On Your Side
The Last Dinner Party Lyrics


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I know I'm better off not looking back
Forgive me father, won't you take it back?
That we were lovers
Bodies touching on park benches
Stray dogs watching
It disgusts me now

I wish I didn't want you
Wish I could do without
This blood on my face
Where you teeth sunk in
Bite me again

When it's 4 AM
And your heart is breaking
I will hold your hands
To stop them from shaking
If it takes all night
I will be on your side

Back to the olive mount you lead me to
The wind was blinding so I clung to you
And you smiled so sweetly
As you threw me
Down the rocks into the seaweed
You thought that I could fly

I wish I didn't want you
Wish I could do without this blood
On my face, where your teeth sunk in
Bite me again

When it's 4 AM
And your heart is breaking
I will hold your hands
To stop them from shaking
If it takes all night
I will be on your side

When you're lying here, I believe you love me
You can hold my hair back when you kiss me
If you stay all night, I will be on your side

When it's 4 AM
And your heart is breaking
I will hold your hands
To stop them from shaking




If it takes all night
I will be on your side

Overall Meaning

In "On Your Side" by The Last Dinner Party, the singer reflects on a past relationship while grappling with conflicting emotions and a sense of regret. The opening lines convey a desire to move forward and not dwell on the past, but the singer also seeks forgiveness and longs to erase the memory of their past intimacy. The reference to lovers touching on park benches juxtaposed with stray dogs observing implies a sense of shame and disgust the singer now feels towards those moments.


The chorus expresses a conflicted longing for the person they are addressing. The singer wishes they didn't want them, that they could live without their presence, but the lingering effect of the past is visually represented by the blood on their face, symbolizing the emotional wounds left by this person. The repeated imagery of biting and teeth sinking in suggests a metaphorical consumption or control, implying a volatile and potentially abusive dynamic.


The second verse continues with a vivid flashback to a particular location, called the olive mount, where the wind hindered their sight and they sought refuge in the person's presence. The contrast between the tender smile and the act of throwing the singer down the rocks into seaweed suggests betrayal and a disregard for their well-being. The reference to thinking that the singer could fly hints at the manipulation or false promises made by the person, further complicating the emotions involved.


The bridge reinforces the singer's willingness to support and be there for the person despite the pain they may be feeling. The mention of holding hands to stop them from shaking implies emotional vulnerability and a promise to provide comfort during difficult times. The repeated assurance of being on their side throughout the night signifies a steadfast commitment to support, even when it requires an extended effort.


Overall, "On Your Side" explores the complexities of a past relationship, mixing emotions of longing, regret, disgust, and a desire to offer support. It delves into a tumultuous dynamic that has left emotional scars, but also reveals the singer's willingness to be there for the person despite the pain they have caused. The lyrics invite the listener to reflect on past relationships, the power dynamics within them, and the emotional journey of healing and forgiveness.


Line by Line Meaning

I know I'm better off not looking back
I understand that it's beneficial for me to not dwell on the past


Forgive me father, won't you take it back?
I'm seeking forgiveness and hoping for a reversal of the situation


That we were lovers
That we were once in a romantic relationship


Bodies touching on park benches
Our physical closeness in public spaces, specifically park benches


Stray dogs watching
Observing eyes of stray dogs witnessing our interactions


It disgusts me now
Now, it repulses and repels me


I wish I didn't want you
I desire to not have feelings for you anymore


Wish I could do without
I desire to be able to live without


This blood on my face
The evidence of physical harm I have endured


Where your teeth sunk in
The location where you bit into me


Bite me again
Inflict pain upon me once more


When it's 4 AM
During the early hours of the morning


And your heart is breaking
When you're experiencing emotional distress


I will hold your hands
I will offer comfort and support by holding your hands


To stop them from shaking
To prevent them from trembling due to fear or anxiety


If it takes all night
Even if it requires the entire night


I will be on your side
I will be there to support and stand by you


Back to the olive mount you lead me to
Returning to the place you guided me towards, known as the olive mount


The wind was blinding so I clung to you
The strong wind was disorienting, causing me to hold onto you tightly


And you smiled so sweetly
You displayed a pleasant and affectionate smile


As you threw me
But then you unexpectedly threw me


Down the rocks into the seaweed
Tumbling down the rocks and landing among the seaweed


You thought that I could fly
You believed that I had the ability to defy gravity and soar


When you're lying here, I believe you love me
When we're in this intimate and vulnerable position, I have faith in your love for me


You can hold my hair back when you kiss me
While kissing, you can gently hold back my hair to create a more intimate connection


If you stay all night, I will be on your side
If you choose to remain with me throughout the entire night, I will offer my unwavering support




Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Abigail Morris, Aurora Nishevci, Emily Roberts, Georgia Davies, Lizzie Mayland, Rhys Downing

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Wait Hyde Park in Boston or NY?

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Just noticed they are UK based so I am assuming London 😅Typical New England of me

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