Equinox
T. Shan Lyrics

You in that flannel and that jean skirt
Describing the person and their outfit

Goddamn, you were a mean flirt
Suggesting the person was flirtatious and possibly manipulative

Shirt always sliding off your shoulders
Describing the person's clothing and physical appearance

Know I did my thing, I was going through the motions
Admitting the artist was not fully engaged in the encounter

But I guess there’s couple things that I learned that night
Reflecting on what was gained from the experience

"Oh you make music?" yeah, you heard that right
Recalling a conversation piece from the night

My only trick, played it through my phone speakers
Admitting to relying on a particular move or routine

That night I didn’t see you had a Bonita
Surprised realization of a potential partner having a significant other

We were making out in the crowded little alley
Describing the location and actions during the encounter

And you held me by the hand
Describing physical contact during the encounter

I said something stupid
Admitting to a mistake or misstep

Asked you to be exclusive for the summer
Asking for a commitment from the other person

Don’t blame me, I was drunk
Excusing oneself for poor behavior

I’m glad I ain't bring you home
Relieved that things didn't go further

I couldn't tell if it was something or just shots
Uncertainty regarding the nature of the encounter

After 4 dates, you told me you had boyfriend
Revealing a significant detail about the other person's relationship status

And boy, then I had to pick my poison
Acknowledging the difficult decision that had to be made

And I picked, I mean I didn’t know the guy
Choosing to pursue the relationship despite not knowing the other person

Invite you to my home and I
Describing a specific moment and action

Laid you down, hoping I was stroking right
Describing physical intimacy and concern for performance

Eyes dilated now, taking you in
Describing the state of arousal and attraction

Not sure we ever finished that movie we played to begin
Recalling a movie watched during the encounter, but unsure if it was finished

Remember getting spirited away and running home in hail
Recalling a journey home and the weather conditions

Trying not to kiss you in the lift but drunk on your exhale, we were
Describing a moment of desire and restraint

Walking down that brick road, hoping it would go forever
Describing a feeling of euphoria and bliss

You retreated when the streetlights couldn’t show direction
Describing the other person's behavior and decision-making

Drank the baijiu under stars then went back home and separated
Describing an occasion where alcohol was consumed and the end of the encounter

Gave me the impression we were over and then you texted
Recalling a moment of mixed signals and miscommunication

Maybe if I only had you for that summer
Wistfully thinking about what could have been

Left the darkness down the brick road undiscovered
Describing a feeling of missed opportunity

You were right
Acknowledging the other person's intuition or insight

There was nothing for us in the night
Realizing that the relationship wasn't meant to be

When was the last time that we flirted
Reflecting on the state of the relationship

Half the time, we’re burdens to each other
Acknowledging the challenges and difficulties in the relationship

Vagabonds with curfews
Describing the participants in the relationship as aimless or restless

Trapped inside a circle
Feeling stuck or trapped in a cycle

Every single fuckup’s a judgment on if I really love you
Worrying about the effect of mistakes on the relationship

Then you're pissed off, and it's pushing
Referring to the other person's anger and frustration

‘Til I start to wonder
Feeling uncertain or doubtful about the relationship

Fighting outside a Starbucks
Describing a public altercation between the two people

An old peddler lady offers a rose hoping to charm us
Describing a moment involving an unrelated third party

We tell her to fuck off
Describing a negative or hostile response to the third party

You don't even look back at me as you call an Uber and make your departure
Describing the other person's behavior after a fight or argument

God forgive me if I'm fifteen minutes late to see you
Feeling anxiety or pressure to be on time for the other person

You get angry, say "let’s breakup" then make me appease you
Describing a pattern of behavior in the relationship

Every time you’re upset, it’s split up cause you know I won’t leave you
Acknowledging the other person's manipulative tendencies

Run away to make me win you back so you can feel needed
Describing the other person's desire to feel needed or wanted

I'm seething in that empty alley where you’d found me in the crowd and yelling
Describing a moment of intense emotion and memory recall

"You can't run from your problems"
Realization of a personal truth or epiphany

While walking behind you, I guess
Acknowledging the singer's role in the relationship

I always followed mine
Reflecting on one's own behavior and actions

It’s just not the time when I can be all you want
Realizing one's own limitations in the relationship

It'll never be
Acknowledging the likely outcome of the relationship

Walking down the main road, knowing it’d be for the better
Accepting the end of the relationship

I retreated when the streetlights gave me more direction
Describing one's own decision to end things

Than you, I drank the vodka then we went back home and separated
Describing another instance of ending the encounter

Gave me the impression we were over then you texted
Another instance of mixed signals and confusion

We always lived and died in the summer (In the summer)
Reflecting on the seasonal aspect of the relationship

Left it all behind, living life under covers (Under covers)
Describing the hidden or secretive nature of the relationship

But the equinox always comes
Referencing the change of seasons and accepting change

We did all we could to recover
Acknowledging the effort put into the relationship

At least we made it through two summers
Concluding that the relationship had some successful moments