conscience and my mind
My thoughts and beliefs are confusing and contradictory

But now i'm fine
Despite everything, I feel okay at the moment

So i prétend but really i just want to end
I'm pretending to be okay when really I'm struggling and possibly contemplating ending everything

What can't make sense i want to die
If I can't find a reason for what I'm going through, I feel like dying is the solution

But who am i?
Deep down, I'm questioning my purpose and identity

Please let me in
I'm asking for acceptance or permission to be a part of something

I promise i won't leave again
I'm willing to make a change and work towards leaving this negative mindset or environment

Please let me out
At the same time, I'm also requesting to be released from a situation or environment

Please let me out
I feel trapped and want to escape

What you have done
I'm dealing with the consequences of someone's actions

Not to a soul
I'm keeping silent about it, not willing to tell anyone

I want to live, just be at home
All I want is stability and comfort in my home environment

But i'm not home when i'm with you
Being around someone makes me feel uncomfortable and not at home

I'm sorry, tell me what to do
I'm apologizing for not knowing what to do and needing guidance

I'm scared of you
I'm fearful of someone or something that's affecting my life

Of what you've done
I'm scared of the impact someone's actions have had

I'm scared of what i will become
I'm also scared of the future and the potential for change